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THE LAY ANTHONY

A Romance

By Joseph Hergesheimer

New York & London

Mitchell Kennerley 1914


“_... if in passing from this deceitful world into true life love is
not forgotten,... I know that among the most joyous souls of the third
heaven my Fiametta sees my pain. Pray her, if the sweet draught of Lethe
has not robbed me of her,... to obtain my ascent to her._”

--Giovanni Boccaccio


TO

DOROTHY

THIS

FIGMENT OF A PERPETUAL FLOWERING

THE LAY ANTHONY




I--A ROMANCE

NOT for the honor of winning the Vanderbilt Cup, nor for the glory of
pitching a major league baseball team into the world's championship,
would Tony Ball have admitted to the familiar and derisive group in the
drugstore that he was--in the exact, physical aspect of the word--pure.
Secretly, and in an entirely natural and healthy manner, he was ashamed
of his innocence. He carefully concealed it in an elaborate assumption
of wide worldly knowledge and experience, in an attitude of cynical
comprehension, and indifference toward _girls_.

But he might have spared himself the effort, the fictions, of his
pose--had he proclaimed his ignorance aloud from the brilliantly lighted
entrance to the drugstore no one who knew him in the midweek, night
throng on Ellerton's main street would have credited Anthony with
anything beyond a thin and surprising joke. He was, at twenty, the
absolute, adventurous opposite of any conscious or cloistered virtue:
the careless carriage of his big, loose frame; his frank, smiling grey
eyes and ample mouth; his very, drawling voice--all marked him for a
loiterer in the pleasant and sunny places of life, indifferent to the
rigors of a mental or moral discipline.

The accumulated facts of his existence fully bore this out: the number
of schools from which, playing superlative baseball, he had been still
obliged to leave, carrying with him the cordial good will of master
and fellow, for an unconquerable, irresponsible laxity; the number and
variety of occupations that had claimed him in the past three years,
every one of which at their inception certain, he felt confident, to
carry him beyond all dreams and necessity of avarice; and every one, in
his rapidly diminishing interest, attention, or because of persistent,
adverse conditions over which, he asseverated, he had no control,
turning into a fallow field, a disastrous venture; and, conclusively,
the group of familiars, the easy companions of idle hours, to which he
had gravitated.

He met his mates by appointment at Doctor Allhop's drugstore, or by an
elaborate system of whistled formulas from the street, at which he would
rise with a muttered excuse from the dinner table and disappear.--He
was rarely if ever sought outright at his father's house; it was quite
another sort of boy who met and discoursed easily with sisters, who
unperturbed greeted mothers face to face.

It would have been useless, had he known it, to protest his virtue
inside the drugstore or out; a curious chain of coincidents had
preserved it. Again and again he had been at the point of surrendering
his involuntary Eden, and always the accident, the interruption, had
befallen, always he had retired in a state of more or less orderly
celibacy. On the occasion of one of those nocturnal, metropolitan
escapades by which matured boys, in a warm, red veil of whiskey, assert
their manhood and independence, he had been thrust in a drunken stupor
into the baggage car of the “owl” train to Ellerton. Instances might
be multiplied: life, in its haphazard manner, its uncharted tides
and eddies sweeping arbitrarily up and down the world, had carelessly
preserved in him that concrete ideal which myriads of heroic and
agonized beings had striven terribly and in vain to ward.

And so it happened, when Doctor Allhop turned with an elaborate
impropriety from the pills he was compounding in a porcelain pestle,
that Anthony's laugh was loudest, his gusto most marked, in the group
gathered at the back of the drugstore. A wooden screen divided them,
hid the shelves of bottles, the water sink, and the other properties and
ingredients of the druggist's profession, from the glittering and public
exhibition of the finished article, the marble slab and silver mouths of
the sodawater fountain, the uninitiated throng.

He was sitting on a case of prepared food, his legs thrust out before
him, and a thread of smoke coiling bluely from the cigarette held in
his broad, scarred hand. There was a little gay song on his lips, and a
roving, gay glint in his direct gaze. At frequent intervals he surveyed
with approbation maroon socks and a pair of new and shining pumps; the
rest of his apparel was negligent.

The sole chair was occupied by the plump bulk of Thomas Addington
Meredith, to whom a sharp nose in a moonlike countenance lent an
expression of constant inquiry and foxy caution. He was elaborately
apparelled in a suit which boasted a waistcoat draped with the gold
chain of an authentic timepiece; while, closing a silver cigarette case
scrolled large with his initials, a fat finger bore a ruby that, rumor
circulated, had been the gift of a married woman.

Lounging against a shelf Alfred Craik gazed absently at his blackened
and broken fingernails, his greasy palms. He was Anthony's partner
in the current industry of a machine shop and garage, maintained in a
dilapidated stable on the outskirts of Ellerton. It was a concern
mainly upheld by a daily levy on the Ball family for necessary tools and
accessories. He was, as always, silent, detached.

But William Williams amply atoned for any taciturnity on the part of the
others; he had returned a short while before from two checkered years
in the West; and, a broad felt hat cinched with a carved leather hand
pushed back from his brow, and waving the formidable stump of a cigar,
he expiated excitedly on the pleasures of that far, liberal land.

“Why,” he proclaimed, “I owe a saloon keeper in San Francisco sixty-five
dollars for one round of drinks--the joint was full and it was up to
me... nothing but champagne went, understand! He knows he'll get it.
Why, I collared ten dollars a day overseeing sheep. I cleaned up three
thousand in one little deal; it was in Butte City; it lasted nine days.
But 'Frisco's the place--all the girls there are good sports, all the
men spenders.”

“What did you come back East for?” Alfred Craik demanded; “why didn't
you stay right with it?”

“I got up against it,” William grinned; “the old man wouldn't give
me another stake.” The thought of the glories he had been forced
to relinquish started him afresh. “I cleaned up enough in a week at
billiards,” he boasted, “to keep me in Ellerton a year.”

“Didn't Bert Dingley take four bits from you last night at Hinkle's?”
 Anthony lazily asked.

“That farmer!” the other scoffed; “I had a rank cue; they are all rank
at Hinkle's. I'll match him in a decent parlor for any amount.”

“How much will you put up?” Meredith demanded; “I will back Bert.”

“How much have you got?” William queried.

“How much have you?”

“If this was San Francisco I could get a hundred.”

“What have you got in real coin, Bill?” Tony joined in.

“Three nickles,” William Williams admitted moodily.

“I've got thirty-five cents,” Thomas added. “I wish I could get a piece
of change.”

“How's the car?” Anthony turned to hiss partner in the lull that
followed. The “car,” their sole professional charge, had been placed in
their hands by an optimistic and benevolent connection of the Balls.

“I had the differential apart again to-day,” Alfred responded, “but I
can't find that grinding anywhere. It will have to be all torn down,” he
announced with sombre enthusiasm.

“You have had that dam' thing apart three times in the last four weeks,
and every time you put it together it's worse,” Anthony protested; “the
cylinder casing leaks, and God knows what you did to the gears.”

“I wish I had a piece of change,” Thomas Meredith repeated, in a manner
patently mysterious.

“A temporary sacrifice of your tin shop--” Doctor Allhop suggested,
tinning from the skilful moulding of the pills on a glass slab.

“Not a chance! the family figurehead announced that he had taken my
watch 'out' for the last time.”

“He wants to plaster it on some Highschool skirt,” Alfred announced
unexpectedly.

“This robbing the nursery makes me ill,” William protested. “Out in
Denver there are real queens with gold hair--”

His period was lost in a yapping chorus from the west-wearied circle.
“Take it to bed with you,” he was entreated.

“Nothing in the Highschool can reach these,” Meredith assured them,
“this is the real thing--an all night seance. They have just moved in by
the slaughter house; a regular pipe--their father is dead, and the old
woman's deaf. Two sisters... one has got red hair, and the other can
kick higher'n you can hold your hand. The night I went I had to leave
early, but they told me to come hack... any night after nine, and bring
a friend.”

“I'll walk around with you,” William Williams remarked negligently.

“Not on three nickles. They told me to fetch around a couple of bottles
of port wine, and have a genuine party.”

Anthony Ball listened with rapidly growing attention, while he fingered
three one dollar bills wadded into the bottom of his pocket. He felt his
blood stir more rapidly, beating in his ears: vague pictures thronged
his brain of girls with flaming hair, dexterous, flashing limbs, white
frills, garters. With an elaborate air of unconcern he asked:

“Are they goodlookers?”

“Oh, Boy! they have got that hidden fascination.”

Anthony made a swift reckoning of the price of port; it would wipe out
the sum he was getting together for badly needed baseball shoes.--Red
hair!--He could count on no further assistance from his father that
month; the machine shop at present was an expense.

“Got any coin?” Meredith demanded.

“A few.”

The other consulted with importance the ostentatious watch. “Just the
minute,” he announced. “Come along; we can get the port at the Eagle;
we'll have a Paris of a time.”

Doctor Allhop offered an epigrammatic parallel between two celebrated
planets.

“I need new ball shoes,” Anthony temporized; “I ripped mine the last
game.”

Meredith rose impatiently. “Charge them to the family,” he ejaculated.
“But if you don't want to get in on this, there are plenty of others.
Two or three dollars are easy to raise in a good cause. Why, the last
night I spent in the city cost me seventeen bucks.”

“I guess I'll come.” Anthony instinctively barred his sudden eagerness
from his voice. He rose, and was surprised to find that his knees were
trembling. His face was hot too.--he wondered if it was red? if it would
betray his inexperience? “If they hand me any Sundayschool stuff,” he
proclaimed bigly, “I'll step right on it; I'm considerably wise to these
dames.”

“This is the real, ruffled goods.” Meredith settled a straw hat with a
blue band on his sleek head, and Anthony dragged a faded cap from his
pocket, which he drew far over his eyes. William Williams regarded them
enviously. Craik's thoughts had wandered far, his lips moved silently.
And Doctor Allhop had disappeared into the front of the drugstore.




II.

LET'S get along,” Anthony said in a a thick, strange voice. He stumbled
forward; his eyes were hot, blurred; he tried in vain to wink clear his
vision. Suddenly his elbow struck sharply against a shelf, and there was
an answering crash, the splintering of glass smashing upon the floor.
Doctor Allhop hurried in to the scene of the disaster. “You young bull
among the bottles!” he exclaimed in exasperated tones; “a whole gross of
perfume, all the white lilac, lost.”

Anthony Ball stood motionless, embarrassed and annoyed by the accident;
and great, heavy coils of the scent rose about him; they filled his
nostrils with wave on wave of pungent odor, and stung his eyes so that
he shut them. The scent seemed to press about him, to obstruct his
breathing, weigh upon his heart; he put out a hand as if to ward it
off. It seemed to him that great masses of the flower surrounded him,
shutting him with a white, sweet wall from the world. He swayed dizzily;
then vanquished the illusion with an expression of regret for the damage
he had wrought.

The Doctor was on his knees, brushing together the debris; William
Williams guffawed; and Craik smiled idly. Meredith swore, tapping a
cigarette on his silver case. “You're a parlor ornament, you are,” he
told Anthony.

A feeling of impotence enveloped the latter, a sullen resentment against
an occurrence the inevitable result of which must descend like a shower
of cold water upon his freshly-stirred desires. “I am sorry as hell,
Doctor,” he repeated; “what did that box cost you?”

“Six seventy,” Allhop shot impatiently over his shoulder.

Anthony produced his three dollars, and, smoothing them, laid the sum on
a table. “I will stop in with the rest to-morrow morning,” he said. The
Doctor rose and turned, partly mollified; but, to avoid the argument
which, he felt, might follow, Anthony strode quickly out into the
drugstore. There at the white marble sodawater fountain a bevy of youth
was consuming colorific cones of ice cream, drinking syrupy concoctions
from tall, glistening glasses. They called him by name, but he passed
them without a sign of recognition, still the victim of his jangling
sensibilities.




III

BAY STREET was thronged; the shops displayed broad, lighted windows
filled with their various merchandise; in front of a produce store a row
of chickens hung bare, bright blue and yellow, head down; from within
came the grinding of a coffee machine, the acrid voices of women
bargaining. The glass doors to the fire-engine house stood open, the
machines glimmering behind a wide demilune of chairs holding a motley
assemblage of men. Further along, from above, came the shuffle of
dancing feet, the thin, wiry wail of violins. At the corners groups of
youths congregated, obstructing the passerby, smirking and indulging in
sudden, stridulous hursts of laughter.

The sky was infinitely remote, intensely, tenderly blue, the stars white
as milk; from the immediately surrounding countryside came the scented
breaths of early summer--the trailing sweetness of locust blooms, of
hidden hedges of honeysuckle, of June roses, and all the pungent aroma
of growing grasses, leaves, of fragile and momentary flowers.

Anthony made his way brusquely through the throng, nodding shortly to
the countless salutations that marked his progress. The youths all knew
him, and the majority of the men; women stopped in their sharp haggling
to smile at him; garlands of girls gay in muslins “Mistered” him with
pretty propriety, or followed him more boldly over their shoulders with
inviting eyes.

He impatiently disregarded his facile popularity: the tumult within him
settled into a dull, unreasoning anger against the universe at large. He
still owed Doctor Allhop four dollars and seventy cents; he had told
the Doctor that he would pay to-morrow; and he would have to go to his
father. The latter was a rigorously just man, Anthony gladly recognized,
the money would be instantly forthcoming; but he was not anxious to
recall the deficiencies of his present position to his father just then.
He had passed twenty, and--beyond his ability to cause a baseball to
travel in certain unexpected tangents, and a limited comprehension of
the conduct of automobiles--he was totally without assets, and without
any light on the horizon.

He had been willing to work, he reminded himself resentfully, but bad
luck had overtaken him at every turn. The venture before the machine
shop--a scheme of squabs, the profits of which, calculated from an
advertisement, soared with the birthrate of those prolific birds, had
been ruined by rats. The few occasions when he had neglected to feed the
pigeons, despite the frank and censorious opinion of the family, had
had little or nothing to do with that misfortune. And, before that,
his kennel of rabbit dogs had met with an untimely fate when a favorite
bitch had gone mad, and a careful commonwealth had decreed the death
of the others. If his mother could but be won from the negative she had
placed upon baseball as a professional occupation, he might easily rise
through the minor leagues to a prideful position in the ranks of the
national pastime--“Lonnie This” was paid fourteen hundred yearly for
his prowess with the leather sphere, “Hans That's” removal from one to
another club had involved thousands of dollars.

He heard his name pronounced in a peremptory manner, and stopped to
see the relative whose automobile had been placed in his care cross the
street.

“What in the name of the Lord have you young dunces done to my car?” the
older man demanded.

“We have been trying to locate that grinding,” Anthony told him in as
conciliatory manner as he could assume.

“Well,” the other proceeded angrily, “you have ruined it this time; the
gears slid around like a plate of ice cream.”

“It was nothing but a pile of junk when we took it,” Tony exploded; “why
don't you loosen up and get a real car?”

“I took it to Feedler's. You can send me a bill to-morrow.”

“There will be no bill. I'm sorry you were not satisfied, Sam.”

“You are the most shiftless young dog in the county,” the other told him
in kindlier tones; “why don't you take hold of something, Anthony?”

Anthony swung on his heel and abruptly departed. He had taken hold, he
thought hotly, times without number, but everything broke in his grasp.

The stores on Bay Street grew more infrequent, the rank of monotonous
brick dwellings closed up, family groups occupied the steps that led to
the open doors. The crowd grew less, dwindling to a few aimless couples,
solitary pedestrians. He soon stopped, before his home. Opposite the
gaunt skeleton of a building operation rose blackly against the pale
stars. The aged lindens above him, lushly leaved, cast an intenser
gloom, filled with the warm, musty odor of the sluiced pavement, about
the white marble steps. The hall, open before him, was a cavern of
coolness; beyond, from the garden shut from the street by an intricate,
rusting iron fence, he heard the deliberate tones of his sister Ellie.
Evidently there was a visitor, and he entered the hall noiselessly,
intent upon passing without notice to his room above. But Ellie had
been watching for him, and called before he had reached the foot of the
stairs.




IV

HE made his way diffidently through a long window to the lawn; where
he saw his sister, a glimmering, whitish shape in the heavily overgrown
garden, conversing with a figure without form or detail, by a trellis
sagging beneath a verdurous weight.

“Oh, Tony!” she called; “here's Mrs. Dreen.”

He leaned forward awkwardly, and grasped a slim, jewelled hand. “I
didn't know you were back from France,” he told the indistinct woman
before him.

“But you read that Mr. Dreen had resigned the consulship at Lyons,” a
delicate, rounded voice rejoined, “and you should have guessed that we
would come home to Ellerton. My dear Ellie,” she turned to the girl,
“you have no idea how delighted James is at being here once more. He has
given the farmer notice, and insists that he is going to cultivate his
own acres. He was up this morning at six; fancy, after France and
his late _déjeuner._ And Eliza adores it; she spends the day with a
gardener, planning flowerbeds.”

Anthony slipped into an easy posture on the thick, damp sod. Although
he had not seen Mrs. James Dreen since his childhood, when she had
accompanied her husband abroad to a consular post, he still retained
a pleasant memory of her magnetic and precise charm, the memory of her
harmonious personality, the beauty of her apparel and rings.

“How is Eliza?” he asked politely, and with no inward interest; “she
must be a regular beauty by now.”

“No,” Mrs. Dreen returned crisply, “she is not particularly goodlooking,
but she has always told me the truth. Eliza is a dear.” Anthony lit a
cigarette, and flipped the match in a minute gold arc, extinguished in
the night.

“I am decidedly uneasy about Eliza though,” she continued to Ellie; “to
tell the truth, I am not sure how she will take over here. She is a
serious child; I would say temperamental, but that's such an impossible
word. She is absolutely and transparently honest and outspoken--it's
_ghastly_ at times. The most unworldly person alive; with her thought
and action are one, and often as not her thoughts are appalling. All
that, you know, doesn't spell wisdom for a girl.”

“Yet James and I couldn't bear to... make her harder. A great deal of
care... If she is my daughter, Ellie, she is exquisite--so sensitive,
sympathetic...”

Anthony, absorbed in the misfortune that had overtaken the machine shop,
the impending, inevitable interview with his father, so justly rigorous,
hardly gathered the sense of Mrs. Dreen's discourse. Occasional phrases,
familiar and unfamiliar terms, pierced his abstraction.--“Colombin's.”
 “James' siatica.” “Camille Marchais.” Then her words, centering about a
statement that had captured his attention, became coherent, significant.

“Only a small affair,” Mrs. Dreen explained; “to introduce Eliza to
Ellerton. Nothing on a large scale until winter.... Dancing, or rather
what goes down for dancing to-day. I am asking our old intimates, and
have written a few informal cards.”

An automobile drew up smoothly before the Balls; its rear light winked
like an angry red eye through the iron fence. Mrs. Dreen rose. In the
gloom her face was girlish; there was a blur of lace at her throat, a
glimmer of emeralds. “Mind you come,” she commanded Ellie. “And you too,
without fail,” to Anthony. “Now that Hydrangea House is open again we
must have our friends about us. Heavens! Howard Ball's children and
mine grown up!” She moved gracefully across to a garden gate. Anthony
assisted her into the motorcar; the door closed with a snap.

Ellie had sunk back into her chair, and was idly twisting her fingers
in the grass at her side. At her back the ivied wall of the house beyond
stirred faintly with sparrows. A misshapen moon swung apparently up from
and through the building frame opposite, and faint shadows unfolded on
the grass. Anthony flung himself moodily by his sister.

“Sam's taken his car from us,” he informed her; “that will about shut up
the shop.”

“Then perhaps you will bring back the screwdrivers.”

“To-morrow.”

“What are you going to do, Tony?”

“Tell me.”

“A big strong fellow... there mast be something.”

“Mother won't let me play ball in the leagues.”

“Perhaps she will; we'll talk to her; it's better than nothing.”

“I broke a box of rotten perfume at the drugstore, and owe the Doctor
four seventy.”

“It's too bad--father is never free from little worries; you are
always getting into difficulties. You are different from other boys,
Anthony--there don't seem to be any place in life for you; or you don't
make a place, I can't tell which. You have no constructive sense, and no
feeling of responsibility. What do you want to do with yourself?”

“I don't know, Ellie, honestly,” he confessed. “I try like the devil,
make a thousand resolutions, and then--I go off fishing. Or if I don't
things go to the rats just the same.”

“Well,” she rose, “I'm going up. Don't bother father about that money,
I'll let you have it. It's perfectly useless to tell you to return it.”

“I swear you will get it next week,” he proclaimed gratefully. “The
baseball association owes me for two games.”

“Haven't you promised it?”

“That's so!” he exclaimed ruefully. She laughed and disappeared into the
house.




V

A BLACK depression settled over him; life appeared a huge conspiracy
against his success, his happiness. The future, propounded by Ellie, was
suddenly stripped of all glamor, denuded of all optimistic dreams; he
passed through one of those dismaying periods when the world, himself,
his pretentions, were revealed in the clear and pitiless light of
reality. His friends, his circumstances, his hopes, held out no promise,
no thought of pleasure. Behind him his life lay revealed as a series
of failures, before him it was plotted without security. The plan, the
order, that others saw, or said that they saw, presented to him only a
cloudy confusion. The rewards for which others struggled, aspired, which
they found indispensable, had been ever meaningless to him--to money
he never gave a thought; a society organized into calls, dancing,
incomprehensible and petty values, never rose above his horizon.

He was happiest in the freedom of the open, the woods; in the easy
company of casual friends, black or white, kindly comment. He would
spend a day with his dogs and gun, sitting on a stump in a snowy field,
listening to the eager yelping in the distant, blue wood, shooting
a rare rabbit. Or tramping tirelessly the leafy paths of autumn. Or,
better still, swinging through the miry October swales, coonhunting
after midnight with lantern and climbers.

But now those pleasures, in anticipated retrospect, appeared bald,
unprofitable. Prolonged indefinitely, he divined, they would pall; they
did not offer adequate material, aim, for the years. For a moment he
saw, grinning hatefully at him, the spectre of what he might become; he
passed such men, collarless and unshaven, on the street comers, flinging
them a scornful salutation. He had paid for their drinks, hearkening
negligently to their stereotyped stories, secretly gibing at their
obvious goodfellowship, their eager, tremulous smiles. They had been, in
their day, great rabbit hunters... detestable.

The mood vanished, the present closed mercifully about him, leaving him
merely defiant. The townclock announced the hour in slow, jarring
notes. A light shone above from Ellie's room, and he heard his father's
deliberate footsteps in the hall, returning from the Ellerton Club,
where, as was his invariable nightly habit, he had played cooncan. The
moon, freed from the towering beams, was without color.

Anthony rose, and flung away a cold, stale cigarette; the world was just
like that--stale and cold. He proceeded toward the house, when he heard
footfalls on the pavement; in the obscurity he barely made out a man and
woman, walking so closely as to be hardly distinguishably separate. They
stopped by the fence, only a few feet from where he stood concealed in
the shadows, and the man took the woman's hands in his own, bending over
her. Then, suddenly, clasping her in his arms, he covered her upturned
face with passionate kisses. With a little, frightened gasp she clung
to his shoulders. The kisses ceased. Their strained, desperate embrace
remained unbroken.--It seemed that each was the only reality for the
other in a world of unsubstantial gloom, veiled in the shifting, silvery
mist of a cold and removed planet. The woman breathed with a deep,
sobbing inspiration; and, when she spoke, Anthony realized that he was
eavesdropping, and walked swiftly and cautiously into the house.

But the memory of that embrace; accompanied him up the stairs, into his
room. It haunted him as he lay, cool and nearly bare, on his bed.
It filled him with a profound and unreasoning melancholy, new to his
customary, unconscious animal exuberance. All at once he thought of the
redhaired girl who liked port wine; and, as he fell asleep, she stood
before him, leering slyly at the side of that other broken shape which
threatened him out of the future.




VI

THE shed that held the machine shop and garage fronted upon an informal
lane skirting the verdurous border of the town. Beyond the fence
opposite a broad pasturage dipped and rose to the blackened ruins of
a considerable brick mansion, now tenanted by a provident colony of
Italians; further hill topped green hill, the orchards drawn like
silvery scarves about their shoulders, undulating to the sky. Back of
the shed ranged the red roofs and tree-tops of the town.

When Anthony arrived at the seat of his industry the grass was flashing
with dew and the air a thrill with the buoyant piping of robins. He
found the door open, and Alfred Craik awaiting him.

“She's gone,” Alfred informed him.

“Sam told me last night; it was your infernal tinkering... you can't let
a machine alone,” Anthony dropped beside the other on the door sill.

“Could we get another car, do you think?” Alfred demanded; “I had almost
finished a humming experiment on Sam's.”

“This garage is closed,” Anthony pronounced; “it's out of existence. The
family are yelping for the screwdrivers. What do we owe?”

“Three ninety to Feedler for 'gas,' and a month's rent.”

“We're bankrupt,” the other immediately declared. He rose, and proceeded
to collect the tools that littered the floor; then he removed the sign,
“Ball and Craik. Machine Shop and Garage.”, from the door, and the shed
relapsed into its nondescript, somnolent decay.

“There's a game with Honeydale to-day,” Anthony resumed his seat; “I'm
to pitch that, and another Saturday; and, hear me, boy, I need the
money.”

Alfred gazed over the orchards, beyond the hills, into the sky, and made
no answer. It was evident that he was lost in a vision of gloriously
disrupted machinery. His silence spread to Anthony, who settled back
with a cigarette into the drowsy stillness. The minutes passed, hovering
like bees, and merged into an hour. They could hear a horse champing in
the pasture; the wail of an Italian infant came to them thinly across
the green; behind them sounded mellow the tin horn of the shad vendor.

Anthony roused himself reluctantly, recalling the debt he had to
discharge at the drugstore. Elbe's crisp five dollar bill lay in his
pocket. “Later,” he nodded, and made his way over the shady brick
pavements, through the cool perspective of maple-lined streets, where
summer dresses fluttered in spots of subdued, bright color, to Doctor
Allhop's. The Doctor was absent, and Anthony tendered the money, with a
short explanation, to the clerk. The latter smartly rang the amount on
the cash register, and placed thirty cents on the counter.

“Two packs of Dulcinas,” Anthony required, and dropped the cigarettes
into his pocket. He made his way in a leisurely fashion toward home and
the midday meal. At the table his mother's keen grey eyes regarded him
with affectionate concern. “How do you feel, Tony?” she asked. “You were
coughing last night... take such wretched care of yourself--” His father
glanced up from the half-masted sheet of the Ellerton _Bugle_. He was a
spare man, of few words, with a square-cut beard about the lower part
of an austere countenance. “What's the matter with him?” he demanded
crisply.

“Nothing,” Anthony hastily protested; “you ought to know mother.”

After lunch he extended himself smoking on the horsehair sofa in the
front room. It was a spacious chamber, with a polished floor, and
well-worn, comfortable chairs; in a corner a lacquered table bore old
blue Canton china; by the door a jar of roses dropped their pink petals;
over the fireplace a tall mirror held all in silvery replica.

“Thirty cents, please,” Ellie demanded; “I must get some stamps.”

A wave of conscious guilt, angry self condemnation, swept over him. “I'm
sorry, Ellie,” he admitted; “I haven't got it.”

She stood regarding him for a moment with cold disapproval. She was a
slender woman, past thirty, with dark, regular features and tranquil
eyes; carelessly dressed, her hair slipped over her shoulder in a cool
plait.

“I am sorry,” he repeated, “I didn't think.”

“But it wasn't yours.”

“You'll get every pretty penny of it.” He rose and in orderly discretion
sought his room, where he changed into his worn, grey playing flannels.




VII

A HIGH board fence enclosed the grounds of the Ellerton Baseball
Association; over one side rose the rude scaffolding of a grandstand,
protected from sun and rain by a covering of tarred planks; a circular
opening by a narrow entrance framed the ticket seller; while around the
base of the fence, located convenient to a small boy's eye, ran a
girdle of unnatural knotholes, highly improved cracks, through which an
occasional fleeting form might be observed, a segment of torn sod, and
the fence opposite.

A shallow flood of spectators, drawn from the various quarters of the
town, converged in a dense stream at the entrance to the Grounds;
troops of girls with brightly-hued ribbands about their vivacious arms,
boisterous or superior squads of young males, alternated with their more
sober elders--shabby and dejected men, out at elbows and work, in search
of the respite of the sun and the play; baseball enthusiasts, rotund
individuals with ruddy countenances, saturnine experts with scorecards.

Anthony observed the throng indifferently as he drew near the scene of
his repeated, past triumphs, the metal plates in his shoes grinding into
the pavement. A small procession followed him, led by a colored youth,
to whose dilapidated garments clung the unmistakable straws and aroma of
the stable, bearing aloft Anthony's glove, and “softing” it vigorously
from a natural source; a boy as round and succulent as a boiled pudding,
with Anthony's cap beneath his arm, leaving behind him a trail of peanut
shells, brought up the rear of this democratic escort.

There was little question in Anthony's mind of his ability to triumph
that afternoon over his opponents from a near-by town; their “battery,”
 he told himself, was an open book to him--a slow, dropping ball here, a
speedy one across the fingers of that red-haired fielder who habitually
flinched... and yet he wished that it had not been so hot. He thought
of the game without particular pleasure; he was conscious of a lack of
energy; his thoughts, occupied with Elli's patent contempt, stung him
waspishly.

A throng of players and hangerson filled the contracted dressing
quarters beneath the grandstand, and he was instantly surrounded by
vociferous familiars. The captain of the Ellerton team drew him aside,
and tersely outlined a policy of play, awaiting his opinion. Anthony
nodded gravely: suddenly he found the other's earnestness a little
absurd--the fate of a nation appeared to color his accents, to hang upon
the result of his decision. “Sure,” he said absently, “keep the field
in; they won't hit me.”

The other regarded him with a slight frown. “Hate yourself to-day, don't
you?” he remarked. “Lay that crowd cold on the plate, though,” he added;
“there's a man here from the major league to look you over. Hinkle told
my old man.”

A quickening of interest took possession of Anthony; they had heard of
him then in the cities, they had discovered him worthy of the journey to
Ellerton, of investigation. A vision of his name acclaimed from coast to
coast, his picture in the playing garb of a famous organization filling
the Sunday sheets, occupied his mind as he turned toward the field. The
captain called mysteriously, “Don't get patted up with any purple stuff
handed you before the game.”

The opposing team, widely scattered, were warming; a pitcher, assuming
the attitudes of an agonising cramp, was indulging in a preliminary
practice; the ball sped with a dull, regular thud into the catcher's
mit. A ball was tossed to Anthony, a team mate backed against the fence,
and, raising his hands on high, he apparently overcame all the natural
laws of flight. He was conscious of Hinkle, prosperous proprietor of the
Ellerton Pool Parlor, at his back with a stranger, an ungainly man,
close lipped, keen of vision. There were intimations of approval. “A
fine wing,” the stranger said. “He's got 'em all,” Hinkle declared.
“Hundreds of lads can pitch a good game,” the other told him, “now and
again, they are amatoors. One in a thousand, in ten thousand, can play
ball all the time; they're professionals; they're worth money... I want
to see him act...” they moved away.

The players were called in from the field, the captains bent over a
tossed coin; and, first to bat, the Ellerton team ranged itself on
benches. Then, as the catcher was drawing on his mask, Hinkle and
another familiar town figure, who dedicated his days to speeding weedy
horses in red flannel anklets from a precarious wire vehicle, stepped
forward from the grandstand. “Mr. Anthony Ball!” Hinkle called. A
sudden, tense silence enveloped the spectators, the players stopped
curiously. Anthony turned with mingled reluctance and surprise.
Something shone in Hinkle's hand: he saw that it was a watch. “As a
testimonial from your Ellerton friends,” the other commenced loudly.
Anthony's confused mind lost part of the short oration which followed
“... recognition of your sportsmanship and skill... happy disposition.
The good fame of the Ellerton Baseball team... predict great future on
the national diamond.”

A storm of applause from the grandstand rippled away in opposite
directions along the line sitting by the fence; boys with their mouths
full of fingers whistled incredibly. Hinkle held out the watch, but
Anthony's eyes were fixed upon the ground. He shook the substantial mark
of Ellerton's approval, so that the ornate fob glittered in the sun,
but Anthony's arms remained motionless at his sides. “Take it, you
leatherkop,” a voice whispered fiercely in his ear. 'And with a start,
he awkwardly grasped the gift. “Thank you,” he muttered, his voice
inaudible five yards away. He wished with passionate resentment that the
fiend who was yelling “speech!” would drop dead. He glanced up, and the
sight of all those excited, kindly faces deepened his confusion until
it rose in a lump in his throat, blurred his vision, in an idiotic,
childish manner. “Ah, _call_ the game, can't you,” he urged over his
shoulder.

The first half inning was soon over, without incident; and, as Anthony
walked to the pitcher's “box,” the necessity to surpass all previous
efforts was impressed upon him by the watch, by the presence of that
spectator from a major league who had come to see him “act.” He wished
again, in a passing irritation, that it had not been so hot. Behind the
batter he could see the countenance of “Kag” Lippit staring through the
wires of his mask. “Kag” executed a cabalistic signal with his left arm,
and Anthony pitched. The umpire hoarsely informed the world at large
that it had been a strike. A blast of derisive catcalls arose from the
Ellerton partisans; another strike, shriller catcalls, and the batter
retired after a third ineffectual lunge amid a tempest of banter.

The second batter hit a feeble fly negligently attached by the third
baseman, who “put it over to first” in the exuberance of his contempt.
The third Anthony disposed of with equal brevity.

He next faced the pitcher, and, succumbing to the pressure of
extraordinary events, he swung the bat with a tremendous effort, and the
flattened ball described a wide arc into the ready palms of the right
fielder. “You're _Out!_” the umpire vociferated. The uncritical portion
of the spectators voiced their pleasure in the homeric length of the
hit, but the captain was contemptuously cold as Anthony returned to the
bench. “The highschool hero,” he remarked; “little Willie the Wallop. If
you don't bat to the game,” he added in a different tone, “if you were
Eddie Plank I'd bench you.”

That inning the Ellerton team scored a run: a youth hurtling headlong
through the dust pressed his cheek affectionately upon the dingy square
of marble dignified by the title of home, while a second hammered him
violently in the groin with the ball; one chorus shrieked, “out by
a block!” another, “safe! safe!” he was “safe as safe!” the girls
declared. The umpire's voice rose authoritatively above the tumult.
“Play ball! he's safe!”

Anthony pitched that inning faultlessly; never had ball obeyed him so
absolutely; it dropped, swung to the right, to the left, revolved or
sped dead. The batters faded away like ice cream at a church supper. As
he came in from the “box” the close-lipped stranger strode forward and
grasped his shoulder. “I want to see you after the game,” he declared;
“don't sign up with no one else. I'm from--” he whispered his persuasive
source in Anthony's ear. The captain commended him pithily. “He's got
'em all,” Hinkle proclaimed to the assembled throng.

When Anthony batted next it was with calculated nicety; he drove the
ball between shortstop and second base, and, by dint of hard running,
achieved a rapturously acclaimed “two bagger.” The captain then merely
tapped the ball--breathlessly it was described as a “sacrifice”--and
Anthony moved to the third base, and a succeeding hit sent him “home.”
 Another run was added to the Ellerton score, it now stood three to
nothing in their favor, before Anthony returned to the dusty depression
from which he pitched.

He was suddenly and unaccountably tired; the cursed heat was worse than
ever, he thought, wiping a wet palm on his grimy leg; above him the sky
was an unbroken, blazing expanse of blue; short, sharp shadows shifted
under the feet of the tense players; in the shade of the grandstand the
dresses, mostly white, showed here and there a vivid note of yellow
and violet, the crisp note of crimson. The throbbing song of a
thrush floated from a far hedge... it stirred him with a new unrest,
dissatisfaction... “Kag” looked like a damned fool grimacing at him
through the wire mask--exactly like a monkey in a cage. The umpire in
his inflated protector, crouching in a position of rigorous attention,
resembled a turtle. He pitched, and a spurt of dust rose a yard before
the plate. “Ball one!” That wouldn't do, he told himself, recalling the
substantially expressed confidence, esteem, of Ellerton. The captain's
sibilant “steady” was like the flick of a whip. With an effort which
taxed his every resource he marshalled his relaxed muscles into an
aching endeavor, centred his unstable thoughts upon the exigencies of
the play, and retired the batter before him. But he struck the next
upon the arm, sending him, nursing the bruise, to first base. He saw
the captain grimly wave the outfielders farther back; and, determined,
resentful, he struck out in machinelike order the remaining batters. But
he was unconscionably weary; his arm felt as though he had been pitching
for a week, a month; and he dropped limp and surly upon the sod at a
distance from the players' bench.

He batted once more, but a third “out” on the bases saved him from the
fluke which, he had been certain, must inevitably follow. As he stood
with the ball in his hand, facing the batter, he was conscious of an air
of uncertainty spreading like a contagion through the Ellerton team;
he recognized that it radiated from himself--his lack of confidence
magnified to a promised panic. The centre fielder fumbled a fly directly
in his hands; there was a shout from Ellerton's opponents, silence in
the ranks of Ellerton.

Anthony pitched with a tremendous effort, his arm felt brittle; it felt
as though it was made of glass, and would break off. He could put no
speed into the ball, his fingers seemed swollen, he was unable to grip
it properly, control its direction. The red-haired player whom he had
despised faced him, he who habitually flinched, and Anthony essayed to
drive the ball across his fingers. The bat swung with a vicious crack
upon the leather sphere, a fielder ran vainly back, back....

The runner passed first base, and, wildly urged by a small but
adequately vocal group of wellwishers, scorned second base, repudiated
third, from which another player tallied a run, and loafed magnificently
“home.”

From the fence some one called to Anthony, “what time is it?” and
achieved a huge success among the opposition. His captain besought him
desperately to “come back. Where's your pep' went? you're pitching like
a dead man!” Confusion fell upon the team in the field, and, in its
train, a series of blunders which cost five runs. After the inning
Anthony stood with a lowered, moody countenance. “You're out of this
game,” the captain shot at him; “go home and play with mother and the
girls.”

He left the field under a dropping fire of witticisms, feebly stemmed by
half-hearted applause; Hinkle frowned heavily at him; the man from the
major league had gone. Anthony proceeded directly through the gate
and over the street toward home. The taste of profound Humiliation, of
failure, was bitter in his mouth, that failure which seemed to lie at
the heart of everything he attempted, which seemed to follow him like
his shadow, like the malicious influence of a powerful spite, an enmity
personal and unrelenting. The sun centred its heat upon his bared head
with an especial fervor; the watch, thrust hastily in a pocket, swung
against his leg mockingly; the abrupt departure of that keeneyed
spectator added its hurt to his self pride.




VIII

HE maintained a surly silence throughout dinner; but later, on
discovering a dress shirt laid in readiness on his bed, and recalling
the purport of Mrs. James Dreen's call, he announced on the crest of an
overwhelming exasperation that he would go to no condemmed dance. “Ellie
can't go alone,” his mother told him from the landing below; “and do
hurry, Tony, she's almost dressed.” The flaring gas jet seemed to coat
his room with a heavy yellow dust; the night came in at the window as
thickly purple as though it had been paint squeezed from a tube. He
slowly assembled his formal clothes. An extended search failed to reveal
the whereabouts of his studs, and he pressed into service the bone
buttons inserted by the laundry. The shirt was intolerably hot and
uncomfortable, his trousers tight, a white waistcoat badly shrunken;
but a collar with a frayed and iron-like edge the crowning misery. When,
finally, he was garbed, he felt as though he had been compressed into an
iron boiler; a stream of perspiration coursed down the exact middle
of his back; his tie hung in a limp knot. Fiery epithets escaped at
frequent intervals.

On the contrary, Ellie was delightfully cool, orderly; she waved a lacy
fan in her long, delicate fingers. The public vehicle engaged to convey
them to the Dreens, a mile or more beyond the town, drew up at the door
with a clatter of hoofs. It was an aged hack, with complaining joints,
and a loose iron tire. A musty smell rose from the threadbare cushions,
the rotting leather. The horse's hoofs were now muffled in the dusty
country road; shadowy hedges were passed, dim, white farmhouses with
orange, lighted windows, the horizon outspread in a shimmering blue
circle under the swimming stars.

Anthony smoked a cigarette in acute misery; already his neck felt
scraped raw; a button flew jubilantly from his waistcoat; and his
improvised studs failed in their appointed task. “I'm having the hell of
a good time, I am,” he told Ellie satirically.

They turned between stone pillars supporting a lighted grill, advanced
over a winding driveway to Hydrangea House, where they waited for
a motor to move from the brilliantly-illuminated portal. A servant
directed Anthony to the second floor, where he found a bedchamber
temporarily in service as coat room, occupied by a number of _men_.
Most of them he knew, and nodded shortly in return to their careless
salutations. They belonged to a variety that he at once envied and
disdained: here they were thoroughly at ease, their ties irreproachable,
their shirts without a crease. Drawing on snowy gloves they discussed
women and society with fluency, gusto, emanating an atmosphere of
cocktails.

Anthony produced his gloves in a crumpled wad from the tail of his coat
and fought his way into them. He felt rather than saw the restrained
amusement of his fellows. They spoke to him gravely, punctiliously
proffered cigarettes; yet, in a vague but unmistakable manner, he was
made to feel that he was outside their interests, ignorant of their
shibboleth. In the matter of collars alone he was as a Patagonian to
them. He recalled with regret the easy familiarity, the comfort, of
Doctor Allhop's drugstore.

Then, throwing aside cigarettes, patting waistcoats into position, they
streamed down to the music. The others found partners immediately, and
swung into a onestep, but Anthony stood irresolutely in the doorway.
The girls disconcerted him with their formal smiles, their bright, ready
chatter. But Ellie rescued him, drawing him into the dance. After which
he sought the porch that, looped with rosevines, crossed the face of the
long, low house. There, with his back against a pillar, he found a cool
spot upon the tiles, and sought such comfort as he could command.

Long windows opening from the ballroom were now segments of whirling
color, now filled with gay streams, ebbing and returning. Fragmentary
conversation, glowing cigarettes, surrounded him. Behind the pillar at
his back a girl said, softly, “please don't.”

Then he saw Ellie, obviously searching for him, and he rose. At her
side was a slim figure with a cloud of light hair. “There he is!” Ellie
exclaimed; “Eliza... my brother, Anthony.”

He saw that her eyes opened widely, and that her hair was a peculiar,
bright shade. Ginger-colored, he thought. “I made Ellie find you,” she
told him; “you know, you must ask me to dance; I won't be ignored at my
own party.”

He muttered awkwardly some conventional period, annoyed at having
been found, intensely uncomfortable. In a minute more he found himself
dancing, conscious of his limp tie, his crumpled and gaping shirt. He
swung his partner heavily across the room, colliding with a couple
that he shouldered angrily aside. The animation swiftly died from Eliza
Dreen's countenance; she grew indifferent, then cold. And, when the
music ceased, she escaped with a palpable sigh of relief. He was
savagely mopping his heated face on the porch when, at his elbow, a
clear voice captured his attention. “A dreadful person,” it said, “...
like dancing with a locomotive... A regular Apache.”

He turned and saw that it was Eliza Dreen, gathering from her swift
concern both that he had been the subject of her discourse, and that she
was aware that he had overheard it. Back at his post at the pillar
he promised himself grimly that never again would he be found in such
specified company. He stripped his gloves from his wet palms, and flung
them far across the lawn, then recklessly eased his collar. There was
a sudden whisper of skirts behind him, when Eliza seated herself on the
porch's edge, at his side.




IX

I AM a loathsome person at times,” she informed him; “and to-night I
was rather worse than usual.”

“I do dance like a--locomotive,” involuntarily.

“It doesn't matter how you dance,” she proceeded, “and you mustn't
repeat it, it isn't generous.” Suddenly she laughed uncontrollably.
“You looked so uncomfortable... your collar,” it was lost in a bubbling,
silvery peal. “Forgive me,” she gasped.

“I don't mind,” he assured her. All at once he didn't; the sting had
vanished from his pride; he smiled. He saw that she wore a honey-colored
dress, with a strand of pearls about her slim throat, and that her feet,
in satin, were even smaller than Ellie's. Her hair resembled more a
crown of light than the customary adornment. “I didn't want to come,” he
confided: “I hate, well--going out, dancing.”

“It doesn't suit you,” she admitted frankly; “you are so splendidly
bronzed and strong; you need,” she paused, “lots of room.”

For this Anthony had no adequate reply. “I have this with some one,”
 she declared as the music recommenced, “but I hope they don't find me;
I hate it for the moment... I'll show you a place; it's very wicked of
me.” She rose and, waving him to follow, slipped over the grass. Beyond
the house she stopped in the shadowy vista of a pergola; vines shut out
the stars, walled them in a virid, still gloom. She sank on a low stone
bench, and he found the grass at her feet. A mantle of fine romance
descended upon his shoulders, of subtile adventure, prodigious daring.
Immaculate men, pearl-studded, were searching for her, and she
had hidden herself from them with him. A new and pleasant sense of
importance warmed him, flattered his self-esteem. He felt strangely at
ease, and sat in silent contentment. The faint sound of violins, a burst
of distant laughter, floated to him.

“It seems as if the world were rushing on, out there, without us,” Eliza
finally broke the silence, “as if they were keeping a furious pace,
while we sat in some everlasting, quiet wood, like Fontainebleau. Don't
you adore nature?”

“I knock about a lot outside,” he admitted cautiously, “often I stay out
all night, by the Wingohocking Creek. There's a sort of cave where
you can hear the falls, and the owls hunting about. I cook things in
clay--fish, chickens,” he paused abruptly at the latter item, recalling
the questionable source of his supply. “In winter I shoot rabbits with
Bert Woods, he's a barber, and Doctor Allhop, you know--the druggist.”

“I am sure that your friends are very nice,” she promptly assured him.

“Bert's crazy about girls,” he remarked, half contemptuously.

“And you... don't care for them?”

“I don't know anything about them,” he admitted with an abrupt,
unconscious honesty.

“But there must have been--there must be--one,” she persisted.

She leaned forward, and he met her gaze with unwavering candor. “Not
that many,” he returned.

“It would be wonderful to care for just one person, _always_,” she
continued intently: “I had a dream when I was quite young.... I dreamed
that a marvellous happiness would follow a constancy like that. Father
rather laughs at me, and quotes Shakespeare--the 'one foot on land and
one on shore' thing. Perhaps, but it's too bad.”

Anthony gravely considered this new idea in relation to his own,
hitherto lamented, lack of experience. It dawned upon him that the idea
of manly success he had cherished would appear distasteful to Eliza
Dreen. She had indirectly extolled the very thing of which he had been
secretly ashamed. He thought in conjunction with her of the familiar
group at the drugstore, and in this light the latter retreat suffered
a disconcerting change: Thomas Meredith appeared sly and trivial, and
unhealthy; Williams an empty braggard; Craik ineffectual, untidy. He
surveyed himself without enthusiasm.

“You are different from any one I ever knew,” he told her.

“Oh, there are millions of me,” she returned; “but you are different.
I didn't like you for a sou at first; but there is something about you
like--like a very clear spring of water. That's idiotic, but it's what
I mean. There is an early morning feeling about you. I am very sensitive
to people,” she informed him, “some make me uncomfortable directly they
come into the room. There was a curé at Etretat I perfectly detested,
and he turned out to be an awful person.”

Her name was called unmistakably across the lawn, and she rose. “They're
all furious,” she announced, without moving further. Her face was pale,
immaterial, in the gloom; her wide eyes dark, disturbing. A minute gold
watch on her wrist ticked faintly, and--it seemed to Anthony--in furious
haste. Something within him, struggling inarticulately for expression,
hurt; an oppressive emotion beat upon his heart. He uttered a period
about seeing her again.

“Some day you may show me the place where the fall sounds and the owls
hunt. No, don't come with me.” She turned and fled.

An unreasoning conviction seized Anthony that a momentous occasion had
overtaken him; he was unable to distinguish its features, discover it
grave or gay; but, wrapped in the impenetrable veil of the future,
it enveloped and permeated him, swept in the circle of his blood's
circulation, vibrated in the cords of his sensitive ganglia. He returned
slowly to the house: the brilliantly-lit, dancing figures seemed the
mere figments of a febrile dream; but the music apparently throbbed
within his brain.

Ellie's cool voice recreated his actual sphere. He found their hack,
the driver slumbering doubled on the seat. The latter rose stiffly,
and stirred his drowsing animal into a stumbling walk. Beyond the
illuminated entrance to Hydrangea House the countryside lay profoundly
dim to where the horizon flared with the pale reflection of distant
lightning.

“Eliza's a sweet,” Ellie pronounced. Anthony brooded without reply upon
his opinion. The iron-like collar had capitulated, and rested limply
upon his limp shirt; at the sacrifice of a second button his waistcoat
offered complete comfort. “I am going to get a new dress suit,” he
announced decisively. Ellie smiled with sisterly malice. “Eliza is a
sweet,” she reiterated.

“You go to thunder!” he retorted. But, “she's wonderful,” he admitted,
and--out of his conclusive experience, “there is not another girl like
her in all the world.”

“I'll agitate for the new suit,” Ellie promised.




X

THE following morning he reorganized his neckties, left a pair of white
flannels to be pressed at the tailor's; then, his shoulders swathed in a
crisp, sprigged muslin, sat circumspectly under the brisk shears of Bert
Woods. Bert hovered above him, and commented on yesterday's fiasco. “It
comes to the best of 'em,” Bert assured him: “'member how Ollie Stitcher
fell down in the world's series at Chicago.” He recited, for Anthony's
comfort, the names of eminent pitchers who had “fell down” when every
necessity demanded that they should have remained splendidly erect.

His defeat still rankled in Anthony's mind, but the bitterness had
vanished, the sting salved by that other memory of the impulsive charm
of Eliza Dreen. He recalled all that she had said to him; her words,
thoughtfully considered, were just those employed by humdrum individuals
in their commonplace discourses; but, spoken by her, they were a
thrill with an especial, a significant, importance and beauty. It was
inevitable that she should have dreamed things immaculate, rare; things
like... white flowers.

“Shampoo?” Bert inquired absent-mindedly.

“_And_ singed, and curled, and sprinkled with violets,” Anthony promptly
returned. With a flourish, Bert swept aside the muslin folds.

Then, in the pursuit of a neglected duty, he crossed the town to a
quiet corner, occupied by a small dwelling built of smooth, green stone,
crowned with a fantastic and dingy froth of wood. A shallow, untended
garden was choked with weeds and bushes, sprawling upward against
closely-shuttered windows. He had not been to see Mrs. Bosbyshell for
two weeks, he realized, with a stir of mild self-reproach. He was aware
that his visits to that solitary and eccentric old woman formed her
sole contact with a world she regarded with an increasing, unbalanced
suspicion.

A minute or more after his knock--the bell handle was missing--a shutter
shifted a fraction, upon which he was admitted to a narrow, dark hall,
and the door bolted sharply behind him. A short, stout woman, in
a formless wrap of grotesquely gorgeous design, faced him with a
quivering, apprehensive countenance and prodigiously bright eyes. Her
scant, yellowish-white hair was gathered aloft in a knot that slipped
oddly from side to side; and, as she walked, shabby Juliet slippers
loudly slapped the bare floor.

“Do you want some wood brought in?” Anthony inquired; “and how does the
washer I put on the hot water spigot work?”

“A little wood, if you please; and the spigot's good as new.” She sat on
a chair, lifting a harassed gaze to his serious solicitation. “I've
had a dreadful time since you were here last--an evilish-appearing man
knocked and knocked, at one door and again at another.”

Her voice sank to a shrill whisper, “he was after the money.” She nodded
so vigorously that the knot fell in a straggling whisp across her eyes.
“Cousin Alonzo sent him.”

“Your cousin Alonzo has been dead ten years,” he interposed patiently,
going once more over that familiar ground. “Probably it was a man
wanting to sell gas stoves.”

“You don't know Alonzo,” she persisted, unconvinced; “I should have to
see his corp'. He knows I've a comfortable sum put by, and's hard after
it for his wenching and such practices: small good, or bad, he'll get of
it when my time comes.”

He passed through the hall to the kitchen, and, unchaining the back
door, brought a basket of cut wood from a shed, and piled it beside the
stove. Mrs. Bosbyshell inspected with a critical eye the fastening of
the door. There was a swollen window sash to release above, a mattress
to turn, when he was waved ceremoniously into a formal, darkened
chamber. The musty spice of rose pot-pourri lingered in the flat air;
old mahogany--rush bottomed chairs, flute-legged table, a highboy and
Dutch clock--glimmered about the walls. A marble topped stand bore
orderly volumes in maroon and primrose morocco, the top one entitled,
“The Gentlewoman's Garland. A Gift Book.”

From a triangular cupboard, she produced a decanter with a carved design
of bees and cobalt clover, and a plate of crumbling currant cake. “A
sup of dandelion cordial,” she announced, “a bite of sweet. Growing boys
must be fed.”

She sat, and with patent satisfaction watched Anthony consume the ropy
syrup and cake.

“I met a girl last night,” he told her intimately; “she had hair
like--like a roman candle.”

“Did you burn your heart up in it?”

“She told me that I was like the early morning,” he confided with a
rush.

Mrs. Bosbyshell nodded her approval.

“An understandable remark; exactly what I should have said fifty years
ago; I didn't know the girls of to-day had it in 'em. You've got a good
heart, Anthony,” she enunciated. Anthony shuffled his feet. “A good
heart is a rare thing to find in the young. But I misdoubt, in a
world of mammon, you'll pay for it dear; I'm afraid you will never be
successful, so called. It's selling men that that success is got, and
buying women, and it's never in you to do those. _You_ wouldn't wish
an old woman gone for the sum she'd laid aside.” Her fancies had been
wilder than usual, he concluded, as the holt of the door at his hack
slid home. Alonzo and her money, one he considered as actual, as
imminent, as the other, occupied to the exclusion of all else her
dimming brain. He had hoped to converse with her more fully on the
inexhaustible subject of Eliza Dreen, but her vagaries had interrupted
him continuously. He decided that she was an antiquated bore, but made a
mental note to return before the store of wood was consumed.




XI

IN the evening he stopped from force of habit at Doctor Allhop's
drugstore: the familiar group was assembled behind the screen at the
rear, the conversation flowed in the old channels. Anthony lounged and
listened, but his attention continually wandered--he heard other,
more musical, tones; his vision was filled with a candid face and
widely-opened eyes in the green gloom of a pergola. He passed out by the
bevy at the sodawater fountain to the street.

In the artificial day of the electric lights the early summer foliage
was as virulently green as the toy trees of a miniature ark; the sky was
a breathless vault filled with blue mists that veiled the stars; under
the locust trees the blooms were spilled odorously, whitely, on the
pavement. He walked aimlessly to the outskirts of the town. Across the
dim valley, against the hills merged into the night and sky, he could
see glimmering the low lights of Hydrangea House. It would be pleasant,
he thought, to be closer to that abode of delight; and, crossing the
road, he vaulted a fence, and descended through a tangle of aromatic
grass to the brook that threaded the meadow below. A star swam imaged
on the black, wrinkled surface of the water: it suggested vague, happy
images--Eliza was the star, and he was the brook, holding her mirrored
in his dreams.

He passed cows, blowing softly into the sod; a flock of sheep broke
before him like an argent cloud on the heaven of the fields; and,
finally, reached the boundary of James Dreen's acres. He forced his way
through the budding hedge from which the place had its name, and, in a
cup of the lawn like a pool of brimming, fragrant shadows, sat watching
the lights of the house.

Indistinct shapes passed the windows, each--since it might be
she--carrying to him a thrill; indistinguishable voices reached him,
the vague tones--they might be hers--chiming like bells on his straining
senses. The world, life, was so beautiful that it brought an obstruction
into his throat; he drew the back of his hand across his eyes, and, to
his surprise, found that it was wet.

Presently, the lights sank on the lower floor and reappeared above. The
blinding whiteness of the thought of Eliza sleeping seared his brain
like a flare of powder. When the house retreated unrelieved into the
gloom he rose and slowly retraced his steps. He lit a cigarette; the
match burned with a steady flame in the stillness; but, in an unnamed
impulse, he flung both aside, and filled his lungs with the elysian June
air.




XII

THE next afternoon, returning from the unloading of a grain car at his
father's warehouse, he discovered a smartly saddled horse fast to the
marble hitchingpost before his door. It hardly required the glance at
the silver “D” on the headstall to inform him who was within. He found
Ellie and Eliza Dreen in the corner by the Canton tea service, consuming
Pekoe and gingerbread dicky birds. Eliza nodded and smiled over her
shoulder, and resumed an animated projection of an excursion in canoes
on the Wingohocking. She wore a severe coat over white breeches and
immaculate boots with diminutive gold spurs. Beneath a flat straw hat
her hair was confined by a broad ribband low upon her neck, while a pink
stock was held in position by a gaily-checked waistcoat.

Anthony dropped with affected ease on the sofa, and covertly studied the
delicate line of her cheek. He now recalled indignantly that Mrs. Dreen
had said Eliza was not good-looking; while her reference to Eliza's
veracity had been entirely superfluous. She turned toward him, finally,
with an engaging query. He saw across her nose a faint trail of the most
delightful freckles in the world; her eyes were blue, that amazing blue
of bachelor's buttons; while her mouth--he would have sworn this the
first time such simile had been applied to that feature--was like a
roseleaf. He made a totally inadequate reply, when Ellie rose, and,
plate in hand, vanished in quest of a fresh supply of gingerbread. A
sort of desperate, blundering courage took possession of him:

“I have been thinking a lot about you,” he told her; “last night I sat
on your grass and wondered which was your window.”

“What a silly I--we were on the porch all evening.”

“It wasn't that I wanted to talk to you so much,” he tried to explain
his instinctive impulses, desires, “as just to be near you.”

“I think,” she said slowly, “yes, I know--that is the prettiest thing
that has ever been said to me. I thought about you... a little; really
more about myself. I haven't recognized myself at all very lately; I
suppose it's being home again.” She gazed at him candidly, critically.
“You have very unusual eyes,” she remarked unexpectedly; “they are so
transparent. Haven't you _anything_ to hide?”

“Some chicken feathers,” he affirmed. He grew serious immediately. “Your
eyes are like--like--” the name of the flower so lately suggested by
her lucid vision had flown his mind. Suspenders, bachelor's suspenders,
exclusively occurred to him. “An awfully blue flower,” he temporized.

She crossed the room, and bent over the tea roses, freshly placed in the
jar by the door. “I must go,” she said, her back to him; “I have been
here a terrific length of time... I thought perhaps you'd come in....
Wasn't it shocking of me?”

The knowledge that she had considered the possibility of seeing him
filled Anthony with incredulous joy. Then, sitting silently, gazing
fixedly at the floor, he became acutely miserable at the sudden
conviction of his worthlessness; shame prevented him from looking
at her--surely she must see that he, Anthony Ball, the unsuccessful,
without prospect, the truant from life, was an improper object for her
interest. She was so absolutely desirable, so fine.

He recalled what she had said on the night of the dance... about
constancy: if the single devotion of his life would mean anything to
her, he thought grandiloquently, it was hers. He was considering the
possibility of telling her this when Ellie unnecessarily returned with
a replenished plate. He was grateful when neither included him in the
remarks which followed. And he speedily left the room, proceeding to
the pavement, where he stood with his palm resting on the flank of her
horse.

In the slanting rays of the sun the street was a way of gold; when Eliza
appeared she was ringed in the molten glory. She placed her heel in his
hand, and sprang lightly into the saddle; the horse shied, there was
a clatter of hoofs, and she cantered away. Ellie stood on the steps,
graceful, unconcerned; he watched until the upright, mounted figure was
out of sight, then silently passed his sister into the house.




XIII

HE was in his room when the familiar formula of a whistled signal
sounded from the darkening street. It was Alfred Craik, he recognized
the halt ending of the bar; he whistled like an old hinge, Anthony
thought impatiently. He made his way to the lawn, and called shortly,
over the crumbling iron fence. Alfred Craik was agog with weighty
information.

“The circus is coming in at three-thirty tomorrow morning,” he
announced. “The station agent told me... old Giller's lot on Newberry
Street. 'Member last year we had breakfast with the elephant trainer!”

Circuses, Anthony told him in large unconcern, were for infantile minds;
they might put their circus on top the Courthouse without calling forth
the slightest notice from him; horses were no better than old cows; and
as for clowns, the ringmaster, they made him specifically ill.

The greater part of this diatribe Alfred chose to ignore; he impatiently
besought Anthony to “come off”; and warned him strenuously against a
tardy waking. Once more in his room Anthony smiled at the other's pretty
enthusiasm. Yet at half past three he woke sharply, starting up on his
elbow as though he had been called. He heard in the distance the faint,
shrill whistle of the locomotive drawing the circus into Ellerton.
He sank back, but, with the face of Eliza radiant against the gloom,
slumber deserted him. It occurred to him that he might, after all, rise
and witness from his rarer elevation the preparations that had once
aroused in him such immature joy.

The circus ground was an apparently inexplicable tangle of canvas and
lumber, threaded by men like unsubstantial, hurrying shadows. At the
fence corner loomed the vague bulks of elephants, heaving ceaselessly,
stamping with the dull clank of chains; a line of cages beyond was still
indistinguishable. The confusion seemed hopeless--the hasty, desperate
labor at the edges of the billowing, grey canvas, the virulent curses as
feet slipped in the torn sod, the shrill, passionate commands, resembled
an inferno of ineffectual toil for shades condemned to never-ending
labor. The tent rose slowly, hardly detached from the thin morning
gloom, and the hammering of stakes uprose with a sharp, furious energy.
A wagonload of hay creaked into the lot; a horse whinnied; and, from a
cage, sounded a longdrawn, despondent howl. The fusillade of hammering,
the ringing of boards, increased. A harried and indomitable voice
maintained an insistent grip upon the clamor. It grew lighter; pinched
features emerged, haggard individuals in haphazard garbs stood with the
sweat glistening on their blue brows.

The elephants, tearing apart a bale of hay, appeared ancient beyond all
computation, infinitely patient, infinitely weary. Out of the sudden
crimson that stained the east a ray of sunlight flashed like a pointed,
accusing finger and rested on the garish, gilded bars and tarnished
fringe of the cages; it hit the worn and dingy fur of an aged, gaunt
lioness, the dim and bleared topaz of her eyes blinking against the
flood of day; it fell upon a pair of lean wolves trotting in a quick,
constricted circle; upon a ragged hyena with a dry and uplifted snout;
upon a lithe leopard with a glittering, green gaze of unquenchable hate.

“Take a hold,” a husky voice had urged Anthony; “help the circus men put
up the big tent, and get a free pass.” In the contagion of work he had
pulled upon the hard canvas, the stiff ropes that cut like scored
iron, and held stakes to be driven into the slushy sod. Thin shoulders
strained against his own, gasping and maculate breaths assailed him.
The flesh was tom from a man's palm; another, hit a glancing blow on the
head with a mall, wandered about dazed, falling over ropes, blundering
in paths of hasty brutality.

Anthony rested with aching muscles in the orient flood of the sun.
The tent was erected, flags fluttered gaily aloft, the posters of the
sideshow flung their startling colors abroad. A musical call floated
upward from an invisible bugle: an air of gala, of triumphant and
irresponsible pleasure, permeated the scene. “She's all right, isn't
she?” Alfred Craik demanded at his side. He nodded silently, and turned
toward home, his pulses leaping with joy at the dewy freshness of the
morning, the knowledge of Eliza--a sparkling, singing optimism drawn
from the unstained fountain of his youth.




XIV

LATER, engaged in repairing a shelf--at a super-union scale--for his
mother, he heard the steam shriek of a calliope announcing the parade.
From a window he could see the thronged sidewalks, the crudely fantastic
figures of the clowns, enveloped in a dusty haze of light. His thoughts
withdrew from that vapid spectacle to the rapt contemplation of Eliza
Dreen. He pictured Eliza and himself in the dramatic situations which
diversified the moving pictures of his nightly attendance: he rescued
her from the wiles of Mexicans, counts, weirdly-wicked Hindoos; now
he dragged her from the chimney into which she had been bricked by
a Brotherhood of Blood; now, driving a monoplane above the hurtling
express that bore her toward a fiendish revenge, he descended to halt
the train at a river's brink while the bridge sank dynamited into the
swirling stream--“Mercy, Tony!” his mother's practical voice rent the
resplendent vision; “don't crush your greatuncle's epaulets.”

After the midday meal a minute review of the places where Eliza might
be found discovered the Ellerton Country Club to hold the greatest
possibility. Anthony was a virtual stranger to that focus of the
newer Ellerton; except for the older enthusiasts who played golf every
afternoon that it was humanly possible to remain outside it was the
stronghold of the species Anthony had encountered in the dressing room
at the Dreens' dance. The space at the back of the drugstore where he
had lounged held unbroken the elder tradition of Ellerton. There he
had cultivated a mild contempt for the studied urbanity, the formally
organized converse and games, of the Club. But as a setting for Eliza it
gained a compelling attraction. And, in his freshly-ironed flannels, he
ordered his steps toward that goal. The Club House overhung the rolling
green of the golf links; from a place of vantage he saw that Eliza was
not on the veranda; at one end a group of young men were drinking--teal
Beyond his father and three companions, followed by caddies, rose above
a hill. His father grasped a club and bent over the turf; the club
described a short arc, the ball flashed whitely through the air, and
the group trotted eagerly forward, mingling explanation, chagrin and
prediction with heated and simple sums in arithmetic.

Then he saw Eliza... she was on the tennis court, playing with a
vigorous girl with a bare and stalwart forearm. He divined that the
latter was winning, and conceived a sweeping distaste for her flushed,
perspiring countenance and thickset ankles. “How beautiful you look!”
 Eliza called, as he propped himself against the wire netting that,
overrun with honeysuckle, enclosed the courts. He watched her fleeting
form, heard her breathless exclamations, with warm stirs of delight.
When her opponent played the ball beyond her reach his dislike for that
efficiency became an obsession. The flying shadows lengthened on the
rolled, yellow surface of the court; the group on the porch emptied
their teacups and moved away; and the final set of games won by the
“beefsteak.”

Eliza slipped into a formless chocolate-colored coat: racket in hand she
smiled at him. “I'm rather done,” she admitted. She hesitated, then: “I
wonder--are you doing anything?--if you would drive me home?” He assured
her upon that point with a celerity that wrought a momentary confusion
upon them. “The Meadowbrook and roan at the sheds,” she directed. In the
basketlike cart they swung easily over the road toward Hydrangea House.
Checked relentlessly into a walk the roan stepped in a dainty fume.

Eliza's countenance was as tenderly hued as the pearly haze that overlay
the far hills; faint, mauve shadows deepened the blueness of her eyes;
her mouth, slightly parted, held the fragile pink of coral; a tinge of
weariness upon her bore an infinite appeal--her relaxed, drooping body
filled him with a gusty longing to put his arms about her shoulders
and hold her secure against all fatigue, against the assaults of time
itself.

He had never before driven such an impatient and hasty animal; at the
slightest slackening of the reins the horse broke into a sharp trot;
and, beyond doubt, he could walk faster than any other brute alive.
Already they were at the entrance to the driveway; the house appeared
to hurry forward to intercept them. Eliza pressed a button, and a man
crossed the grass to the roan's head. They descended, and she lingered
on the steps with a murmur of gratitude. “Mrs. Dreen telephoned Ranke
to meet the eight-forty,” a servant in the doorway replied to Eliza's
query; “she's having dinner in town with Mr. Dreen.”

Eliza turned with a gesture of appeal. “Save me from a solitary
pudding,” she petitioned Anthony; “you can go back with Ranke.... On the
porch, such fun--father detests candles.” The voicing of his acceptance
he felt to be an absurd formality. “Then if you can amuse yourself,”
 she announced, “I'll vanish for a little... cigars in the library and
victrola in the hall.”

He crossed the sod to the porch on the other face of the house, and
sat watching the day fade from the valley below. A violet blur of smoke
overhung the chimney of the Ellerton Waterworks, printed thinly on the
sky. A sense of detachment from that familiar scene enveloped him--the
base ball field, the defunct garage, places and details, customary,
normal, retreated into the distance, it seemed into the past, gathering
upon the horizon of his thoughts as the roofs of Ellerton huddled beyond
the hills, vanishing into shadows that inexorably deepened, blotted out
the old aspects, stilled the accustomed voices, sounds.

A servant appeared, and placed a table upon the tiles, spreading a
blanched cloth, gleaming crystal and silver. A low bowl of shadowy wood
violets was ranged in the centre, and hooded candles lighted, spilling
over the table, the flowers, a pale, auriferous pool of light in the
purpling dusk. When Eliza followed, in filmy white, she seemed half
materialized from the haunting vision of poignant beauty at the back of
his brain. She was like moonlight, still and yet disturbing, veiled in
illusion, in strange, ethereal influences that set athrill within him
emotions immaterial, potent, snowy longing, for which he had no name.

The last plate removed, Anthony stirred his coffee in a state of dreamy
happiness. The candlelight spread a wan gold veil over Eliza's delicate
countenance, it slid over the pearls about her slim throat, and fell
upon her fragile wrists. “It's been wonderful,” he pronounced solemnly.

“I've been terribly rude,” she told him, “I have hardly spoken. I have
been busy studying you.”

“There's not much to study,” he disclaimed; “Mrs. Bosbyshell thinks
I'm marked for failure.” In reply to her demand he gave a brief and
diffident account of that eccentric old woman. “But,” Eliza discerned
among the meagre details, “she trusts you, she lets you into her house.
And you are perfect to her, of course.

“Any one could trust you, I think. Yet you are not a particle tiresome;
most trustworthy people are so--so unexciting. But monotony is far
as possible from your vicinity. What did you do, for instance, this
morning?” He described to her the advent of the circus, the labor in
the obscurity. “I was surprised to see the old thing up,” he ended: “it
seemed so hopeless at first.”

“How wonderfully poetic!” she cried.

Until that moment poetry had occupied in his thoughts a place analogous
to tea.--In his brief passage through the last school he had been
forcibly fed with Gray's Elegy, discovering it unmitigated and sickening
rot. When now, in view of her obvious pleasure, he would have to
reconsider his judgment.

“That blind effort,” she continued, leaning forward, flushed with the
warmth of her image, “all those men struggling, building in the dark,
unable to see what they were accomplishing, or what part the others
had. And then--oh! don't you see!--the great, snowy tent in the morning
sun--a figure of the success, the reward, of all labor, all living.”

“How about the ones that loafed--didn't pull, or were drunk?”

“For all,” she insisted, “sober and drunk and shrinking. Can you think
that any supreme judgment would be cheaply material, or in need of
any of our penny abilities? do you suppose the supreme beauty has no
standard higher than those practical minds that hold out heaven as a
sort of reward for washed faces? Anthony,” it was the first time she had
called him that, and it rang in his brain in a long peal of rapture, “if
there isn't a heaven for every one, there isn't any at all. You, singing
an idle song, must be as valuable as the greatest apostle to any supreme
love, or else it isn't supreme, it isn't love.”

“You are so wonderfully good,” he muttered, “that you think every one
else is good too.”

“But I'm hardly a bit good,” she assured him, “and I wouldn't be good
if I could--in the Christian kind of way.” She gazed about with an
affectation of secretiveness, then leaned across her coffee cup. “It
would bore me horribly,” she confided, “that 'other cheek' thing;
I'm not a grain humble; and I spend a criminal amount of money on
my clothes. I have even put a patch upon my cheek to be a gin and
stumbling-block to a young man.”

She had!

He surveyed with absurd pleasure that minute black crescent on the pale
rose of her countenance. If she had been good before she was adorable
now: her confession had drawn her out of the transplendid cloud where
he had elevated her down to his side; she was infinitely more desirable,
more warmly and delightfully human.

“I have been asking about you,” she told him later, with a slight frown;
“the accounts are, well--various. I don't mind your--your friends of the
stables, Anthony; they are, what Ellerton will never learn, the careless
choice of a born aristocrat; I don't care a Tecla pearl whether you are
'a steady young man' or not. And one doesn't hear a whisper of meanness
about you anywhere. But I have an exaggerated affection for things that
are beautiful, I suppose it's a weakness, really, and ugly people or
surroundings, harsh voices even, terrify me. The thought of cruelty
makes me cold. And, since you will come into my thoughts, and smile your
funny little smile at me out of walls and other impossible places, I
should like to picture you, not in pool rooms, but on the hills that you
know so well. I should like to think of your mind echoing with the rush
of those streams, the hunting of those owls, you told me about, and not
sounding with coarse and silly and brutal words and ideas.”

“It echoes with you,” he replied, “and you are more beautiful than hills
and streams.”

For a moment she held his gaze full in the blue depths of her vision;
then, with a troubled smile, evaded it. “I'm a patched jade,” she
announced.

Ranke, the servant informed them, was ready to meet the train.

“You're going... Elbe's affair on the Wingohocking?”

“Absolutely.” She stood illusive against the saffron blur of the
candles, the sweeping hem of night.

“I'll remember,” he blundered; “whatever you would wish... you have
changed everything. The dinner was--I don't remember what it was,” he
confessed; “but I remember an olive.”

He left the automobile at the edge of Ellerton, and proceeded on foot,
passing the dully-shinning bulk of the circus tent. He heard the brassy
dissonance of the band within, the monotonous thud of horses' hoofs
on the tanbark; a raucous voice rose at the entrance to the side-show
dwelling unctuously on the monstrosities to be viewed within for the
price of a dime, of a dime, a dime. He recalled the spent lioness in her
painted cage, the haggard and sick hyena, the abject trot of the wolves
to nowhere.--A sudden exhalation of hatred swept over him for the
hideous inhumanity of circuses and men. Eliza had lifted him from the
meaningless babble of trivial and hard voices into a high and immaculate
region of shining space and quietude. He didn't want to come down again,
he protested, to _this_.




XV

ANTHONY passed the few, intervening days to the excursion on the
Wingohocking in a state of rapt absorption: his brain sounded with
every tone of Eliza's voice; she smiled at him, in riding garb, over
that delicate trail of freckles; he saw her in the misty, amber dress of
the dance; in white, illusively lit by the candles against the shadowy
veranda. Now, for the first time, day that had succeeded haphazard
to day, without relation or plan, were strung together, bound into an
intelligible whole, by the thread of romance. He must get a firm grip
upon reality, construct a solid existence out of the unsubstantial
elements of his living; but, in his new felicity, he was unable to
direct his thoughts to details inevitably sordid; he was lost in the
miracle of Eliza Dreen's mere presence; material considerations might,
must, be deferred a short while longer.

A stainless afternoon sky overspread finally the group gathered about
covered willow baskets on the green bank of the stream. Behind them the
meadow swept level, turning back the flood of the sun with a blaze of
aureate flowers, to a silver band of birch; the upstream reach, wrinkled
and dark, was lost between tangles of wild grapes; below, with a smooth,
virid rush, the water poured and broke over rocky shallows.

Anthony launched his canoe from a point of crystalline sand, and,
holding it against the hank, gazed covertly at Eliza. She was once more
in white, with a broad apple-green ribband about her waist: she stood
above him, slenderly poised against the sky; and she was so rare, he
thought, so ethereal, that she seemed capable of floating off into
the blue. Then he bent, hastily rearranging a cushion, for she was
descending toward him. He stepped skilfully after her into the craft,
and they drifted silently over the surface of the stream. A thrust of
the paddle, in a swirl of white bubbles, turned them about, and they
advanced steadily against the sliding current.

The still, watery facsimile of the banks were broken into liquid blots
of emerald and bronze by the bow of the canoe. The air rose coldly from
the surface to Anthony's face; from the meadows on either hand came the
light, dry fragrance of newly cut hay; before them trees, meeting above,
formed a sombrous reach, barred with dusty gold shafts of sunlight that
sank into the clear depths. He heard behind the distant dip of paddles,
and floating voices, worlds removed.

Eliza trailed her hand in the water. An idyllic silence folded them
which he was loath to break.... He had rolled up his sleeves, and the
muscles of his forearms swelled rhythmically under the clear, brown
skin.

“You are preposterously strong,” she approved. His elation, however,
collapsed at the condition following. “But strength is simply brutality
until it's wisely directed. Mazzini and not Napoleon was my ideal in
history.” Who, he wondered unhappily, was Mazzini? “I hated school,” he
told her briefly; “I don't believe I have ever read a book through; I'd
rather paddle about--with _you_.”

“But you have read deep in the book of nature,” she reassured him; “only
a very favorite few open those pages. You are such a child,” she added
obliquely, “appallingly unsophisticated: that's what's nicest about you,
really.” That form of laudation left him cold, and he drove the canoe
with a vicious rush against the reflections. “A dear child,” she added,
without materially increasing his pleasure.

“Words are rot!” he exploded suddenly; “they can't say any of the
important things. I could talk a year to you without telling you what
I feel--here,” he laid a hand momentarily on his spare, powerful chest;
“it's all mixed up, like lead and fire; or that feeling when ice cream
goes to your head. You see,” he ended moodily, “all rot.”

“It's very picturesque... and apparently painful. Words aren't necessary
for the truly important things, Anthony.”

“Then you know--what I think of you; you know... how everything else has
moved away and left only you; you know a hundred things, all important,
all about yourself.”

She set an uncertain smile against the rush of his words. The stream
narrowed between high banks drawn against the sheer deeps of sky; the
water flowed swiftly, with a sustained whisper at the edges, and, for
a silent space, he paddled vigorously. Then a profound, glassy pool
opened, sodded bluely to the shores, with low, silvery clumps of willows
casting sooty shadows across the verd water; and, with a sharp twist,
he beached the canoe with a soft shock upon the shelving pebbles. As
he held the craft steady he felt the light, thrilling impact of Eliza's
palm as she sprang ashore.

The others followed rapidly. The canoes were drawn out of the water, and
preparations for supper commenced. Eliza and Ellie Ball, accompanied by
a youth with a pail, proceeded to a nearby farmhouse in quest of milk.
Anthony lingered at the water's edge, ignoring the appeal for firewood.
The glow of the westering sun faded from the air, and the reflection
of the fire lighted behind him danced ruddy op the grass. At intervals
small fish splashed invisibly, and a kingfisher cried downstream. Then
he heard his sister's voice, and a familiar and moving perfume hovered
in his nostrils. He turned and saw Eliza with her arms full of white
lilacs. Her loveliness left him breathless, mingled with the low sun it
blinded him. She seemed all made of misty bloom--a fragrant spirit
of ineffable flowers. The scent of the lilacs stirred profound,
inarticulate emotions within him, like the poignant impression left by a
forgotten dream of shivering delight.

He scorned the fare soon spread on the clothed sod, burning his throat
stoically with a cup of unsweetened coffee. Eliza sat beyond the
charring remains of the fire sinking from cherry-red embers to
impalpable white ash. He observed with secret satisfaction that she
too ate little: an appetite on her part, he felt, would have been a
calamity.

'The meadows and distant woods were vague against the primrose west,
the cyanite curtain of the east, when the baskets were assembled for the
return. Anthony delayed over the arrangement of his craft until Eliza
and himself were last in the floating procession. Dense shadows,
drooping from the trees, filled the banks; overhead the sky was clear
green. They swept silently forward with the current, a rare dip of the
paddle. Eliza's countenance was just palely visible. The lilacs lay in a
pallid heap at their feet. On either hand the world floated back darkly
like an immaterial void through which an ebon stream bore them beyond
the stars.

At a bend he reached up and caught hold of an overhanging branch, and
they swung into a shallow backwater. A deep shelf of stone lay under the
face of the bank, closed in by a network of wildgrape stems. “This is
where I sometimes stay at night,” he told her; “no one knows but you.”




XVI

SHE rose, and, without warning, stepped out upon the rock. “Here's
where you build your fire,” she cried at the discovery of a blackened
heap of ashes. He secured the canoe and followed her. “Ideal,” she
breathed. The sound of the fall below was faintly audible; the quavering
cry of an owl, the beating of heavy wings, rose above the bank. “Don't
you envy the old pastoral people following their flocks from land to
land, setting up their tents by streams like this, waking with the dawn
on the world? or gipsies... you must read 'Lavengro.'”

“I don't envy any one on God's little globe,” he asserted; “to be here
with you is the best thing possible.”

“Something more desirable would soon occur to you.”

“Than you!” he protested; “than you!”

“But people get tired of what they have.”

“It's what they don't have that makes them old and tired,” he told her
with sudden prescience; “when I think of what I am going to lose, of
what I can never have, it makes me crazy.”

“Why do you say that?... How can you know?”

She was standing close to him in the constricted space, the tangible
shock of her nearness sweeping over him in waves of heady emotion. The
water gurgling by the rock was the only sound in a world-stillness.

“I mean you.”

“Well, I'm not fairy gold; I'm not the end of the rainbow. I am just
Eliza.”

“Just Eliza!” he scoffed. Then the possibility contained in her words
struck him dumb. The feeling irresistibly returned that because of
her heavenly ignorance, her charity, she mistook him to be worthy. The
necessity to guard her from her own divinity impelled him to repeat,
miserably, all that she had ignored.

“I'm not much account,” he said laboriously; “you see, I never stuck at
anything, and, somehow, things have never stuck to me. It was that way
at school--I was expelled from four. I'm supposed to be shiftless.”

“I don't care in the least for that!” she declared; “only one thing is
really important to me... something, oh, so different.” Suddenly she
laid her hand upon his sleeve, and, pitifully white, faced him. “I've
had the beautifullest feeling about you,” she whispered; “Anthony, tell
me truly, are you... good?” A sob rose uncontrollably in his throat, and
his eyes filled with tears that spilled over his cheeks. For a moment he
struggled to check them, then, unashamed, slipped onto his knees before
her and held her tightly in his arms. “No one in the world can say that
I am not--what you mean.”

She stooped, and sat beside him on the stone, holding his hand close to
her slight body. “My dream,” she said simply. “I didn't understand it at
first; you see, I was only a child. And then when I grew older, and--and
heard things, it seemed impossible. That sort of goodness only bored
other girls... they liked men of the world, men with a past. I thought
perhaps I was only morbid, and lost trust in--in you.”

“It was a kind of accident,” he admitted; “I never thought about it the
way you did. It seemed young to me.”

“I don't believe it was an accident in the least,” she insisted. A mist
rose greyly from the darker surface of the stream, and settled cold and
clammy about Anthony's face. It drew about them in wavering garlands,
growing steadily denser. Eliza was sitting now pressed against him, and
he felt a shiver run through her. “You are cold!” he cried instantly,
and rose, lifting her to her feet. She smiled, in his arms, and he bent
down and kissed her. She clung to him with a deep sigh, and met his lips
steadily with her own. The mist slipped like a veil over Eliza's head
and drops of moisture shone in her hair. Anthony turned and unfastened
the canoe; and, suddenly conscious of the length of their delay, he
urged it with long sweeps over the stream. Beyond the lilacs, distilling
their potent sweetness in the dark, Eliza was motionless, silent, a
flicker of white in the gloom.

They swept almost immediately into the broad reach where they had
started. The lights from the windows of a boat house, the voices of
the others, streamed gaily over the water. He felt Eliza tremble as he
lifted her ashore.

“It's happiness,” she told him; “I am ever so warm inside.”




XVII

BY his plate at the lunch table he discovered, the following day, a
small, lavender envelope stamped and addressed to Anthony Ball, Esq.
He slipped it hastily into his pocket, and managed but a short-lived
pretext of eating. Then, with the letter yet unopened, he left Ellerton,
and penetrated into the heart of the countryside.

He stopped, finally, under a fence that crossed a hill, on a slope
of wild strawberries. The hill fell away in an unbroken sweep of
undulating, blue-green wheat; trees filled the hollow, with a roof and
thread of silver water drawn through the lush leaves; on either hand
chocolate loam bore the tender ripple of young com; and beyond, crossed
by the shifting shadows of slow-drifting clouds, hill and wood and
pasture spread a mellow mosaic of summer.

He tore open the envelope with a reluctant delight. At the top of the
sheet E D was stamped severely in mauve. “My very dear,” he read. He
stopped, suddenly unable to proceed; the countryside swam in his vision;
he gulped an ecstatic, convulsive breath, and proceeded:

“It's too wonderful--I can't realize that you exist, and that I have
found you in such a great world. Isn't it strange how real dreams are;
just now the real world seems the dream, and my dear home, my mother,
shadows compared to the thoughts that fill my brain of you, you, you.

“But I am writing mostly to tell you something that, perhaps, you didn't
fully understand yesterday--and yet I think you must have--that, if you
really want me, I am absolutely your own. I couldn't help it if I wanted
to, and, oh, I don't want to! I let a man at Etretat kiss me, and I am
glad I did, for it made me understand that I must wait for you.

“I won't write any more now because my head aches. From Eliza who loves
you utterly.” Then he saw that she had written on the following page:
“Don't worry about money and the future; I have my own, all we shall
need for years, and we can do something together.”

He laid the letter beside him on the grass. The welling song of a
catbird sounded unsupportably sweet, and a peaceful column of smoke
rose bluely from the chimney below: it carried him in imagination to a
dwelling set in a still, green garden, where birds filled the branches
with melody, and Eliza and himself walked hand in hand and kissed. Night
would gather in about their joy, their windows would shine with the
golden lamp of their seclusion, their voices mingle... sink... sacred.

He dreamed for a long while; the sunlight vanished from the slope below
him, from the darkling trees, touched only the farthest hills with a
rosy glow. As the sun sank an errant air whispered in the wheat, and
scattered the pungent aroma of the wild strawberries. A voice called
thinly from the swales, and cows gathered indistinctly about a gate.
Anthony rose. The world was one vast harmony in which he struck the
highest, happiest note. Beyond the near hills the lilac glitter of the
Ellerton lights sprang palely up on the blue dusk. As he made his way
home, Anthony's brain teemed with delightful projects, with
anticipation, the thought of the house in the hollow--abode of love,
steeped in night.




XVIII

ELLIE was in the garden, and interrupted his progress toward a belated
dinner. “Father wants to see you,” she called; “at the Club, of course.”
 He wondered absently, approaching the Club, what his father wanted.
The rooms occupied the second story of the edifice that housed the
administration of the county; the main corridor was choked by a crowd
that moved noisily toward an auditorium in the rear, but the Club was
silent, save for the click of invisible billiard balls.

His father was asleep in the reading room, a newspaper spread upon his
knees, and one thin hand twisted in his beard. Through an open window
drifted the strains of a band on the Courthouse lawn. The older man
woke, clearing his throat sharply. “Well, Anthony,” he nodded. Anthony
found a chair.

His father leaned forward, regarding him with a keen, kindly gaze. “I'm
told the garage has gone up,” he commenced.

“Sam took his car away; it was Alfred's infernal tinkering; he can't
leave a machine alone.”

“Did you close affairs satisfactorily, stop solvent?”

“There's a little debt of about six dollars.”

The other sought his wallet, and, removing a rubber band, counted six
dollars into Anthony's hand. “Meet that in the morning.” He leaned hack,
tapping the wallet with deliberate fingers. “I suppose you have no plan
for the immediate future,” he observed.

“Nothing right now.”

“I have one for you, though, as 'right now' as this week.”

Anthony listened respectfully, his thoughts still dwelling upon the
beauty of the dusk without, of life. “You have tried a number of things
in the past few years without success. I have started you in a small
way again and again, only to observe the familiar course of a failure
inevitable from your shiftless habits. You are not a bad boy, but
you have no ability to concentrate, like a stream spread all over the
meadow--you have no course. You're a loiterer.”

“Yes, sir,” said Anthony, from the midst of his abstraction.

“You are too old for that now, either it must stop at once, or you will
become definitely worthless. I am going to make a determined effort--I
am going to send you to California, your brother-in-law writes that he
can give you something.”

The term California sounded in Anthony's brain like the unexpected
clash of an immense hell. It banished his pleasant revery in disordered
shreds, filling him with sudden dismay.

“I telegraphed Albert yesterday,” the even tones continued, “and have
his answer in my pocket. You are to go out to him immediately.”

“But that's impossible,” Anthony interrupted; “it just can't be done.”

“Why not?”

He found himself completely at a loss to give adequate expression to
his reason for remaining in Ellerton. His joy was so new that he
had scarcely formulated it to himself, it evaded words, defied
definition--it was a thing of dreams, a vision in a shining garment, a
fountain of life at the bottom of his heart.

“Come; why not?”

“I don't want to go away from Ellerton... just now.”

“That is precisely what you must do. I can understand your desire to
remain close by your mother--she has an excuse for you, assistance, at
every turn.”

“That isn't the reason; it's... it's,” he boggled horribly, “a girl.”

“Indeed,” his father remarked dryly.

Anthony shrunk painfully from the unsympathetic voice of the elder. A
new defiance of his father welled hotly within him, corrupting the bonds
of discipline that had held him lovingly to his parent throughout the
past. A chasm opened between them; and, when Anthony spoke again, it was
with a voice of insipient insubordination.

“It isn't the silly stuff you think,” he told the other; “I'm engaged!”

“What on?” pithily came the inquiry. “Unfortunately I can't afford the
luxury of a daughter-in-law. I thought you were something more of a man
than to bring your wife into your mother's house.”

“I sha'n't; we can get along until I... find work.”

“Do you mean that your wife will support you?”

“Not altogether; she will help until--until--” he stopped miserably
before the anger confronting him in the other's gaze: it was useless to
explain, he thought; But if his father laughed at him, at his love, he
would leave the room and never see him again. “I can't see why money is
so damned holy!” he broke out; “why it matters so infernally where it
comes from; it seems to me only a dirty detail.”

“It is the measure of a man's honor,” the elder Ball told him
inexorably; “how it is made or got stamps you in the world. I am
surprised to hear that you would even consider taking it from a woman,
surprised and hurt. It shows all the more clearly the necessity for your
going at once into a hard, healthy existence. Your mother will get you
ready; a couple of days should do it.”

“... all unexpected,” Anthony muttered; “I must think about it, see some
one. I'll--I'll talk to you to-morrow. That's it,” he enunciated more
hopefully, “to-morrow--”

“Entirely unnecessary,” his father interrupted, “nothing to be gained by
delay or further talk. The thing's arranged.”

“I think I won't go,” Anthony told him slowly. The other picked up the
paper, smoothing out the creases. “Very well,” he replied; “I dare say
your mother will do something for you.--Women are the natural source of
supplies for the sort of person you seem at the point of becoming.” A
barrier of paper, covered with print in regular columns, shut one from
the other.

Anthony burned under a whelming sense of injustice. He decided that he
would leave the room, his father, forever; but, somehow, he remained
motionless in his chair, casting about in his thoughts for words with
which to combat the elder's scorn. He thought of Eliza; she smiled
at him with appealing loveliness; he felt her letter in his pocket,
remembered her boundless generosity. He couldn't leave her! The band in
the square below was playing a familiar operatic lament, and the refrain
beat on his consciousness in waves of despairing and poignant longing.
A sea of misery swept over him in which he struggled like a spent
swimmer--Eliza was the far, silver shore toward which he fought. It
wasn't fair--a sob almost mastered him--to ask him to go away now, when
he had but found her.

“It's not Siberia,” he heard his father say, “nor a life sentence; if
this--this 'girl' is serious, you will be closer working for her in
California than idle in Ellerton.”

“I don't want to go away from her,” he whispered; “the world's such
a hell of a big, empty place... things happen.” He dashed some bright
tears from his eyes, and, turning his back on the other, gazed through
the window at the tops of the maple trees--a black tracery of foliage
against the lights below.

“Two or three years should set you on your feet, give you an opportunity
to return.” Eternity could scarcely have seemed more appalling than the
term casually indicated by his father, it was unthinkable! A club member
entered, fingering the racked journals on the long table, exchanging
trivial comments with the older Ball. It seemed incredible to Anthony,
in the face of the cataclysm which threatened him, that the world should
continue to revolve callously about such topics. It was an affront to
the gravity, the dignity, of his suffering. He swiftly left the room.




XIX

IT was Saturday night, Bay Street was thronged, the stores brilliantly
lit. He saw in the distance the red and blue jars of illuminated water
that advertised Doctor Allhop's drugstore, and turned abruptly on his
heel. In the seclusion of his room he once more read Eliza's letter: it
was a superlative document of sweet commonsense, the soul of nobility,
of wisdom, of tenderness, of divine generosity. In its light all other
suggestions, considerations, courses, seemed tawdry and ignoble. The
boasted wisdom of a world of old men, of material experience, seemed
only the mean makeshifts for base and unworthy ends. The ecstasy
sweeping from his heart to his brain, the delicious fancies, the
rare harmonies, that haunted him, the ineffable perfume of invisible
lilacs--these were the true material from which to fashion life, these
were the high things, the important. And youth was the time to grasp
them: a swift premonition seized him of the coldness, the ineptitude,
the disease, of old age.

For the first time in his life he thought of death in definite
connection with himself: he was turning out the gas, preparatory for
sleep; and, at the instantaneous darkness, he thought, with a gasp of
fear, it would be like that. He stood trembling as a full realization of
disillusion mastered him; all his hot, swinging blood, the instinctive
longing for perpetuation aroused in him by Eliza, in sick revolt.
Fearsome images filled his mind... the hole in the clay--closed;
putrefaction; the linked mass of worms. In feverish haste he lit the
gas; his body was wet with sweat; his heart pounding unsteadily.

The familiar aspect of his room somewhat reassured him; the thought
dimmed, slowly conquered by the flooding tide of his living. Then he
realized that Eliza too must die, and his terrors vanished before a
loving pity for her earthly fragility. Finally, death itself assumed
a less threatening guise; peace stole imperceptibly into his heart. A
vague belief, new born of his passion, that dying was not the end of
all, rose within him--there must be a struggle, heights to win, gulfs
to cross, a faith to keep. With steady fingers he turned out the
gas.--Eliza was his faith: he fell into a sound slumber.




XX

HE made no comment when, in the morning, his mother made tentative
piles of his clothing. He would see Eliza that afternoon, and then
announce their decision. His mother attempted to fathom his feeling
at the prospect of the journey, the separation from Ellerton; but, the
memory of his father's cutting words still rankling in his mind, he
evaded her questioning.

“If you are going to be miserable out there,” she told him, enveloping
him in the affection of her steady, grey gaze, “something else might be
found. I can always help--”

“You don't understand these things,” he interrupted her brusquely,
annoyed by his father's prescience. They were sitting in her sewing
room, a pile of his socks at her side. She wore her familiar, severe
garb, the steelbowed spectacles directed upon the needle flashing
steadily in her assured fingers. She was eternally laboring for her
children, Anthony realized with a pang of affection. His earliest
memories were charged with her unflagging care, the touch of her smooth
and tireless hands, the defense of her energetic voice.

He must tell her about his engagement, but not until he had seen Eliza
again, when something definite would be agreed upon. It was immensely
difficult for him to talk about the subject nearest his heart-words
diminished and misrepresented it: he wanted to brood over it, secretly,
for days.




XXI

LATER he dressed with scrupulous exactitude, and proceeded directly to
Hydrangea House. The afternoon was sultry, the air full of the soothing
drone of summer insects, the dust of the road rose in heavy puffs about
his feet. He crossed the stream and fields, saturated with sunlight, and
came to the pillared portico of his destination.

“Miss Dreen,” Anthony said, stepping forward into the opening door.

“Miss Dreen cannot see you,” the servant returned without hesitation.
Anthony drew back, momentarily repelled; but, before he could question
this announcement, he heard grinding wheels on the gravel drive.
Turning, he saw a motor stop, and Mrs. Dreen descend, followed by a man
with a somber, deeply-scored countenance. Anthony moved forward eagerly
as she mounted the steps. “Mrs. Dreen,” he asked; “can you tell me-” She
passed with a confused, blank face, without stopping or acknowledging
his salutation, and the door closed softly upon her and her companion.

A momentary flame of anger within Anthony quickly sank to cold
consternation. Eliza had told her parents and they had dismissed the
idea and him. It was evident they had forbidden her to see him. He
walked indecisively down the steps, still carrying his hat, and stopped
mechanically on the driveway. He gazed blindly over a brilliant, scarlet
bed of geraniums, over the extended lawn, the rolling hills of Ellerton.
Then his courage returned, stiffened by the obstacles which apparently
confronted him: he would show them that he was not to be lightly
dismissed; no power on earth should separate him from Eliza.

The servant had only obeyed Mrs. Dreen's direction; Eliza, he
was certain, had no choice in the matter of his reception. Then,
unexpectedly, he remembered his father's words, the latter's
contemptuous reference to all appeals to women. He must go to Mr. Dreen,
and straightforwardly state his position, tell him... _what?_ Why, that
he, Anthony Ball, loved Eliza, desired her, had come to take her away...
_where?_ In all the world he had no place prepared for her. He drove his
hand into his pocket, and discovered a quarter of a dollar and some
odd pennies--all that he possessed. Suddenly he laughed, a short, sorry
merriment that stopped in a dry gasp. He turned and ran, stumbling over
the grass, through the hot dust, toward Ellerton. Two years, he thought,
California; California and two years.




XXII

ANTHONY sat late into the night composing an explanatory and farewell
letter to Eliza:

“Your family would laugh at me,” he wrote; “I couldn't show them a
dollar. And although my father has done a great deal for me he wouldn't
do this. I couldn't expect him to. Mother might help, she is like you,
but I could not very well live between two women, could I? The only hope
is California for a couple of years. You know how much I want to stay
with you, how hard this is to write, when our engagement, everything, is
so new and wonderful. But it would only be harder later. If I had seen
you this afternoon I would never have left you. I am going to-morrow
night. This will come to you in the morning, and I will be home if you
send me a message. I would like to see you again before I go away in
order to come back to you forever. I would like to hear you say again
that you love me. Sometimes I think it never really happened. If I don't
see you again before I leave, remember I shall never change, I shall
love you always and not forget the least thing you said. I wish now I
had studied so that I could write better. Remember that I belong to you,
when you want me I will come to you if it's around the world, I would
come to you if I were dead I think. Good-bye, dear, dear Eliza, until
tomorrow anyhow, and that's a long while to be without seeing you or
hearing your voice.”

At the announcement of his agreement to go West, the attitude of his
father had changed greatly; his hand continually sought Anthony's
shoulder; he consulted gravely, as it were with an equal, with regard
to trains, precautions, new climates. His mother busied herself over
his clothes, her rare speech brusque and hurried. To Anthony she seemed
suddenly old, _grey_; her hands trembled, and necessary stitches were
uneven.

He was aware that the mail for Hydrangea House was collected before
noon, and he sat expectantly in the room overlooking the street. It was
dark and cool, there were creamy tea roses in the Canton jar now,
while in the street it was hot and bright. A sere engraving of Joseph
Bonaparte in regal robes gazed serenely from the wall. The hour for
lunch arrived without any message from Eliza. Throughout the afternoon
he dropped his pressing affairs find descended to the street... nothing.

His heart grew heavy with doubts, with fears--his letter had been
intercepted; or, if Eliza had received it, her answer had been diverted.
Perhaps she had at last realized that he was unfit for her love. The
impulse almost mastered him to go once more to Hydrangea House, but
pride prevented; his unhappiness hardened, grew bitter, suspicious. Then
he again read her letter, and its patent sincerity swept away all doubt;
Eliza was unwavering; if not now he would find her at the end of two
years, unchanged, warm, beautiful.

He was summoned to dinner, where he found the delicacies he especially
liked. The plates were liberally filled, all made a pretence at
eating, but, at the end, the food remained hardly touched. The forced
conversation fell into sudden, disturbing silences. His father sharpened
the carving knife twice, which, for shad roe, was scarcely necessary;
his mother scolded the servant without cause; even Ellie was affected,
and smiled at him with a bright tenderness.

He was to leave Ellerton at midnight, when he would be enabled to
connect with a western express, and it was arranged for him to spend a
last hour at the Club with his father. Ellie and the servant stood upon
the pavement, his mother was upstairs in the sewing room... where he
entered softly.

At the Club the billiard room was dark, the tables shrouded, but from
a room at the end of the hall came the murmur of the nightly coon-can
players. They seated themselves at a table, and his father ordered beer
and cigars. It was the first time that he had acknowledged Anthony to
possess the discretion of maturity, and he raised the stein to his lips
with the feeling that it was a sacrament of his manhood, an earnest and
pledge of his success.

The midnight train emerged from the gloom of the station, passed through
the outskirts of Ellerton, detached rows of dark dwellings, by the
grounds of the Baseball Association, its fence still plastered with the
gaudy circus posters, into the dim fields and shining streams. Anthony
stood on the last, swinging platform, gazing back at the gloom that
enveloped Ellerton, at the place where Hydrangea House was hid by
the hills. An acute misery possessed him--the unsettled maimer of his
departure from Eliza, her silence, struggled in his thoughts with the
attempt to realize the necessity of the course he had adopted to bring
about a final and lasting joy. He wondered if Eliza would understand the
need for his going; but, assured of her wise sympathy, he felt that she
would; and a measure of content settled upon him. The engine swung about
a curve, disappearing into the obscurity of a wood. “Eliza,” he cried
aloud, “Eliza, be here when I come back to you!”

He sat for the greater part of an hour on the deserted platform of the
junction, where signal lamps glistened on the steel rails that vanished
into the night, into the west, the inscrutable future. The headlight
of the massive locomotive flared unexpectedly, whitely upon him; the
engine, with a brief glimpse of a sanguinary heart of fire illuminating
a sooty human countenance, gleaming, liquid eyeballs, passed and
stopped; and Anthony hastily mounted the train. He made his way through
the narrow passage of buttoned, red curtains, and found his berth, when
he sank into a weary, dreamless sleep.




XXIII

IN the morning his was the last berth made up for the day; the car,
shaded against the sun, was rolling slightly, and he braced himself as
he made his way toward breakfast. The tables were all occupied; but, at
a carelessly hospitable nod, he found a place with two men. They were,
he immediately saw, Jews. One was robustly middle aged, with a pinkly
smooth countenance, a slightly flattened nose, and eyes as colorless as
clear water in a goblet. He was carefully dressed in shepherd's plaid,
with a gay tie that held a noticeably fine pearl. His companion was
thin and dark, with a heavy nose irritated to rawness by the constant
application of a blue silk handkerchief. The latter, Anthony discovered
in the course of the commonplaces which followed, was sycophant and
henchman of the first--a never failing source of applause for the
former's witticisms.

“How far out are you bound?” queried the owner of the pearl. Then, when
Anthony had told him his destination, “no business opportunities in
California for a young man without capital behind him; only hard work
and a day laborer's wages. Nothing West but fruit, land and politics on
a large scale. My chauffeur at a hundred a month does better than eighty
per cent, of the young ones in the West.”

This information fell like a dark cloud over Anthony's sanguine hopes
for a speedy and opulent return. A sense of imminent misfortune pressed
upon him, a sudden, unreasoning dread of what might be in store for
Eliza and himself, of the countless perils of a protracted delay. At the
end of two years he might be no better off than he was at present. His
brother-in-law, he knew, would only pay him a nominal amount at first.
The two years stretched out interminably in his imagination.

The more prosperous of his companions selected a cigar from a silk case,
and, cutting it with a gold penknife, they removed to the smoking car.
“I drove a car for a while,” Anthony informed them later, mingling the
acidulous smoke of a Dulcina with the more fragrant clouds of Habana;
“it was a Challenger six.”

“Hartmann here is a director in the Challenger factory,” the sycophant
told him. “The factory's in our home city, where we are going. It's
a great car.” Hartmann examined Anthony with a new and more personal
interest. “Did you like it?” he demanded.

“It's all right, for the price,” Anthony assured him; “it's the most
sporting looking car on the American market.”

“That's the thing,” the other declared with satisfaction; “big sales and
a quick return on investment. A showy car is what the public want, the
engine's unimportant, it's paint that counts.”

“Do you have any radiator trouble?” Anthony demanded. The other regarded
him shrewdly. “I run a Berliet,” he announced; “I was discussing a
popular article.” He arranged himself more comfortably in his leather
chair, and prepared for sleep.

Anthony returned to his place in the coach, where he brooded dejectedly
upon what he had heard about California. He thought of the distance
widening at a dizzy rate between Eliza and himself, and plunged into a
vast pit of loneliness... he had made a terrible mistake in leaving her.
It seemed to him now that he had deserted her, perhaps she was suffering
on account of him--had expected him to free her from an intolerable
condition. Again he cursed in his heart the prudent counsel of old
men, the cold sapience of the world, that had betrayed him, that had
prevailed over him against his instinct, his longing.




XXIV

AT lunch he was progressing toward an empty table when Hartmann waved
him imperiously to a place at his side. “Have a drink,” he advised
genially; “this is my affair.” Beer followed the initial cocktail,
and brandy wound the meal to a comfortable conclusion. A Habana in the
smoking car completed Anthony's bodily satisfaction.

“California's no place for a young man without capital,” Hartmann
reiterated; “you work like a dog for two and a half a day; no future.”
 He paused, allowing this to be digested, then: “I have a little plan to
propose, you can take it or not--or perhaps you are not competent.--My
chauffeur is laid up with a broken wrist, a matter of a month or more;
how would you like to run my car until he returns? Then, if you are
satisfactory, you can go into the Challenger factory, with something
ahead of you, a future. Or you can go on to California... say
seventy-five dollars richer.” Anthony shook his head regretfully. “Don't
answer now,” Hartmann advised; “Spring City is three hours off. Think it
over; seventy-five dollars; a chance, if you are handy, in the factory.”

Anthony was suddenly obsessed by the thought that, at Spring City, he
would be only a day removed from Eliza. He wondered what his father
would say to this new possibility? At worst he would only be delayed in
his arrival in California, and with seventy-five dollars in consequence.
At best--the Challenger factory: he expanded optimistically the
opportunities offered by the latter. If he could show his father
immediate fruits from a change of plan, the elder, he was certain,
would add his approval. In a passing, sceptical mood he speculated upon
Hartmann's motive in this offer to an entire stranger; but his doubts
speedily vanished--any irregularity must be immediately visible.

“You can make a stop over on your ticket for a couple of days and try
it,” the other interjected; “it will cost you nothing.”

Only a day removed from Eliza! he would write to his father, his
brother-in-law, and explain! he had decided that it would do no harm to
try it. “Good!” the Jew exclaimed; “see the conductor about your ticket.
If you decide to remain you can send for your trunk.” He offered his
cigar case to his companion, but, now, neglected to include Anthony.
Imperceptibly their relations had changed; Hartmann's geniality
decreased; his colorless gaze wandered indifferently. Anthony found the
conductor, and arranged a stop-over at Spring City. He collected his
belongings; and, not long after, he stood on a station platform beside
his bag, watching with sudden misgivings the rear of the train he had
left disappearing behind a bulk of factories and clustered shanties.

Hartmann handed him a card, with a written direction and address. “The
garage,” he explained; “have the car ready to-morrow at nine. I'll allow
you an expense of five dollars until a definite arrangement.”

Anthony quickly found the garage--a structure of iron and glass, with
a concrete floor where cars were drawn up in glistening rows. A line
of chairs fronted upon the pavement, occupied by mechanics in greasy
overalls, smarter chauffeurs, and garrulous, nondescript hangerson. The
foreman was within, busy with the compression tanks. He was short in
stature, with a pale, concerned countenance. “Fourth on the right from
the front,” he directed, reading Hartmann's card; “there's a bad shoe
on the back.... So the old man's ready for another little trip,” he
commented.

“His chauffeur has a broken wrist,” Anthony explained. “He's offered me
the job for a month.”

“Wrist hell! Hartmann fired him, he knew too much--about sprees with
Kuhn. He's a sharp duck; I'll bet he picked you up outside Spring City.”

“I met him on the Sunset Limited,” Anthony continued; “I understood he
was a director in the Challenger Motorcar Company--”

“He's that, right enough; the rottenest car and shop in America; they're
so dam' mean they won't provide their men with drinking water; they have
to bring labor from the East, scabs and other truck.” The conviction
settled heavily upon Anthony that, after all, he had made a mistake in
listening to Hartmann, in falling in with his suggestion. If there had
been another train through Spring City that night for California he
would have taken it. But, as there was not, and he had committed himself
for the next twenty-four hours, he made his way to the Berliet car
indicated. There he took off his coat, and busied himself with replacing
the damaged shoe. When that was accomplished the dusk had thickened to
evening, the suspended gas globes in the garage had been lighted,
and shone like lemon-yellow moons multiplied in the lilac depths of a
mirrored twilight.

He saw, across the street, a creamery, and, at a bare table, consumed a
quart of milk and a plate of sugared rusk. Then, on a chair in the line
before the garage, he sat half intent upon the conversation about him,
half considering the swift changes that had overtaken him in the past,
few days. His fingers closed upon Eliza's letter in his pocket, and
he gazed at the callous and ribald faces at his side, he heard the
truculent laughter, with wonderment that they existed in the same world
with her delicate beauty. She smiled at him, out of his memory, over
a mass of white bloom, and the present seemed like an ugly dream from
which he must awake in her presence. Or was the other a dream, a vision
of immaterial delight spread before his wondering mind, and this harsh
mirth, these mocking faces, Hartmann's smooth lies, the hateful reality?

The night deepened, one by one the chairs before the garage were
deserted, the sharp pounding of a hammer on metal sounded from within,
the disjointed measures of a sentimental song. A sudden weariness swept
over Anthony, a distaste for the task of seeking a room through the
strange streets; and, arranging the cushions in Hartmann's car, he slept
there until morning. He awoke to the flooding of the concrete floor with
a sheet of water flashing in the crisp sunlight. It was eight o'clock,
and he made a hurried toilet at a convenient spigot, breakfasting at the
creamery.

Hartmann appeared shortly after nine: his countenance glowed from a
scented massage, his yellow boots shone with restrained splendor, and
a sprig of geranium was drawn through an ironed buttonhole. He nodded
briefly to Anthony, and narrowly watched the latter manouvre the Berliet
from its place in the row onto the street. They sped smoothly across
town to what, evidently, was the principal shopping thoroughfare; and,
before a glittering plateglass window that bore the chaste design,
“Hartmann & Company” drew up, and Hartmann prepared to descend.

“I think I'll go on West,” Anthony informed him; “this afternoon.”

Annoyance was plainly visible upon the other's countenance. “I was just
congratulating myself on a find,” he declared; “you must at least stay
with me until I get some one else.” He paused; Anthony made no comment.
“Now, listen to what I will do,” he pronounced finally; “if you will
stay with me for a month I'll give you a hundred dollars and your
expenses--it will be clear money. I... I had thought of taking a little
trip in the car, I'm feeling the store a little, and I need a discreet
man. Think it over--a hundred in your pocket, and you may be able to
get off in three weeks.” He left hurriedly, without giving Anthony an
opportunity for further speech. It was an alluring offer, a hundred
dollars secured for the future, for Eliza. He speculated about the
prospective trip, Hartmann's wish to secure a “discreet” man, the
foreman's insinuations. However, the motive didn't concern him, the wage
was his sole consideration, and that, he decided, he could not afford
to lose. He whistled to a newsboy, and, studying the baseball scores,
waited comfortably for his employer.

Later he drove Hartmann, now accompanied by Kuhn, out of town, through
a district of suburban villas, smooth, white roads and green lawns, into
the farmland and pasturage beyond. They finally stopped at an inn of
weathered grey stone set behind a row of ancient elms. A woman was
sitting on the portico, and she rose and came forward sinuously as
the men descended from the motor car. Anthony saw that she had a full,
voluptuous figure, lustreless, yellow hair, and sleepy eyes. Hartmann
patted her upon the shoulder, and the three moved to the portico, where
they sat conversing over a table of whiskies and soda. Occasional shrill
bursts of laughter, gross terms, reached Anthony. The woman lounged
nonchalantly in her chair; she wore a transparent white waist, through
winch was visible a confused tracery of purple ribband, frank rubicund
flesh. When the men rose, Hartmann kissed her. “Thursday,” he reminded
her; “shortly after three.”

“And I'll depend on you,” Kuhn added,--“a good figger and a loving
disposition. We don't want any dead ones on this trip.”

“Laura's all right,” she assured him; “she's just ready for something of
this sort; she goes off about twice a year.”

When they had started, Hartmann leaned forward. “Going Thursday... that
little trip I spoke to you about.--No talking, understand. Look over the
tires, get what you think-necessary for five or six hundred miles.” He
tended Anthony a crisp, currency note. “Here's the five. Your salary
starts to-morrow.”

That night Anthony wrote a letter of explanation to his father, a note
to California in reference to his trunk, and a short communication to
Eliza.--He was not certain that she would receive it. Her parents,
he was convinced, were opposed to him--they were ignorant of the
singleness, the depth, the determination, of his love.




XXV

IT. was nearly four, when, on Thursday, Anthony stopped the car before
the inn by the elms. The woman with the yellow hair, accompanied by
a figure in a shapeless russet silk coat, were waiting for them. The
latter carried a small, patent-leather dressing case, and a large bag
reposed on the portico, which Anthony strapped to the luggage rack.
Kuhn, animated by a flow of superabundant animal spirits, bantered each
member of the party: he gave Anthony a cigar that had been slightly
broken, tipped off Hartmann's cap, and assisted the woman with profound
gallantry into the car. Hartmann discussed routes over an unfolded map
with Anthony; then, the course laid out, they moved forward.

Their way led over an old postroad, now between walls, trees, dank and
grey with age and dust, now rising steadily into a region of bluish
hills. Scraps of conversation fell upon Anthony's hearing: the woman
in the russet coat, he learned, was named Laura Dallam. Kuhn talked
incessantly, and, occasionally, she replied to his sallies in a cool,
detached voice. She differed in manner from the others, she was a little
disdainful, Anthony discovered. Once she said sharply, “Do let me enjoy
the country.”

They slipped smoothly through the afternoon to the end of day. The
sun had vanished beyond the hills when they stopped at an inn on the
outskirts of an undiscovered town. It was directly on the road, and,
built in a flimsy imitation of an Elizabethan hostelry, had benches at
either side of the entrance.

There Anthony sat later, while, from a balcony above him, fell the
tones of his employer and his companions. He could hear them clearly,
distinguish Hartmann's heavy jocularity, the yellow-haired woman's
syrupy voice, Laura Dallam's crisp utterances. Kuhn's labored wit had
drooped with the afternoon, an accent of complaint had grown upon him.
Occasionally there was a thin, clear tinkle of glasses and ice. As
the night deepened, the conversation above grew blurred, peals of
inconsequential laughter more frequent; a glass fell on the balcony, and
broke with a small, sudden explosion. Some one--it was the Dallam woman,
exclaimed, “don't!” She leaned over the railing above Anthony's head,
and said despairingly, “I can't get drunk!” Kuhn pressed to her side,
and she moved away impatiently. He became enraged, and they commenced a
low, bitter wrangling. Finally Hartmann insinuated himself between them;
the two women disappeared; and Kuhn complained aloud of the manner in
which he had been treated.

“She's all right,” Hartmann assured him; “you went at it too heavy; take
your time; she's not a flapper from the chorus.” They tramped heavily
across the balcony, whispering tensely, into the hotel.

The morning following they failed to start until past eleven: Hartmann's
countenance was pasty from the night's debauch, greenish shadows
hung beneath his colorless eyes, his mouth was a leaden line; the
yellow-haired woman was haggard, she looked older by ten years since the
day previous. Kuhn was savagely, morosely, silent. But Mrs. Dallam was
as fresh, as sparkling, as the morning itself. She nodded brightly at
Anthony as she took a seat forward, by his side. A heavy veil was draped
back from her face, and he saw that it was finely-cut; an intensely
black bang fell squarely across her low, white forehead, beneath which
eyes of a sombre, velvety blue were oddly compelling; and against the
blanched oval of her face her mouth was like a print of blood. It was a
potent, vaguely disturbing countenance; and, beneath the voluminous
silk coat, he saw narrow black slippers with carelessly tied bows that,
stinging his imagination, reminded him of wasps.

As he drove the car he was frequently aware of her exotic gaze resting
speculatively upon him. On a high, sunny reach of road there was a
shrill rush of escaping air, and he found a rear tire flat. Hartmann and
his mate explored the road, Kuhn gloomed aloof, while Mrs. Dallam seated
herself on a nearby bank, as Anthony replaced the inner tube. It was
hot, and he removed his coat, and soon his shirt was clinging to
the rippling, young muscles of his vigorous torso. Once, when he
straightened up to wipe the perspiration from his brow, Mrs. Dallam
caught his glance, and held it with a slow smile.

Their progress for the day ended at a small hotel maintained upon the
roof of a ridge of hills. As the dusk deepened the valley beyond swam
with warm, scattered lights, while above, in illimitable space, gleamed
stars near, only a few millions of miles away, and stars far, millions
upon millions of miles distant.

The ground floor of the hotel was divided by a passage, on one side the
bar, and the other a dining and lounging room, lit with kerosene lamps
swung below tin reflectors. When Anthony was ready for supper the others
had disappeared above. He was served by the proprietor, a short, rotund
man with a glistening red face and hands like swollen pincushions. He
breathed stentoriously amid his exertions, muttering objurgations
in connection with the name of an absent servitor, hopelessly drunk,
Anthony gathered, in the stable.

A bell sounded sharply from above, and he disappeared abruptly, shouting
up the stair. Then, shortly after, he reappeared in the dining room with
a tray bearing a pitcher of water, glasses, and a bottle labelled with
the name of a popular brand of whiskey. “Can you run this up to your
folks?” he demanded, in a storm of explosive breaths; “I got enough to
stall three men down here.” Anthony balanced the tray, and moved toward
the stair.

He stopped in the hallway to redispose his burden, when he heard the
changing gears of a second automobile without. He moved carefully
upward, conscious of lowered voices at his back, then the sound of
footsteps following him. He turned as he had been directed in the hall
above, and knocked upon a closed door. Kuhn's sullen voice bade him
enter. He had opened the door, when, almost upsetting the tray, a small
group at his back pushed him aside, and entered Hartmann's room.




XXVI

THE flaring gas jet within shone on Hartmann, in his shirt sleeves,
reclining collarless on a bed, while the yellow-haired woman, in a
short, vividly green petticoat, but otherwise normally garbed, sat by
him twisting her fingers in his hair. Mrs. Dallam, her waist open at the
neck, was cold-creaming her throat, while Kuhn was decorating her bared
arms with pats of pink powder from a silver-mounted puff. He turned at
the small commotion in the doorway.... His jaw dropped, and his glabrous
eyes bulged in incredulous dismay. The powder puff fell to the floor; he
wet his dry lips with his tongue. “Minna!” he stammered; “Minna!”

The woman in the door had grey hair streaked and soiled with sallow
white, and a deeply scored, harsh countenance. Her gnarled hands were
tightly clenched, and her tall, spare figure shook from suppressed
excitement and emotion. At her back were two men, one unobtrusive,
remarkable in his lack of salient feature; the other stolidly, heavily,
Semitic.

Hartmann hastily scrambled into an upright position; the woman at his
side gave vent to a startled, slight scream, desperately arranging
her scant draperies; Mrs. Dallam, with a stony face, continued to rub
cold-cream into her throat.

“Now, Mrs. Kuhn,” Hartmann stuttered, “everything can he satisfactorily
explained.” The woman he addressed paid not the slightest attention
to him, but, advancing into the room, gazed with mingled hatred and
curiosity at Mrs. Dallam. The two women stood motionless, tense,
oblivious to the others, in their silent, merciless battle. The latter
smiled slightly, with coldly-contemptuous lips, at the grotesque figure,
the ill-fitting dress upon the wasted body, the hat pinned askew on the
thin, time-stained hair, before her. And the other, painfully rigid,
worn, brittle, gazed with bitter appraisal at the softly-rounded,
graceful figure, the mature youth, that mocked her.

“Minna,” Kuhn reiterated, “come outside, won't you, I want to see you
outside. Tell her to go out, Abbie,” he entreated the stolid figure
at the door; “it ain't fit for her to be here. I will see you all down
stairs.” He laid a shaking hand upon his wife's shoulder. “Come away,”
 he implored.

But still, unconscious apparently of his presence, she gazed at Mrs.
Dallam.

“You gutter piece!” she said finally; “you thief!”

Mrs. Dallam laughed easily. “Steal that!” she exclaimed, indicating
Kuhn, “that... beetle! If it's any consolation to you--he hasn't put
his hand on me. It makes me ill to be near him. I should be grateful if
you'd take him home.”

“That's so, Mrs. Kuhn,” Hartmann interpolated eagerly, “nothing's went
on you couldn't witness, nothing.”

Tears stole slowly over the inequalities of Mrs. Kuhn's countenance.
She trembled so violently that the man called Abbie stepped forward
and supported her. Now tears streamed copiously over Kuhn's narrow
countenance. “Oh, Minna!” he cried, “_can_ I go home with you? can I go
_now?_ These people don't mean anything to me, not like you do.--I get
crazy at times, and gotta have excitement; I hate it,” he declared;
“but I can't somehow stand out against it. But you must give me another
try.... Why, I'd be nothing in the world without you; I'd go down to
hell alive without you, Minna.”

Mrs. Kuhn became unmanageable; she uttered a series of short, gasping
cries, and wilted into the arm about her. “Take her out, Abbie,” Kuhn
entreated, “take her out of this.” Anthony, with the tray still balanced
in his grasp, stood aside. The man without characteristics was making
rapid notes in an unostentatious wallet. Then Mrs. Kuhn, supported and
followed by her husband and the third, disappeared into the hall.

“Shut the door,” Hartmann commanded sharply; “and give me a drink.”
 Anthony set the tray on a table. “God!” the yellow-haired woman
ejaculated, “me too.” Mrs. Dallam returned to the mirror, and surveyed
the effects of the cold cream. With an expression of distaste she
brushed the marks of the powder from her arm. “The beetle!” she
repeated.

“Minna Kuhn won't bring action,” Hartmann declared, with growing
confidence; “she'll take him back; nothing will come out.” The other
woman drank deeply, a purplish flush mantelled her full countenance.
A strand of metallic hair slipped over her eyes. “Let her talk,” she
asseverated; “we're bohemians.” She clasped Hartmann to her ample bosom.

Mrs. Dallam moved to the half opened door to the room beyond. “Bring in
the pitcher of water, Anthony,” she directed. He followed her with the
water, and she bolted the door behind them. The door to the hall was
closed too. She stopped and smiled at him with narrowed, enigmatic eyes.
The subtle force of her being swept tingling over him. She laid her
hand, warm, palpitatingly alive, upon his.

“The swine,” she said; “how did we get into this, you and I?”




XXVII

THE patent-leather dressing case lay open on a bureau, spilling a small
cascade of ivory toilet implements, a severely-plain black dinner gown
lay limp, dully shimmering, over the back of a chair, and, on the bed, a
soft, white heap of undergarments gave out a seductive odor of lavender.
“Cigarettes in the leather box,” she indicated; “take some outside.” A
screened door opened upon a boxlike balcony, cut into the angle of the
roof; and Anthony, conscious of the warm weight of a guiding arm, found
himself upon it. He seated himself on the railing, and lit a cigarette.
He must go in a minute, he thought.

The lights had vanished from the valley, at his back the risen moon
dimmed the stars, turned the leaves silver grey. A wan ray fell upon
a clump of bushes below--lilacs, but the blooms had wilted, gone. The
screen door opened, and Mrs. Dallam was at his side; she sank into a
chair, the rosy blur of a cigarette in her fingers; she wore a loose
wrap of deep green silk, open at her throat upon the white web beneath;
in the obscurity her eyes were as black, as lustreless, as ebony, her
mouth was a purple stain.

She smoked silently, gazing into the night. He would go now, he decided,
and moved from his place on the rail. But with clinging fingers she
caught his wrist, reproachfully lifting a velvety gaze. “I will not be
left alone,” she declared; “I simply must have some one with me... you,
or I will get despondent. You are--no, I won't say young, that would
make you cross; you are like that fabulous fountain the Spaniards hunted
in Florida, I want to drink deep, deep.”

Anthony's resolution wavered; it was early; it pleased him that so fine
a creature should desire his presence; an unhappy note in her voice
moved him to pity. She was lonely, and he was alone--here; why should
they not support each other? He leaned, close to her, upon the sloping
roof. She talked little; she laughed once, a low, silvery peal whose
echo ran up and down his spine.

They heard a servant closing the shutters, the doors, below them,
and the sound linked Anthony to Mrs. Dallam in a feeling of pervading
intimacy. She rose, and stood pressed against his side, and his heart
beat instantly unsteady. The night grew strangely oppressive, there was
a roll of distant, muffled thunder; he turned to her with a commonplace
about the heat, when her arms went about his neck, and she kissed him
full, slowly, upon the lips. Unconsciously he held her supple body to
him. She leaned back against his arms, her eyes shut and lips parted. A
terrible and brute tyranny of desire welled up within him, sweeping away
every vestige of control, of memory. The sky whirled in his vision, the
substantial world vanished in a smother of flaming mists.

Then he released her so suddenly that she fell against the rail,
recovering her poise with difficulty. Anthony stumbled back, drawing
his hand across his brow. “What... what damned perfume's on you?” he
demanded hoarsely.

“None at all,” she assured him, “I never... Why, Anthony, are you ill?”

Wave after wave of sweetness enveloped him, choking, nauseating,
stinging his eyes, extinguishing the fire within him, turning the lust
to ashes. He too supported himself upon the rail, and his gaze fell
below, to the bushes. Was it the moonlight, or were they, where they had
been bare a few minutes before, now covered with great misty masses of
lilacs?

The perfume of the flowers came up to him breath on breath: he could see
them clearly now.... White lilacs! An overwhelming panic swept over him,
a sudden dread of his surrounding, of the silken figure of the woman
before him. He must get away. He pushed her roughly aside, swung back
the screen door, and clattered through the room and down the stair. He
fumbled for a moment with a bolted door, and then was outside, free.
Without hesitancy he fled into the night, the secretive shadows. He
ran until he literally fell, with bursting lungs and shaking, powerless
knees, upon a bank.




XXVIII

THE hotel was lost; the silence, the peace of nature, unbroken. A
drowsy flutter of wings stilled in a hedge. The moon sailed behind a
cloud that drooped low upon the earth, and great, slow drops of rain
fell to a continuous and far reverberation. They struck coolly upon
Anthony's face, pattered among the grass, dropped with minute explosions
of dust upon the road. The shower passed, the cloud dissolved, and the
crystal flood of light fell once more into the cup of the valley.

It spread like a balm over Anthony: Hartmann, Mrs. Dallam, the weeping
face of Mrs. Kuhn, were like painted figures in a distasteful act upon
which he had turned his back, from which he had gone forth into the
supreme spectacle of the spheres, the presence of Eliza Dreen. Every
atom thrilled with the thought of her. “Oh, my very dear,” he whispered
to the sleeping birds, the dead, white disk of the moon: “I will come
back to you... good.”

After the rain the night was like a damp, sweet veil upon his face;
the few stars above him were blurred as though seen through tears; the
horizon burned in a circle of flickering, ruddy light. He took up his
way once more over the soft folds of the road; now, accustomed to the
dark, he could distinguish the smooth pebbles by the way, separate, grey
blades of grass. He walked buoyantly, tirelessly, weaving on the loom
of the dim miles mingled visions of future and past, dominated by the
serene presence of Eliza.

He felt in a pocket the wallet containing his ticket to California and
the generous sum added by his father. There must be no more delay in
arriving at his western destination! His excursion with Hartmann had
been a grave error; he saw it clearly now, one of those faults--so
fatally easy for him to commit--which, if his life was to spell success,
if he was to come finally into his heritage of joy, he must scrupulously
avoid. In the future he would drive directly, safely, toward his goal;
he would become part of that orderly pattern of life plotted in streets
and staid occupations: at the end of day he would return to his small,
carefully-tended garden to weed and water, and sit with Eliza on his
portico--a respectable, an authentic, member of society. On Sunday
morning they would go to the Episcopal Church, they would join the
sober, festivally-garbed procession moving toward the faint thunder of
the organ. And, at dinner, he would carve the roast. Thus, quietly,
they would grow old, grey, together. They would have a number of
children--all girls, he decided.

Imperceptibly the morning was born about him, faint shadows grew under
the hedges, the sweet, querulous note of a robin sounded from the
sparkling sod. A wind stirred, as immaculate, as dewly fresh, as though
it were the first breath blown upon a new world of virginal and lyric
beauty. The molten gold of the sun welled out of the east and spilled
over the wooded hills and meadows; the violet mists drawn over the
swales and streams dissolved; Anthony met a boy driving cows to pasture.




XXIX

HE rapidly overtook a bent and doggedly tramping figure; no common
wanderer, he recognized, as he drew nearer. The others decent suit was
eminently presentable, his felt hat brushed, his shoes comparatively
new. He turned upon Anthony a countenance as expressionless, as
darkly-stained, as a chipped and rusted effigy of iron; deep lines fell
back across the dingy cheeks; his lipless mouth was, apparently, another
such line; and his eyes, deeply sunk in the skull, were the eyes of a
dead man. Yet they were not blind; they saw.

He halted, and surveyed Anthony with a lowered, searching curiosity,
clenching with a strained and surprising force the knob of a black
stick. Anthony met his scrutiny with the salutation of youth and the
road; but the other made no reply; his countenance was as blank as
though no word had been spoken. Then a sudden flicker of hot light
burned in the dull depths of his gaze, his worn face quivered with
a swift malignancy, an energy of suspicion, of hatred, that touched
Anthony's heart with a cold finger of fear.

“What's your name?” he demanded, his entire being strained in an agony
of attention.

Anthony informed him with scrupulous exactitude.

He seemed, for a moment, to doubt Anthony's identity; then the fire
died, his eyes grew blank; his grasp relaxed on the stick, and, bent,
dogged, he continued on his way.

The repellent contraction of Anthony's heart expanded in a light and
careless curiosity, youthful contempt mingled with the gayety of his
morning mood, and he hastened his steps until he had again overtaken his
inquisitor.

“That's a good cane you've got,” he observed of the stout shaft and
rounded head.

Its owner grasped it by the lower end, and swung the head against his
hand. “Lead,” he pronounced somberly. “It would crumble your skull like
an egg.”

Again fear stirred vaguely in Anthony: the entire absence of emotion
in the sanguinary, the dull, matter-of-fact voice were inhuman, tainted
with madness; the total detachment of those deliberate words had been
appalling.

“I thought,” he continued, “that you might have been Alfred Lukes,
but you're too young.” As he pronounced that name his grasp tightened
whitely about the lead knob. The conviction seized Anthony that it was
fortunate he was not the individual in question.

“You want Alfred?” he asked in an attempted jocularity.

“He murdered my boy,” the other answered simply. “Him and another. They
asked James into a boat to go fishing. Boys will always go fishing; he
was only eleven.” He stopped in the middle of the road, and produced a
small package folded in oiled silk. It proved to be a derringer, of an
old-fashioned model, with two, short black barrels, one atop the other.
“Loaded,” he said, “to put against his face.” Then he rewrapped the
weapon and returned it to its place of concealment. “I've been looking
for Alfred Lukes for nineteen years,” he recommenced his dogged
progress, “in trains and saloons and stores. Nineteen years ago James
was found in the river.” He was silent for a moment, then, “One eye was
torn out,” he added in his weary voice. He turned his blank and terrible
gaze upon Anthony, upon the sparkling morning. The derringer dragged
slightly upon his coat, the stick--that stick which could crush a skull
like an egg--made its trailing signature in the dust. A mingled loathing
and pity took possession of Anthony; he recoiled from the corroding and
secret horror of that nineteen year Odyssey of a torturing and impotent
spirit of revenge, from the infinite black tide that had swept over the
stooping figure at his side, the pitiless memory that had destroyed its
sanity.

“It was on Sunday; James had on his nice blue suit and a new, red silk
necktie... they found it knotted about his throat... as tight as a big
man could make it.”

A sudden impulse overcame Anthony to run, to leave far behind him this
sinister, animated speck on the sunny road, under the dusty branches
burdened with ripening fruit, thrilling with the bubbling notes of
birds. But, as his gaze fell again upon his companion, he saw only
an old man, gaunt with suffering, hurrying toward the noon. A deep,
cleansing compassion vanquished the dread, and, spontaneously, he spoke
of his own lighter affairs, of California, his destination.

“I have never been west of Chicago,” the other interposed. “I hadn't the
money; the walking is dreadfully hard; the sun on those plains hurt my
head. Do you suppose James Lukes is in California?” he asked, pausing
momentarily in his rapid shamble.

In his careless, youthful egotism, Anthony ignored the query. He
wondered aloud where he could board a through train to the West.

“Have you got your ticket?”

Anthony tapped complacently upon the pocket that held the wallet. They
were walking now through a wood that flowed to the rim of the road, and
a turn hid either vista. A stream ran through the rank greenery of the
bottom, crossed by a bridge of loosely bolted planks. Anthony paused,
intent upon the brown, sliding water beneath him, the minute minnows
balancing against the stream. In that closed place of broken light the
cool stillness was profound. The stream fled past its weeds without a
gurgle, the leaves hung motionless, as though they had been stamped from
metal... he might have been, with his companion, within a charmed circle
of everlasting tranquillity. Then:

“I wonder if Alfred Lukes is in California?” the latter resumed; “I've
never got there, the fare... too expensive, the sun hurt my head.”
 Anthony lit a Dulcina, and expelled a cloud of blue smoke that rose
compactly in the motionless air. “California,” he repeated, sunk in
thought; “I wonder--”

“California's a big place,” Anthony hazarded.

“If he was there I'd find him.” Then, in his mechanical and
dispassionate voice, he cursed Alfred Lukes with the utmost foulness.
One heated word, the slightest elevation of his even tones, would have
made the performance human, intelligent, but the deadly monotony, the
impersonal accents, were as harrowing as though a mummy had ground out
of its shrunken and embalmed interior a recital of prehistoric hatred
and wrong; it resembled a phonograph record of incalculable depravity.
He stood beyond the bridge, resting upon his stick, with his unmoved
face turned toward Anthony. His hat cast a deep shade over his eyes;
but, below, in a wanton patch of sunlight, his lipless mouth trembled
greyly.

“California,” he repeated still again, then, “I must get there.” He
shifted his hand lower upon the stick, and moved nearer to Anthony by a
step; the patch of sunlight shifted up to his hat and fled.

“You could try the freight cars,” Anthony suggested. The stooping,
neatly-brushed figure, the stony countenance, had become, in an
intangible manner, menacing, obscurely dangerous. The fingers were drawn
like a claw about the club. Then the arm relaxed, he seemed to shrink
into hopeless resignation. Beyond the leafy arcade Anthony could now
see the countryside spread out in sunny fields, fleecy, white clouds
shifting in the sea of blue.... Suddenly a great flame shot up before
his eyes, a stunning shock fell upon his head, and the flame went out
in a whirling darkness that swept like a black sea over a continent of
intolerable pain. He heard, as if from an immense distance, a thin voice
pronounce the single word, “California.”




XXX

A GRIPPING wave of nausea recalled Anthony to consciousness; a deathly
sickness spreading from the pit of his stomach through his entire being;
his prostrate head, seeming stripped of its skull, was tortured by the
dragging fronds of the ferns among which he lay. He sat up dizzily.
Through the leafy opening the fleeting forms of the clouds shifted
over the sunny hills. The stream slipped silently through the grass. He
staggered down the slight incline, and, falling forward upon the ground,
let the water flow over his throbbing head. The cool shock revived him,
and he washed away a dark, clotted film from his forehead and cheek.

His wallet, with his ticket to California and store of money were gone.
He started in instant, unsteady pursuit of the man who had struck him
down and robbed him. But, at the edge of the wood he paused--how long
had he lain among the ferns? the sun was now high over his head, the
morning lapsed, the other might have had three, four hours' start.
He might now be entrained, bound for California, searching for Alfred
Lukes. A sudden weakness forced him to sit at the roadside; he lost
consciousness again for a moment. Then, summoning his youth, his
vitality, he rose, and walked unsteadily in search of assistance.

He had proceeded an intolerable mile, wiping away a thin trickle of
blood that persisted in crawling into his eye, when he saw a low roof
amid a tangle of greenery. He stopped with a sobbing breath of relief.
He was delirious, he thought, for peering at him through the leaves he
saw the countenance and beautiful, bare body of a child, as dark and
tense as bronze. A cloud of black hair overhung a face vivid as a
flower; her crimson lips trembled; then, with a startled cry, the figure
vanished.

He made his way with difficulty over a short path, overgrown with vines
and twisted branches, and came abruptly upon a low, white house and
wide, opened door. An aged and shapeless woman sat on a chair without a
back, cutting green beans into a bright tin basin. When she saw him
she dropped the pan with a clatter, and an unfamiliar exclamation of
surprise.

“I've been hurt,” Anthony explained; “knocked silly and robbed.”

“Gina!” she called excitedly; “Dio mio! _Gina!_” A young woman, large
and loosely molded, with a lusty baby clasped to her bared breast,
appeared in the doorway. When she saw Anthony she dropped the baby into
the elder's arms. “Poverino!” she cried; “come in the house, little
mister.” She caught him by the arm, almost lifting him over the doorstep
into a cool, dark interior. He had a brief glimpse of drying vegetables
strung from the ceiling, of a waxen image of the virgin in faded pink
silk finery against the wall; then, with closed eyes, he relaxed
into the charge of soothing and skilled fingers. His head rested on a
maternal arm while a soft bandage was fixed about his forehead.

“Ecco!” she ejaculated, her ministration successful. She led him to a
rude couch upon the floor, and gently insisted upon his lying down. He
attempted to thank her, but she laid her large, capable hand over his
mouth, and he sank into an exhausted, semi-conscious rest. Once she bent
over him, dampening the bandage, once he saw, against the light of the
door, the shape, slim and beautiful as an angel, of the child. Outside
a low, liquid murmur of voices continued without a break, strange and
quieting.

He slept, and woke up refreshed, strengthened. The dusk had thickened in
the room, the strings of vegetables were lost in the shadows, a dim
oil lamp cast a feeble glow on rude walls. He lay motionless for a few,
delightful seconds, folded in absolute peace, beneficent quietude. The
amazing idea struck him that, perhaps, he had died, and that this was
the eternal tranquillity of the hymn books, and he started vigorously
to his feet in an absurd panic. The homely figure of a man entering
dispelled the illusion--he was a commonplace Italian, one of the
multitude who labored in the ditches of the country, stood aside in
droves from the tracks as trains whirled past.

“What hit your head?” he asked, his mobile face displaying sympathetic
interest, concern.

“A leaded stick,” Anthony explained. “I was knocked out, robbed.”

“Birbanti!” he laid a heavy hand upon Anthony's shoulder. “You feel
better now, gia?” The latter, confused by such open attention, shook
the hand from its friendly grip. “He was crazy,” he awkwardly explained;
“and looking for a man who had killed his son; he wanted to get to
California and I told him I had a ticket west.”

The laborer led Anthony to a room where a rude table was spread with
homely fare--a great, rough loaf of bread, a deep bowl of steaming,
green soup, flakey white cheese, and a bottle of purple wine. An open
door faced the western sky, and the room was filled with the warm
afterglow; it hung like a shining veil over the man, the still, maternal
countenance of the woman, like an aureole about the baby now sleeping
against her breast, and graced the russet countenance of an aged
peasant. The child that Anthony had seen first, now in a scant white
slip, seemed dipped in the gold of dreams.

As he consumed the savory soup, the creamy cheese and wine, the scene
impressed him as strangely significant, familiar. He dismissed an idle
effort of memory in order to consider the unfortunate aspect assumed by
his immediate affairs. Concerning one thing he was determined--he would
ask his father to assist him no further toward his western destination.
He must himself pay for the initial error, together with all its
consequences, of having followed Hartmann: California was his object,
he would not write to Ellerton until his westward progress was once more
assured.

Two courses were open to him--he could “beat” his way, getting meals
when and how he was able, riding, when possible, on freight cars, doing
casual jobs on the way. That he dismissed in favor of a second, which
in the end, he judged, would prove more speedy. He would make his way
to the nearest city, find employment in a public or private garage as
chauffeur or mechanic, and, in a month at most, have the money necessary
for the continuation of his journey.

The household conversed vigorously in their native idiom, giving his
thoughts full freedom. The glow in the west faded, sank from the room,
but, suddenly, he recognized the familiar quality of his surroundings.
It resembled a picture of the Holy Family on the wall of his mother's
room; the bare interior was the same, the rugged features of Joseph the
carpenter, the brooding beauty of Mary. He almost laughed aloud at the
absurd comparison of the exalted scene of Christ's infancy with this
commonplace but kindly group, the laborer with soiled and callous hands
and winestained mouth, the material young woman with the string of cheap
blue beads.

The meal at an end the chairs were pushed back and the old woman noisily
assembled the dishes. Anthony's head throbbed and burned. In passing,
the mother's fingers rested upon his brow. “Not too hot,” she nodded
contentedly.

A consultation followed. Anthony might remain there for the night; or,
if he insisted, he might drive into the city with “Nono,” who left in
a few hours with a wagonload of greens for the morning market. He chose
the latter, with a clumsy expression of gratitude, impatient to resume
active efforts in his rehabilitation in his own mind.

“Niente!” they disclaimed in chorus.




XXXI

HE fell into an instant slumber on the hospitable heap in the corner,
and was awakened while it was still dark. In the flicker of the oil lamp
the old man's face swam vaguely against the night. Without the wagon was
loaded, a drooping horse insecurely harnessed into patched shafts. The
world was a still space of blue gloom, of indefinite forms suspended
in the hush of color, sound; it seemed to be spun out of shadows like
cobwebs, out of vapors, scents. A pale, hectic glow on the horizon
marked the city. They ambled noiselessly, slowly, forward, under the
vague foliage of trees. There was a glint of light in a passing
window, the clatter of milk pails; a rooster crowed, thin and clear and
triumphant; on a grassy slope by the road they saw a smoldering fire,
recumbent forms.

They entered the soiled and ragged outskirts of the city--isolated
ranks of hideous, boxlike dwellings amid raw stretches of clay, rank
undergrowth. The horse's hoofs rang on a bricked pave, and the city
surged about them. Overhead the elevated tracks made a confused, black
tracing rippling with the red and white and green fire of signals. A
gigantic truck, drawn by plunging horses whose armored hoofs were ringed
in pale flame, passed with a shattering uproar of its metallic load. A
train thundered above with a dolorous wail, showering a lurid trail
of sparks into the sky, out of which a thick soot sifted down upon
the streets. On either hand the blank walls of warehouses shut in the
pavements deserted save for a woman's occasional, chalky countenance in
the frosty area of the arc lights, or a drunkard lurching laboriously
over the gutters. The feverish alarm of firebells sounded from a distant
quarter. A heavy odor of stagnant oil, the fetid smoke of flaring
chimneys, settled over Anthony, and gratefully he recalled the pastoral
peace of the house he had left--the house hidden in its tangled verdure
amid the scented space of the countryside.

They stopped finally before a shed open upon the street, where
bluish-orange flames, magnified by tin reflectors, illuminated busy
groups. Silvery fish with exposed carmine entrails were ranged
in rows; the crisp, green spoil of the countryside was spread in the
stalls--the silken stalks of early onions, the creamy pink of carrots,
wine-red beets; rosy potatoes were heaped by cool, crusty cantaloupe,
the vert pods of peas, silvery spinach and waxy, purple eggplant. Over
all hung the delicate aroma of crushed mint, the faint, sweet tang of
scarlet strawberries, the spicy fragrance of simple flowers--of cinnamon
pinks and heliotrope and clover.

Anthony assisted the other to transfer his load to part of a stall
presided over by a woman with bare, powerful elbows, shouting in a
boisterous voice in perfect equality with her masculine neighbors.

High above the dawn flushed the sky; the flares dimmed from a source of
light to mere colored fans, and were extinguished. Early buyers arrived
at the market with baskets and pushcarts.

Anthony remained at the old man's side; it was too early to start
in search of work; and, at his companion's invitation, he shared the
latter's breakfast of cheese and bread, with a stoup of the bitter wine.
As the market became crowded, in the stress of competition, bargaining,
the vendor forgot Anthony's presence; and with a deep breath of
determination, he started in search of employment; he again faced the
West.

He had no difficulty in discovering the section of the city given over
to the automobile industry, a broad, asphalt way with glittering show
windows, serried ranks of cars, by either curb. There was, however,
no work to be obtained here; a single offer would scarcely pay for his
maintenance; in its potentialities California was the merest blur upon
the future. Then for a second and more lucrative position he lacked the
necessary papers. Midday found him without a prospect of employment. He
had almost two dollars in change that had remained intact; and, lunching
sparingly, he continued his inquiries.

It was late when he found himself before a sign that proclaimed the
ability within to secure positions for competent chauffeurs. And,
influenced largely by the chairs which he saw ranged against the wall,
he entered and registered. The fee for registration was a dollar, and
that left him with scant supplies as he took a place between three other
men awaiting skeptically the positions which they had been assured they
might confidently expect. With a casual nod to Anthony, a small man
with watery blue eyes, clad in a worn and greasy livery, continued
a dissertation on methods of making money additional to that of mere
salary, of agreements with tiremen, repairs necessary and otherwise, the
proper manner in which to bring a car's life quickly and gracefully to
a close, in order, he added slyly to the indifferent clerk, to encourage
the trade.

The afternoon wasted slowly but surely to a close; no one entered and
the three rose with weary oaths and left in search of a convenient
saloon. They waved to Anthony to follow them, but he silently declined.

A profound depression settled over him, a sense of impotence, of
failure. His wounded head fretted him with frequent hot pains. He was
enveloped by a sense of desolating loneliness which he endeavored to
dispel with the thought of Eliza; but she remained as far, as faintly
sweet, as the moon of a spring night. It seemed incredible that she
had once been in his arms; surely he had dreamed her voice--such voices
couldn't exist in reality--telling him that she loved him. Her letter
had gone with his wallet, his ticket to California. He had not written
her... she would be unable to penetrate the reason for his silence,
his shame for blundering into such a blind way, his lack of anything
reassuring to tell her. He could not write until his feet were once more
firmly planted upon the only path that led to success, to happiness, to
her.




XXXII

THE clock on the wall above the clerk's head indicated half past five,
and Anthony, relinquishing hope for the day, rose. Now he regretted the
apparently fruitless expenditure of a dollar. “Leave an address?” the
clerk inquired mechanically. “Office open at nine.”

“I'll be back,” Anthony told him. He turned, and collided with a man
entering suddenly from the street. He was past middle age, with a long,
pallid countenance, drooping snuff-colored mustache, a preoccupied gaze
behind bluish glasses, and was clad in correct brown linen, but wore an
incongruously battered and worn soft hat.

“I want a man to drive my car,” he announced abruptly. “I don't
particularly care for a highly expert individual, but his habits--” he
broke off, and muttered, “superficial adjustment to environment--popular
conception of acquired characteristics.” Then, “must be moderate,” he
ended unexpectedly.

Anthony lingered, while the clerk assured the other that several highly
desirable individuals were available. “In fact,” he told him, “one left
the office only a few minutes ago; I will have him call upon you in the
morning.”

“What's this?” he replied, indicating Anthony; “is he a chauffeur?”
 The clerk nodded. “But,” he added, “the man I refer to is older, more
experienced... sure to satisfy you.”

“What references have you?” the prospective employer demanded.

“None,” Anthony answered directly. The clerk dismissed his chances with
a gesture.

“What experience?” the other persisted. “Driving on and off for four or
five years, and I am a fair mechanic.”

“Fair only?”

“That's all, sir.”

The older man drew nearer to Anthony, scrutinizing him with a kindly
severity. “What's the matter with your head?” he demanded.

“I was knocked down and robbed on a country road.”

“Lose much?”

“Everything.”

“Drinking?”

“No, sir.”

“Familiar with prehistoric geological strata?” Anthony admitted that he
was not.

“I had hoped,” the other murmured, “to get a driver who could assist me
with my indices.” He renewed his close inspection, then, “Elemental,” he
pronounced suddenly; “I'll take you.”

“Five dollars, please,” interpolated the clerk. Outside his new employer
took Anthony by the shoulder, glancing over his suit. “You can get your
things, and then go out to my house.”

“I can go sooner than that,” Anthony corrected him. “I have no things.”

“Nothing but those clothes! Why... they will hardly do, will they? You
must get something, take it out of your salary. But, hang it, a man must
have a change of clothes! You must allow me--you are only a boy. I'll
come along; no--impossible.” He took a long wallet from his pocket and
placed it in Anthony's hands. “I don't know what such things cost,”
 he said. “I think there's enough; get what you need. I must be off...
Mousterian deposits. Customs House.” Before Anthony could reply he
had started away in a long, quick stride, but he stopped short. “My
address,” he cried, “clean forgot.” He gave Anthony a street and number.

“Rufus Hardinge,” he called, hurrying away.

Anthony stood gazing in incredulous surprise at the polished, brown
wallet in his hand. He turned to hurry after the other, to protest, but
already he was out of sight. Anthony slipped the wallet in his pocket,
and, his head in a whirl, walked slowly over the street until he found
himself opposite a large retail clothing establishment. After a brief
hesitation he entered, pausing to glance hastily at his resources. In
the leather pocket which contained the paper money he saw a comfortable
number of crisp yellow bills; the rest of the space was taken up by
bulky and wholly unintelligible notes.

He purchased a serviceable suit, stout shoes, a cap, and, after a short
consideration, two flannel shirts. If this were not satisfactory, he
concluded, he could pay with a portion of his salary. The slip of the
total amount, which he carefully folded, registered thirty-one dollars
and seventy cents.

At a small tobacco shop, where he drew upon his own rapidly diminishing
capital, he discovered from the proprietor that it would be necessary
to take a suburban car to the address furnished him. He rolled rapidly
between rows of small, identical, orderly brick dwellings; on each
shallow portico a door exhibited an obviously meretricious graining;
dingy or garish curtains draped the single lower windows; the tin eaves
were continuous, unvaried, monotonous. Occasionally a greengrocer's
display broke the monotony of the vitreous way, a rare saloon or
drugstore held the corners. Farther on the street suffered a decline,
the line of dwellings was broken by patches of bedraggled gardens, set
with the broken fragments of stone ornaments; small frame structures,
streaked by the weather and blistered remnants of paint, alternated with
stables, stores heaped with the sorry miscellanies of meager, disrupted
households. Imperceptibly green spaces opened, foliage fluttered in the
orange light of the declining sun; through an opening in the habited
wall he caught sight of a glimmering stream, cows wandering against a
hill.

He left the car finally at a lane where the houses, set back solidly in
smooth, opulent lawns, were somberly comfortable, reserved. The place
he sought, a four-square ugly dwelling faced with a tower, the woodwork
painted mustard yellow, was surrounded by gigantic tulip poplars. At the
front a cement basin caught the spray from a cornucopia held aloft
by sportive cherubs balanced precariously on the tails of reversed
dolphins, circled by a tan-bark path to the entrance and a broad side
porch. He was about to ring the bell when a high, young voice summoned
him to the latter. There he discovered a girl with a mass of coppery
hair, loosely tied and streaming over her shoulder, in a coffee-colored
wicker chair. She was dressed in white, without ornaments, and wore pale
yellow silk stockings. A yellow paper book, with a title in French,
was spread upon her lap; and, gravely sitting at her side, was a large
terrier with a shaggy yellow coat.

“I suppose,” she said without preliminary, “that you are the person
who took father's money. It was really unexpected of you to appear with
_any_ of it. Give me the wallet,” she demanded, without allowing him
opportunity for a reply.

He gave it to her without comment, a humorous light rising in his clear
gaze. “I warn you,” she continued, “I know every penny that was in it. I
always give him a fixed amount when he goes out.” She emptied the money
into her lap, and counted it industriously: at the end she wrinkled her
brow.

“Here is a note of what I spent,” he informed her, tendering her the
slip from the store. She scanned it closely. “That's not unreasonable,”
 she admitted finally, palpably disappointed that no villainous
discrepancy had been revealed; “and it adds up all right.” Then, with an
assumption of business despatch, “It must come out of your salary, of
course; father is frightfully impractical.”

“Of course,” he assented solemnly.

“Your references--”

“I haven't any.”

She made an impatient gesture of dismay; the terrier rose and surveyed
him with a low growl. “He promised me that he would do the thing
properly, that I positively need not go. What experience have you had?”

He told her briefly.

“Dreadfully unsatisfactory,” she commented, “and you are oceans too
young. But... we will try you for one week; I can't promise any more.
Would you be willing to help a little in the house--opening boxes,
unwrapping bones--?”

“Certainly,” he assured her cheerfully, “any little thing I can do....”

“The car's at the bottom of the garden, it has to be brought around by
the side street. There's a room overhead, and a bell from the house. You
must come up very quickly if, in the night, it rings three times, for
that,” she informed him, “will mean burglars. My father and I are quite
alone here with two women. I can't think of anything else now.” The
terrier moved closer to Anthony, sniffing at his shoes, then raised his
golden eyes and subjected him to a lengthy, thoughtful scrutiny. “That
is Thomas Huxley,” she informed him; “he is a perfectly wonderful
investigator, and detests all sentimentality. You will come up to the
kitchen for meals,” she called, as Anthony turned to descend the lawn;
“the bell will ring for your dinner.”




XXXIII

HE found the automobile in the semi-gloom of a closed carriage house.
On the right, separated by a partition, were three loose stalls,
apparently long unoccupied; their ornamental fringe of straw had
moldered, and dank, grey heaps of feed lay in the troughs. A ladder
fixed vertically against a wall disappeared into cobwebby shadows above;
and mounting, Anthony found the room to which he had been directed. It,
too, was partitioned from the great, bare space of the hay-loft; the
musty smell of old hay and heated wood hung dusty, heavy, about the
corners, where sounded the faint squeaks of scattering mice. The space
which he was to occupy had been rigorously swept and aired; print
curtains hung at the small dormer window that overlooked the lawn,
while, above the washstand, was the bell which, he had been warned,
would appraise him of the possible presence of burglars above. A bright
metal clock ticked noisily on a deal bureau, and, on a table beside a
pitcher and glass, two books had been arranged with precise disarray;
they proved, upon investigation, to be a volume of the Edib. Rev. LXIX,
and a bound collection of the proceedings of the Linean Society.

He saw by the noisy clock that it was nearly seven, and, hastily
washing, responded immediately to the summons of the bell. A small,
covered porch framed the kitchen door, where he entered to find a long
room dimly lit, and a dinner set at the end of a table. A bulky woman
with a flushed countenance and massive ankles in white cotton stockings
set before him half a broiled chicken, an artichoke with a bowl of
yellow sauce, and a silver jug of milk.

“God knows it's a queer meal to put to a hearty young lad,” she
observed; “but it's all was ordered. There's not a pitata in the house,”
 she added in palpable disgust. A younger woman in a frilled apron
appeared from within, carrying a tray of used dishes. She had a trim
figure, and a broad face glowing with rude vitality, which, with an
assumption of disdain, she turned upon Anthony. “I'd never trust myself
with him in the machine,” she observed to the older woman, “and him not
more than a child.”

“Be holding your impudent clatter,” the other commanded, “you're not
required to go out with him at all.”

“Mr. Hardinge says, will you see him in the library when you have
done,” the former shot at Anthony over a shapely shoulder. “You can walk
through the dining room to where he is beyond.”

The library was a somber chamber: its long windows were draped with
stiff folds of green velvet, its walls occupied by high bookcases with
leaded glass doors and ornamental Gothic points under the ceiling.
A massive desk was piled with papers, pamphlets, printed reports,
comparative tables of figures, an hundred and one huddled details; the
table beneath a glittering crystal chandelier was hardly better; even
the floor was stacked with books about the chair where Anthony found his
employer. The latter looked up absently from a printed sheet as Anthony
entered.

“Positively,” he pronounced, “there are not enough dominants to secure
Mendel's position.” His expression was profoundly disturbed.

“Yes, sir,” Anthony replied non-committally. “The consequences of that,”
 the other continued, “are beyond prediction.” Silence descended
upon him; his fixed gaze seemed to be contemplating some unexpected
catastrophe, some grave peril, opened before him in the still chamber.
“I am at a temporary loss!” he ejaculated suddenly; “we are all at a
loss... unless my experiments in pure descent warrant--” Suddenly he
became aware of Anthony's presence. “Oh!” he said pleasantly; “glad you
got fixed up. Say nothing more to Annot--it's all nonsense, taking it
out of your salary. That's what I wanted to see you for,” he added;
“what salary do you require? what did you get at your last place?”

Anthony made a swift calculation of the distance to California, the
probable cost of carriage. “I should like seventy-five,” he pronounced
finally. His conscience suddenly and uncomfortably awoke in the presence
of the other's unquestioning generosity. “Perhaps I'd better tell
you that I don't intend to stay here long.... I am anxious to get to
California.”

But Rufus Hardinge had already forgotten him. “Seventy-five,” he had
murmured, with a satisfied nod, and once more concentrated his attention
upon the sheet in his hand. As Anthony returned through the dining room
he found Annot Hardinge arranging a spray of scarlet verbena in a glass
vase.

“Has father spoken to you about the salary you are to get?” she asked.
He paused, cap in hand. “I told him that you were positively not to get
above eighty.”

“I told him seventy-five. He seemed contented.”

“He would have been contented if you had said seven hundred and fifty.”
 Then, to discountenance any criticism of her father's intelligence, she
added: “He is a very famous biologist, you know. The people about here
don't understand those things, but in London, in Paris, in Berlin, he
is easily one of the greatest men alive. He is carrying the Mendelian
theory to its absolute, logical conclusion.”

“He said something about that to me,” Anthony commented; “it seemed to
upset him.”

A cloud appeared upon her countenance; then, coldly, “That will do,” she
told him.

Once more in the informal garage he lit the gas jet on either wall, and,
in the bubbling, watery light, found the automobile caked with mud and
grease, the tires flat, the wires charred and the cylinders coated with
carbon. A pair of old canvas trousers were hanging from a nail, and,
donning them and connecting a length of hose to a convenient faucet, he
began the task of putting the machine in order. It was past eleven
when he finished for the night, and mounting with cramped and stiffened
muscles to his room, he fell into immediate slumber.




XXXIV

ON the following morning he wrote a brief, reassuring note to his
father; then, over another page, hesitated with poised pen. “Dear
Eliza,” he finally began, then once more fell into indecision. “I wish
I were back on the Wingo-hocking with you,” he'  embarked. “That was
splendid, having you in the canoe, with no one else; the whole world
seemed empty except for you and me. It's no joke of an emptiness without
you.

I have been delayed in reaching California, but I'll soon be out there
now, working like thunder for our wedding.

“Mostly I can't realize it, it's too good to be true--you seem like
a thing I dreamed about, in a dream all full of moonlight and white
flowers. It's funny but I smell lilacs, you know like you picked,
everywhere. Last night, cleaning a car just soaked in dirt and greasy
smells, that perfume came out of nothing, and hung about so real that it
hurt me. And all the time I kept thinking that you were standing beside
me and smiling. I knew better, but I had to look more than once.

“Love's different from what I thought it would be; I thought it would be
all happy, but it's not that, it's blamed serious. I am always flinching
from blows that might fall on you, do you see? Before I went away I
saw a man kiss a woman, and they both seemed scared; I understand that
now--they loved each other.”

He broke off and gazed out the narrow window over the feathery tops of
maples, the symmetrical, bronze tops of a clump of pines. The odor of
lilacs came to him illusively; he was certain that Eliza was standing at
his shoulder; he could hear a silken whisper, feel an intangible thrill
of warmth. He turned sharply, and faced the empty room, the bright,
stentorious clock, the table with the pitcher and glass and serious
volumes. “Hell!” he exclaimed in angry remonstrance at his credulity.
Still shaken by the reality of the impression he wondered if he were
growing crazy? The bell above the washstand rang sharply, and, putting
the incomplete letter in a drawer, he proceeded over the tanbark path
that led to the house.

Annot Hardinge beckoned to him from the porch, and, turning, he passed a
conservatory built against the side of the dwelling, where he saw small,
identical plants ranged in mathematical rows.

“What is your name?” she demanded abruptly, as he stopped before her.
“Anthony,” he told her.

She was dressed in apricot muslin, with a long necklace of alternate
carved gold and amber beads, dependent amber earrings, and a flapping
white hat with broad, yellow ribbands that streamed downward with her
hair. In one hand she held a pair of crumpled white gloves and a soft
gold mesh bag.

“You may bring around the car... Anthony,” she directed. “I want to go
into town.”

In the heart of the shopping district they moved slowly in an unbroken
procession of motor landaulets, open cars and private hansoms, a
glittering, colorful procession winding through the glittering, colorful
cavern of the shop windows. The sidewalks were thronged with women,
brilliant in lace and dyed feathers and jewels, the thin, sustained
babble of trivial voices mingled with the heavy, coiling odors of costly
perfumes.

When a small heap of bundles had been accumulated a rebellious
expression clouded An-not Hardinge's countenance. “Stop at that
confectioner's,” she directed, indicating a window filled with candies
scattered in a creamy tide, bister, pale mauve, and citrine, over
fluted, delicately green satin, against a golden mass of molasses bars.
She soon emerged, with a package tied in silver cord, and paused upon
the curb. “I want to go out... out, into the heart of the country,” she
proclaimed; “this crowd, these tinsel women, make me ill. Drive until I
tell you to stop... away from everything.”

When they had left the tangle of paved streets, the innumerable stone
façades, she directed their course into a ravine whose steep sides were
covered with pines, at the bottom of which a stream foamed whitely over
rocky ledges. Beyond, they rose to an upland, where open, undulating
hills burned in the blue flame of noon; at their back a trail of dust
resettled upon the road, before them a glistening flock of peafowl
scattered with harsh, threatening cries. By a gnarled apple tree, whose
ripening June apples overhung the road, she called, “stop!”

The motor halted in the spicy, dappled shadow of the tree; at one side a
cornfield spread its silken, green tapestry; on the other a pasture was
empty, close-cropped, rising to a coronal of towering chestnuts. The
road, in either direction, was deserted.

Anthony heard a sigh of contentment at his back: relaxed from the
tension of driving he removed his cap, and, with crossed legs,
contemplated the sylvan quiet. He watched a flock of blackbirds wheeling
above the apple tree, and decided that they had been within easy shot.

“Look over your head!” she cried suddenly; “what gorgeous apples.”

He rose, and, measuring the distance in a swift glance, jumped, and
caught hold of a limb, by means of which he drew himself up into the
tree. He mounted rapidly, filling his cap with crimson apples; when his
pockets were full he paused. Down through the screen of leaves he
could see her upturned countenance, framed in the broad, white hat;
her expression was severely impersonal; yet, viewed from that informal
angle, she did not appear displeased. And, when he had descended, she
picked critically among the store he offered. She rolled back the gloves
upon her wrists, and bit largely, with youthful gusto. On the road,
after a moment's hesitation, Anthony embarked upon the consumption of
the remainder. He strolled a short distance from the car, and found a
seat upon a low stone-wall.




XXXV

SOON, he saw, she too left the car, and passed him, apparently ignorant
of his presence. But, upon her return, she stopped, and indicated
with her foot some feathery plants growing in a ditch by the road.
“Horsetails,” she declared; “they are Paleozoic... millions of years
old.”

“They look fresh and green still,” he observed. She glanced at him
coldly, but his expression was entirely serious. “I mean the species
of course. Father has fossils of the Devonian period... they were trees
then.” She chose a place upon the wall, ten feet or more from him, and
sat with insolent self-possession, whistling an inconsequential tune.
There was absolutely no pose about her, he decided; she possessed a
masculine carelessness in regard to him. She leaned back, propped upon
her arms, and the frank, flowing line of her full young body was like
the June day in its uncorseted freedom and beauty.

“If you will get that package from the confectioner's--” she suggested
finally. She unfolded the paper, and exposed a row of small cakes, which
she divided rigorously in two; rewrapping one division she held it out
toward him.

“No, no,” he protested seriously. “I'm not hungry.”

“It's past two,” she informed him, “and we can't possibly be back in
time for luncheon. I'd rather not hold this out any longer.” He relieved
her without further words. “Two brioche and two babas,” she enumerated.
He resumed his place, and then consumed the cakes without further
speech.

“The study of biology,” she informed him later, with a gravity
appropriate to the subject, “makes a great many small distinctions seem
absurd. When you get accustomed to thinking in races, and in millions
of years, the things your friends fuss about seem absurd. And so, if you
like, why, smoke.”

It was his constant plight that, between the formal restrictions of his
position, and the vigorous novelty of her speech, Anthony was constantly
at a loss. “Perhaps,” he replied inanely; “I know nothing about those
things.”

She flashed over him a candid, amber gaze that singularly resembled her
father's. “You are not at all acquisitive,” she informed him; “and it's
perfectly evident that you are the poorest sort of chauffeur. You drive
very nicely,” she continued with severe justice. “One could trust you
in a crisis; but it is little things that make a chauffeur, and in the
little things,” she paused to indicate a globe of cigarette smoke that
instantly dissolved, “you are like--that.”

He moodily acknowledged to himself the truth of her observation, but
such acumen he considered entirely unnecessary in one so young; he did
not think it becoming. He contrasted her, greatly to her detriment, with
the elusive charm of Eliza Dreen; the girl before him was too vivid, too
secure; he felt instinctively that she was entirely free from the bonds,
the conventions, that held the majority of girls within recognized,
convenient limits. Her liberty of mind upset a balance to which both
heredity and experience had accustomed him. The entire absence of a
tacitly recognized masculine superiority subconsciously made him uneasy,
and he took refuge in imponderable silence.

“Besides,” she continued airily, “you are too physically normal to
think, all normal people are stupid.... You are like one of those wood
creatures in the classic pastorals.”

A faint grin overspread Anthony's countenance; among so many
unintelligible words he had regained his poise--this was the usual, the
familiar feminine chatter, endless, inconsequential, by means of which
all girls presented the hopeless tangle of their thoughts and emotions;
its tone had deceived him only at the beginning.

In the stillness which followed other blackbirds, equally within shot,
winged over the apple tree; the shadow of the boughs crept farther
and farther down the road. She rose vigorously. “I must get back,” she
announced. She remained silent during the return, but Anthony, with the
sense of direction cultivated during countless days in the fields and
swales, found the way without hesitation.

When she left the car he slowly backed and circled to the carriage
house. As he splashed body and wheels with water, polished the metal,
dried and dusted the cushions, the crisp, cool voice of Annot Hardinge
rang in his ears. He divined something of her isolated existence, her
devotion to the absorbed, kindly man who was her father, and speculated
upon her matured youth. She recalled his sister Ellie, for whose
inflexible integrity he cherished a deep-seated admiration; but both
left him cold before the poignant tenderness of Eliza... Eliza, the
unforgettable, who loved him.




XXXVI

AFTER an unsubstantial dinner of grilled sweetbreads and mushrooms, and
a frozen pudding, he continued his interrupted letter: “But there isn't
any use in my trying to write my love in words; it won't go into words,
even inside of me I can't explain it--it seems as if instead of its
being a part of me that I am a part of it, of something too big for me
to see the end of.” Then he became practicable, and wrote optimistically
of the things that were soon to be.

There was a letter box at the upper corner of the street, and, passing
the porch, he saw the biologist sunk in an attitude of profound
dejection. His daughter sat with bare arms and neck at his side; her
hair was bound in a gleaming mass about her ears, and one hand was laid
upon the man's shoulder, while she patted Thomas Huxley with the other.
The dog rose, growling belligerently at the unfamiliar figure, but sank
again beneath a sharp command. When he returned Rufus Hardinge greeted
him, and turned to his daughter with a murmured suggestion, but she
shook her head in decisive negation. A light shone palely in the long
windows at their back. The sun, at its skyey, evening toilette, seemed,
in the rosy glow of westering candles, to scatter a cloud of powdered
gold over the worn and huddled shoulders of the world.

Suddenly, seemingly in reconsideration of her decision, she called, “Oh,
Anthony!” and he retraced his steps to the porch. “My father suggests
that you sit here,” she told him distantly. “He says that you are very
young, and that solitude is not good for you.”

“Annot,” the older man protested humorously, “you have mangled my intent
beyond any recognition.” With an unstudied, friendly gesture he tended
Anthony his cigar case. A deep preoccupation enveloped him; he sat with
loose hands and unseeing eyes. In the deepening twilight his countenance
was grey. Anthony had taken a position upon the edge of the porch, his
feet in the fragrant grass, out of which fireflies rose glimmering,
mounting higher and higher, until, finally, they disappeared into the
night above, in the pale birth of the stars.

A deep silence enfolded them until in an unexpected, low voice, Rufus
Hardinge repeated mechanically aloud lines called, evidently, out of a
memory of long ago:

               ''Within thy beams, Oh, Sun! or who could find,

               While fly, and leaf, and insect stood revealed,

               That too,” he paused, groping in his memory for

                        the words:

               “That too such countless orbs thou madst us

                        blind.”

The girl rose, and drew his head into her warm, young arms. “Don't,
father,” she cried, in a sudden, throbbing apprehension; “please...
please. You have the clearest, most beautiful eyes in the world. Think
of all they have seen and understood--” He patted her absently. Anthony
moved silently away.




XXXVII

NOT long after, at breakfast, the young and disdainful maid conveyed to
Anthony a request to proceed, when he had finished, to the conservatory.
There he discovered Annot Har-dinge, with her sleeves rolled up above
her vigorous elbows, dusting with a fine, brown powder the rows of
monotonous, potted plants. She directed him to follow her with a
slender-nosed watering pot. He wondered silently at the featureless
display of what he found to be ordinary bean plants, some of the dwarf
variety, others drawn up against the wall. They bore in exact, minute
inscriptions, strange names and titles, cryptic numbers; some, he saw,
were labelled “Dominants,” others, “Recessives.”

“The 'cupids' are doing wretchedly, poor dears!” she exclaimed before a
row of dwarf sweet peas. “This is my father's laboratory,” she told him
briefly.

“I thought he had something to do with Darwin and the missing link.”

She gazed at him pityingly from the heights of a vast superiority.
“Darwin did some valuable preliminary work,” she instructed him;
“although Wallace really guessed it all first. Now Mendel, Bateson, are
the important names. They were busy with the beginnings; and, among the
beginnings, plants are the most suggestive.” She indicated a small row
of budding sweet peas. “Perhaps, in those flowers, the whole secret of
the universe will be found; perhaps the mystery of our souls will be
explained; isn't it thrilling! The secret of inheritance may sleep in
those buds--if they are white it will prove... oh, a thousand things,
and among them that father is the most wonderful scientist alive; it
will explain heredity and control it, make a new kind of world possible,
a world without the most terrible diseases. What church, what saint,
what god, has really done that?” she demanded. “Stupid priggish figures
bending out of their gold-plated heavens!”

Her enthusiasm communicated a thrill to him as he regarded the still,
withdrawn mystery of the plants. For the first time he thought of them
as alive, as he was alive; he imagined them returning his gaze, his
interest, exchanging--critically, in their imperceptible, chaste
tongue--their unimpassioned opinions of him. It was a disturbing
possibility that the secret of his future, of life and death, might lurk
in the flowers to unfold on those slender stems. He was oppressed by
a feeling of a world crowded with invisible, living forms, of fields
filled with billions of grassy inhabitants, of seas, mountains, made up
of interlocking and contending lives; every breath, he felt, absorbed
races of varied individuals. He thought, too, of people as plants, as
roses--Oh, Eliza!--as nettles, rank weeds, crimson lilies. And, vaguely,
this hurt him; something valuable, something sustaining, vanished from
his unformulated, instinctive conception of life; the world of men,
their aims, their courage, ideals, lost their peculiar beauty, their
importance; the past, rising from the mold through those green tubes
and vanishing into a future of dissolving gases, shrunk, stripped of its
glamor, to an affair of little moment.

Outside, as he descended the lawn, the sun had the artificial glitter of
an incandescent light; the trees waved their arms at him threateningly.
Then, with a shrug of his normal young shoulders, he relinquished the
entire conception; he forgot it. He recklessly permeated a universe of
airy atoms with the smoke of a Dulcina. “That's a woolly delusion,” he
pronounced.

That evening he burnished the car, and mounted the ladder to his room
late. But the evening following, detained to perform a trivial task,
found him seated upon the porch, enveloped in the fragrant clouds of
Habana leaf.




XXXVIII

ANNOT, as now he mentally termed her, dressed in the inevitable yellow,
was swinging a satin slipper on the point of her foot; her father was,
if possible, more greyly withdrawn than before.

“To-night,” the biologist finally addressed his daughter, “your mother
has been dead eighteen years.... She hated science; she said it had
destroyed my heart. Impossible--a purely functionary pump. The illusions
of emotions are cerebro-spinal reflexes, only that. She said that I
cared more for science than--than herself.” He raised his head sharply,
“I was forced to tell her the truth, in common honor: science first....
Tears are an automatic escapement to protect the vision. But women
have no logic, little understanding; hopelessly romantic, a false
quantity--romance, dangerous. I was away when she died ... Borneo,
Aurignacian strata had been discovered, a distinct parallel with the
Maurer jaw. Death is only a change of chemical activity,” he shot at
Anthony in a voice not entirely steady, “the human entity a passing
agglomeration, kinetic.... Love is a mechanical principle, categorically
imperative,” his voice sank, became diffuse. “Absolute science,
selfless.

“People found her beautiful, I didn't know,” he added wistfully; “beauty
is a vague term. The Chapelle skull is beautiful, as I understand it, as
I understand it. In a letter to me,” after a long pause, “she employed
the term 'frozen to death'; she said that I had frozen her to death.
Only a figure, romantic, inexact.”

“Stuff!” Annot exclaimed lightly, but her anxious countenance
contradicted the spirit of her tones. “You mustn't stir about in old
troubles. Everything great demands sacrifice; mother didn't quite
understand; and I expect she got lonely, poor dear.”

Anthony rose, and made his way somberly toward the stable, but running
feet, his name called in low, urgent tones, arrested his progress.
An-not approached with the trouble deepening in her gaze. “Does he seem
entirely himself to you?” she asked, but, before he could answer,--“of
course, you don't know him well enough. You see, he is working too much
again, an average of sixteen hours for the ten days past. I haven't said
anything because the most difficult part of his work is at an end.
If his last conclusions are right he will have only to scribble the
reports, put a book together.... I can always tell when he is overworked
by the cobwebs--he tries to brush them off his face,” she explained.
“They don't exist, of course.

“But I really wanted to say this,” she lifted her candid gaze to his
face. “Could you be a little more about the house? we might need you;
we'll use the car very little for a while.” The apprehension was clearly
visible now. “Would you mind helping him with his clothes; he gets them
mixed? It isn't regular, I know,” she told him; “but we have a great
deal of money; anything you required--”

“Perhaps I'd be better at that,” he suggested. “You know, you said I was
a rotten chauffeur.”

For a moment, appealing, she had seemed nearer to him, but now she
retreated spiritually, slipped behind her cold indifference. “There will
be nothing more to-night; if he grows worse you will have to move into
the house.” She left him abruptly, gathering her filmy skirt from the
grass, an elusive shape with gleams on her hair, her arms and neck white
for an instant and then veiled in the scarf of night.

In his room he could still hear, mingled with the faint, muffled
squeaking of the mice in the empty hayloft, Hardinge's voice, jerky,
laborious, “a categorical imperative... categorical imperative.” He
wondered what that meant applied to love? An errant air brought him the
unmistakable odor of white lilacs, an ineffable impression of Eliza.




XXXIX

THE day following found him installed in the house, in a small chamber
formed where the tower fronted upon the third story. At luncheon a
place was laid for him at the table with Annot and her father, where the
attentions of the disdainful and shapely maid positively quivered with
suppressed scorn. Anthony had found in his room fifty dollars in an
envelope, upon which Annot had scribbled that he might need a few
things; and, at liberty in the afternoon, he boarded an electric car
for the city, where he invested in fresh and shining pumps, and other
necessities.

The house was dark when he inserted his newly acquired latchkey in the
front door and made his way softly aloft. But a thread of light was
shining under the door of Rufus Har-dinge's study. Later--he had just
turned out the light--a short knock fell upon his door.

“Me,” Annot answered his instant query. “I am going to ask you to dress
and come to my father. It may be unnecessary; he may go quietly to bed;
but go he must.”

He found her in a dressing gown that fell in heavy, straight folds of
saffron satin, her feet thrust in quaint Turkish slippers with curled
points; while over her shoulders slipped and slid the coppery rope
of her hair. She led the way to the study, which she entered without
knocking. Anthony saw the biologist bent over pages spread in the
concentrated light of a green shaded globe. In a glass case against
the wall some moldy bones were mounted and labelled; fragmentary and
sinister-appearing casts gleamed whitely from a stand; and, everywhere,
was the orderly confusion of books and papers that had distinguished the
library.

“Come, Rufus,” Annot laid her hand upon his shoulder; “it's bedtime for
all scientists. You promised me you would be in by eleven.”

He gazed at her with the hasty regard directed at an ill-timed, casual
stranger. “Yes, yes,” he ejaculated impatiently, “get to bed. I'll
follow... some crania tracings, prognathic angles--”

“To-morrow will do for those,” she insisted gently, “you are making
yourself ill again--”

“Nonsense,” he interrupted, “never felt better in my life, never--” his
voice dwindled abruptly to silence, as though a door had been closed
on him; his lips twisted impotently; beads of sweat stood out upon his
white, strained forehead. His whole body was rigid in an endeavor to
regain his utterance. He rose, and would have fallen, if Annot's arm
had not slipped about his shoulders. Anthony hurried forward, and,
supporting him on either side, they assisted him into the sleeping
chamber beyond. There, at full length on a couch, a sudden, marble-like
immobility fell upon his features, his mouth slightly open, his hands
clenched. Annot busied herself swiftly, while Anthony descended into
the dark, still house in search of ice. When he returned, Hardinge was
pronouncing disconnected words, terms. “Eoliths,” he said, “snow line...
one hundred and thirty millimeters.” He was silent for a moment, then,
struggling into a sitting posture, “Annot!” he cried sharply, “I've
frightened you again. Only a touch of... aphasia; unfortunately not new,
my dear, but not serious.”

Later, when Anthony had assisted him in the removal of his clothes, and
lowered the light, he found Annot in the study assembling the papers
scattered on the table. “I am glad that you are here,” she said simply.
“Soon he can have a complete rest.” She sank into a chair; he had had no
idea that she could appear so lovely: her widely-opened eyes held flecks
of gold; beneath the statuesque fall of the dressing gown her bare
ankles were milky-white.




XL

HE felt strangely at ease in a setting so easily strange. There was
a palpable flavor of unreality in the moment, of detachment from the
commonplace round of existence; it was without connection, without
responsibility to yesterday or to to-morrow; he was isolated with the
informal vision of Annot in an hour which seemed neither day nor night.
He felt--inarticulately--divorced from his customary daily personality;
and, with no particular need for speech, lit a cigarette, and blew
clouds of smoke at the ceiling. It was his companion who interrupted
this mood.

“The life that people think so tremendously important,” she observed,
“the things one does, are hardly more real than a suit of clothes, with
religion for a nice, prim white collar, gloves for morals, and a hidden
red silk handkerchief for a rare revolt. And all the time, politely
ignored, decently covered, our bodies are underneath. Now and then some
one slips out of his covering, and stands bare before his shocked
and protesting friends, but they soon hurry something about him, a
conventional shawl, a moral sheet. Do you happen to remember a wonderful
caricature of Louis XIV--simply a wig, a silk suit, buckled shoes and a
staff?”

The mordant humor of that drawing penetrated Anthony's understanding:
he saw rooms, streets, a world full of gesticulating suits, dresses,
nodding hats, bonnets; he saw the unsubstantial concourse haughtily
erect, condescending, cunningly deceptive, veiling in a thousand
subterfuges their essential emptiness. The thought evaporated
in laughter at the obvious humor of such a spectacle; its social
significance missed him totally, happily.

“What an unthinking person you are,” she told him; “you just--live. It's
rather remarkable--one of Bacchus' company caught in the modern streets.
It is all so different now,” she added plaintively; “men get drunk in
saloons or at dinner, and the purple stain of the grape centers in
their noses. I tried myself,” she confessed, “in Geneva. I was with a
specialist who had father. The café balcony overhung the lake; it was at
night, and the villages looked like clusters of fireflies about a black
mirror; and you simply never saw so many stars. We were looking for
a lyric sensation, but it was the most awful fizzle; he insisted on
describing an operation with all the grey and gory details complete, and
I fell fast asleep.”

The outcome of her experiment tallied exactly with that of his own
more involuntary efforts in that field. It established in his mind
a singularly direct sympathy with her; the uneasy element which her
attitude had called up in him disappeared entirely, its place taken by a
comfortable sense of freedom, a total lack of _rot_.

She rose, vanishing into her father's room, then, coming to the door,
nodded shortly, and left for the night.

He found on the bureau in his tower room what remained of the fifty
dollars--it had been reduced to less than eight. Suddenly he remembered
his purpose there, his supreme need of money, the imperative westward
call.... He bitterly cursed his lax character as he recalled the cigars
he had purchased, the silk shirt too, and an unnecessary tie. A deep
gloom settled upon his spirit. He heard in retrospect his father's
clear, high voice--“shiftless, no sense of responsibility.” He sat
miserably on the edge of the bed in the dark, while the petty, unbroken
procession of past failures wheeled through his brain. Then the shining
vision of Eliza, compassionate, tender, folded him in peace; one by one
he would subdue those rebellious elements in himself, of fate, that held
them apart.




XLI

AT a solitary breakfast the incident of the preceding night seemed
fantastic, unreal; he retained the broken, vivid memory of the scene,
the thrill of vague words, that lingers disturbingly into the waking
world from a dream. And, when he saw Annot later, there was no trace of
a consequent informality in her manner; she was distant, hedged about by
an evident concern for her father. “I have sent for Professor Jamison.”
 She addressed Anthony with blank eyes. “Please be within call in case--”

He saw the neurologist as the latter circled the plaster cupids to the
entrance of the house--a heavy man with a broad, smooth face, thinlipped
like a priest, with staring yellow gloves. Anthony remained in the lower
hall, but no demand for his assistance sounded from above. When the
specialist descended, he flashed a glance, as bitingly swift and cold as
glacial water, over Anthony, then nodded in the direction of the garden.

“Miss Annot tells me that you are sleeping in the house,” he said
when they were outside; “on the chance that she might need you for
her father... she will. He is at the point of mental dissolution.” An
involuntary repulsion possessed Anthony at the detached manner in which
the other pronounced these hopeless words. “Nothing may be done; that
is--it is not desirable that anything should. I am telling you this so
that you can act intelligently. Rufus Hardinge knows it; there was a
consultation at Geneva, which he approved.

“He is,” he continued with a warmer, more personal note, “a very
distinguished biologist; his investigations, his conclusions, have been
invaluable.” He glanced at an incongruous, minute, jewelled watch on his
wrist, and continued more quickly. “Ten years ago he should have stopped
all work, vegetated--he was burning up rapidly; merely a reduced amount
of labor would have accomplished little for his health or subject. And
we couldn't spare his labor, no mere prolongation of life would have
justified that loss of knowledge, progress. It was his position; he
insisted upon it and we concurred... he chose... insanity.

“Miss Annot is not aware of this; he must have every moment possible;
every note is priceless. The end will come--now, at any time.” He had
reached the small, canary yellow Dreux landaulet waiting for him, and
stepped into it with a sharp nod. “You may expect violence,” he added,
as the car gathered momentum.

But that evening in the dim quietude of the piazza the biologist seemed
to have recovered completely his mental poise. He spoke in a buoyant
vein of the great men he had known, celebrated names in the world of
the arts, in politics and science. He recalled Braisted, the astronomer,
searching relaxation in the Boulevard school of French fictionists. “I
told him,” he chuckled at the mild, scholastic humor, “that he had been
peeping too long at Venus.”

Annot was steeped in an inscrutable silence.

For the first time, Anthony was actually aware of her features: she had
a broad, low brow swept by the coppery hair loosely tied at the back;
her eyes resembled her father's, they were amber-colored, and singularly
candid in their interest in all that passed before them; while her nose
tilted up slightly above a mouth frankly large. It was the face of a
boy, he decided, but felt instantly that he had fallen far short of
the fact--the allurement, the perfection, of her youthful maturity hung
overwhelmingly about her the challenge of sex.

Rather, she was all girl, he recognized, but of a new variety. A vision
of _the nice_ girls he had known dominated his vision, flooded his mind,
all smiling with veiled eyes, clothed in a thousand reserves, fluttering
graces, innocent wiles, with their gaze firmly set toward the shining,
desirable goal of matrimony. Eliza was not like that, it was true; but
she, from the withdrawn, impersonal height of her cool perfection, was
a law to herself. There was a new freedom in Annot's acceptance of life,
he realized vaguely, as different as possible from mere license; no one,
he was certain, would presume with Annot Hardinge: her very frankness
offered infinitely less incentive to unlawful thoughts than the
conscious modesty of the others.

When the biologist left the piazza Annot turned with a glad gesture to
her companion. “He hasn't seemed so well--not for years; his little,
gay fun again... it's too good to be true. I should like to
celebrate--something entirely irresponsible. I have worried, oh,
dreadfully.” The night was still, moonless; the stars burned like opals
in the intense purple deeps of the sky. The air, freighted with the rich
fruitage of full summer, hung close and heavy. “It's hot as a blotter,”
 Annot declared. “I think, yes--I'm sure, I should like to go out in the
car.” She rose. “Will you bring it around, please?”

He drove slowly over the deserted lane by the lawn, and found her,
enveloped in the lustrous folds of a black satin wrap, at the front
gate. Over her hair she had tied a veil drawn about her brow in a webby
filament of flowers “I think I'll sit in front,” she decided; “perhaps
I'll drive.” He waited, at the steering wheel, for directions.

“Go west, young man,” she told him, and would say nothing more. A
distant bell thinly struck eleven jarring notes as they moved into the
flickering gloom of empty streets with the orange blur of lamps floating
unsteadily on dim boughs above, and the more brilliant, crackling
radiance of the arc lights at the crossings.

The headlights of the automobile cut like white knives through the
obscurity of hedged ways; at sudden turnings they plunged into gardens,
flinging sharply on the shadowy night vivid glimpses of incredible
greenery, unearthly flowers, wafers of white wall. They drove for a
long, silent period, with increasing momentum as the way became more
open and direct; now they seemed scarcely to touch the uncertain surface
below, but to be wheeling through sheer space, flashing their stabbing
incandescence into the empty envelopment beyond the worlds.

They passed with a muffled din through the single street of a sleeping
village, leaving behind a confusion of echoes and the startled barking
of a dog. Anthony could see Annot's profile, pale and clear, against
the flying and formless countryside; the lace about her hair fluttered
ceaselessly; and her wrap bellowed and clung about her shoulders, about
her gloveless hands folded upon her slim knees. She was splendidly,
regally scornful upon the wings of their reckless flight; the throttle
was wide open; they swung from side to side, hung on a single wheel,
lunged bodily into the air. In the mad ecstasy of speed she rose; but
Anthony, clutching her arms, pulled her sharply into the seat. Then,
decisively, he shut off the power, the world ceased to race behind them,
the smooth clamor of the engine sank to a low vibratone.

“You did that wonderfully,” she told him with glowing cheeks, shining
eyes; “it was marvellous. A moment like that is worth a life-time
on foot... laughing at death, at everything that is safe, admirable,
moral... a moment of the freedom of soulless things, savage and
unaccountable to God or society.”

The illuminated face of the clock before him indicated a few minutes
past one, and, tentatively, he repeated the time. “How stupid of you,”
 she protested; “silly, little footrule of the hours, the conventional
measure of the commonplace. For punishment--on and on. Like Columbus'
men you are afraid of falling over the edge of--propriety.” She turned
to him with solemn eyes. “I assure you there is no edge, no bump or
brimstone, no place where good stops and tumbles into bad; it's all
continuous--”

He lost the thread of her mocking discourse, and glanced swiftly at her,
his brow wrinkled, the shadow of a smile upon his lips. “Heavens! but
you are good-looking,” she acknowledged, her countenance studiously
critical, impersonal. After that silence once more fell upon them;
the machine sang through the dark, lifting over ridges, dropping down
declines.

Anthony had long since lost all sense of their position. The cyanite
depths of the sky turned grey, cold; there was a feeling in the air of
settling dew; a dank mist filled the hollows; the color seemed suddenly
to have faded from the world. He felt unaccountably weary, inexpressibly
depressed; he could almost taste the vapidity of further existence.
Annoys hard, bright words echoed in his brain; the flame of his
unthinking idealism sank in the thin atmosphere of their logic.




XLII

SHE had settled low in the seat, her mouth and chin hidden in the folds
of the satin wrap; her face seemed as chill as marble, her youth cruel,
disdainful. But her undeniable courage commanded his admiration, the
unwavering gaze of her eyes into the dark. He wondered if, back of her
crisp defenses, she were happy. He knew from observation that she led an
almost isolated existence... she had gathered about her no circle of her
own age, she indulged in none of the rapturous confidences, friendships,
so sustaining to other girls. The peculiar necessities of her father
had accomplished this. Yet he was aware that she cherished a general
contempt for youth at large, for a majority of the grown, for that
matter. Contempt colored her attitude to a large extent: that and
happiness did not seem an orderly pair.

He felt, rather than saw, the influence of the dawn behind him; it was
as though the grey air grew more transparent. Annot twisted about. “Oh!
turn, turn!” she cried; “the day! we are driving away from it.” A sudden
intoxicating freshness streamed like a sparkling birdsong over the
world, and Anthony's dejection vanished with the gloom now at their
backs. Delicate lavender shadows grew visible upon the grass, the color
shifted tremulously, like the shot hues of changeable silks, until the
sun poured its ore into the verdant crucible of the countryside.

“I am most frightfully hungry,” Annot admitted with that entire
frankness which he found so refreshing. “I wonder--” On either hand
fields, far farmhouses, reached unbroken to the horizon; before them the
road rose between banks of soft, brown loam, apparently into the sky.
But, beyond the rise, they came upon a roadside store, its silvery
boards plastered with the garish advertisements of tobaccos, and a
rickety porch, now undergoing a vigorous sweeping at the hands of an
old man with insecure legs, upon whose faded personage was stamped
unmistakably the initials “G. A. R.”

Anthony brought the car to a halt, and returned his brisk and curious
salutation. “Shall I bring out some crackers?” he asked from the road.
But she elected to follow him into the store. The interior presented the
usual confusion of gleaming tin and blue overalls, monumental cheeses
and cards of buttons, a miscellany of ludicrously varied merchandise.
Annot found a seat upon a splintered church pew, now utilized as a
secular resting place, while Anthony foraged through the shelves. He
returned with the crackers, and a gold lump of dates, upon which they
breakfasted hugely. “D'y like some milk?” the aged attendant inquired,
and forthwith dipped it out of a deep, cool and ringing can.

Afterward they sat upon the step and smoked matutinal cigarettes. The
day gathered in a shimmering haze above the vivid com, the emerald of
the shorn fields; the birds had already subsided from the heat among
the leaves. Anthony saw that the lamps of the car were still alight, a
feeble yellow flicker, and turned them out. He tested the engine; and,
finding it still running, turned with an unspoken query to Annot. She
rose slowly.

The wrap slipped from her bare shoulders and her dinner gown with its
high sulphur girdle, the scrap of black lace about her hair, presented
a strange, brilliantly artificial picture against the blistered, gaunt
boards of the store, with, at its back, the open sunny space of pasture,
wood and sky.

“It's barely twenty miles back,” she told him, once more settled at his
side. The old man regarded them from under one gnarled palm, the
other tightly clasped about the broom handle; his jaw was dropped;
incredulity, senile surprise, claimed him for their own.

With Annot, Anthony reflected, he was everlastingly getting into new
situations; she seemed to lift him out of the ordinary course of events
into a perverse world of her own, a front-backward land where the
unexpected, without rule or obligation, continually happened; and, what
was strangest of all, without any of the dark consequences which he
had been taught must inevitably follow such departures. He recalled the
incredulous smiles, the knowing insinuations, that would have greeted
the exact recounting of the past night at Doctor Allhop's drugstore.
He would himself, in the past, have regarded such a tale as a flimsy
fabrication. And suddenly he perceived dimly, in a mind unused to such
abstractions, the veil of ugliness, of degradation, that hung so
blackly about the thoughts of men. He gazed with a new sympathy
and comprehension at the scornful line of Annot's vivid young lips;
something of her superiority, her contempt, was communicated to him.

She became aware of his searching gaze, and smiled in an intimate,
friendly fashion at him. “You are the most comfortable person alive,”
 she told him. There was nothing critical in her tones now. “I said that
you were not a good chauffeur, and--” the surroundings grew familiar,
they had nearly reached their destination, and an impalpable reserve
fell upon her, but she continued to smile at him, “and... you are not.”
 That was the last word she addressed to him that day.

As, later, he sluiced the automobile with water, he recalled the strange
intimacy of the night, her warm and sympathetic voice; once she had
steadied herself with a clinging hand upon his shoulder. These new
attributes of the person who, shortly, passed him silently and with cold
eyes, stirred his imagination; they were potent, rare, unsettling.




XLIII

Notwithstanding, in the days which followed there was a perceptible
change in Annot's attitude toward him: she became, as it were, conscious
of his actuality. One afternoon she read aloud to him a richly-toned,
gloomy tale of Africa. They were sitting by a long window, open, but
screened from the summer heat by stiff, darkly-drooping green folds,
where they could hear the drip of the fountain in its basin, a cool
punctuation on the sultry page of the afternoon. Annot proceeded rapidly
in an even, low voice; she was dressed in filmy lavender, with little
buttons of golden velvet, an intricately carved gold buckle at her
waist.

Anthony listened as closely as possible, the faint smile which seldom
left him hovering over his lips. The bald action of the narrative--a
running fight with ambushed savages from a little tin pot of a steamer,
a mysterious affair in the darkness with a grim skeleton of a fellow,
stakes which bore a gory fruitage of human heads, held him; but the
rest... words, words. His attention wavered, fell upon minute, material
objects; Annot's voice grew remote, returned, was lost among his
juggling thoughts.

“Isn't it splendid!” she exclaimed, at last closing the volume; “the
most beautiful story of our time--” She stopped abruptly, and cast a
penetrating glance at him. “I don't believe you even listened,” she
declared. “In your heart you prefer, 'Tortured by the Tartars.'”

His smile broadened, including his eyes.

“You are impossible! No,” she veered suddenly, “you're not; if you cared
for this you wouldn't be... you. That's the most important thing in
the world. Besides, I wouldn't like you; everybody reads now, it's
frightfully common; while you are truly indifferent. Have you noticed,
my child, that books always increase where life runs thin? and you are
alive, not a papier-mâché man painted in the latest shades.”

Anthony dwelt on this unexpected angle upon his mental delinquencies.
The approval of Annot Hardinge, so critical, so outspoken, was not
without an answering glow in his being; no one but she might discover
his ignorance to be laudable.

She rose, and the book slipped neglected to the floor. “The mirror of my
dressing table is collapsing,” she informed him; “I wonder if you
would look at it.” He followed her above to her room; it was a large,
four-square chamber, its windows brushed by the glossy leaves of an
aged black-heart cherry tree. Her bed was small, with a counterpane of
grotesque lace animals, a table held a scattered collection of costly
trifles, and a closet door stood open upon a shimmering array from
deepest orange to white and pale primrose. An enigmatic lacy garment,
and a surprisingly long pair of black silk stockings, occupied a chair;
while the table was covered with columns of print on long sheets of
paper. “Galleys,” she told him. “I read all father's proof.”

He moved the dressing table from the wall, and discovered the bolt
which had held the mirror in place upon the floor. As he screwed it into
position, Annot said:

“Don't look around for a minute.” There was a swift whisper of skirts,
a pause, then, “all right.” He straightened up, and found that she had
changed to a white skirt and waist. Fumbling in the closet she produced
a pair of low, brown shoes, and kicking off her slippers, donned the
others, balancing each in turn on the bed.

“Let's go--anywhere,” she proposed; “but principally where books are not
and birds are.” At a drugstore they purchased largely of licorice root,
which they consumed sitting upon a fence without the town.




XLIV

I SAID that instinctively, back in my room,” Annot remarked with a
puzzled frown. “It was beastly, really, to feel the necessity...
as though we had something corrupt to hide. And I feel that you are
especially nice--that way. You see, I am not trying to dispose of myself
like the clever maidens at the balls and bazaars, my legs and shoulders
are quite uncalculated. There is no price on... on my person; I'm not
fishing for any nice little Christian ceremony. No man will have to pay
the price of hats at Easter and furs in the fall, of eternal boredom,
for me. All this stuff in the novels about the sacredness of love and
constancy is just--stuff! Love isn't like that really; it's a natural
force, and Nature is always practical: potato bugs and jimson-weed and
men, it is the same law for all of them--more potato bugs, more men,
that's all.”

Anthony grasped only the larger implications of this speech, its
opposition to that love which he had felt as a misty sort of glory, as
intangible as the farthest star, as fragrant as a rose in the fingers.
There was an undeniable weight of solid sense in what Annot had said.
She knew a great deal more than himself, more--yes--than Eliza, more
than anybody he had before known; and, in the face of her overwhelmingly
calm and superior knowledge, his vision of love as eternal, changeless,
his ecstatic dreams of Eliza with the dim, magic white lilacs in her
arms, grew uncertain, pale. Love, viewed with Annot's clear eyes, was a
commonplace occurrence, and marriage the merest, material convenience:
there was nothing sacred about it, or in anything--death, birth, or
herself.

And was not the biologist, with his rows of labelled plants and bones,
his courageous questioning of the universe, of God Himself, bigger than
the majority of men with their thin covering of cant, the hypocrisy in
which they cloaked their doubts, their crooked politics and business?
Rufus Hardinge's conception of things, Annot's reasoning and patent
honesty, seemed more probable, more convincing, than the accepted
romantic, often insincere, view of living, than the organ-roll and
stained glass attitude.

In his new rationalism he eyed the world with gloomy prescience; he had
within him the somber sense of slain illusions; all this, he felt,
was proper to increasing years and experience; yet, between them, they
emptied the notable bag of licorice.

Annot rested a firm palm upon his shoulder and sprang to the ground,
and they walked directly and silently back. “It's a mistake to discuss
things,” Annot discovered to him from the door of her room, “they should
be lived; thus Zarathustrina.”




XLV

LATER they were driven from the porch by a heavy and sudden shower,
a dark flood torn in white streamers and pennants by wind gusts, and
entered through a long window a formal chamber seldom occupied. A
thick, white carpet bore a scattered design in pink and china blue; oil
paintings of the Dutch school, as smooth as ice, hung in massive gold
frames; a Louis XVI clock, intricately carved and gilded, rested upon
a stand enamelled in black and vermilion, inlaid with pagodas and
fantastic mandarins in ebony and mother-of-pearl and camphor wood.
At intervals petulant and sweet chimes rang from the clock: trailing,
silvery bubbles of sound that burst in plaintive ripples.

Rufus Hardinge sat with bowed head, his lips moving noiselessly. Annot
occupied a chair with sweeping, yellow lines, that somehow suggested to
Anthony a swan. “Father has had a tiresome letter from Doctor Grundlowe
at Bonn,” she informed the younger man.

“He disagrees with me absolutely,” Hardinge declared. “But Caprera at
Padova disagrees with him; and Markley, at Glasgow, contravenes us all.”

“It's about a tooth,” Annot explained.

“The line to the anterior-posterior diameter is simian,” the biologist
asserted. “The cusps prove nothing, but that forward slope--” he half
rose from his chair, his eyes glittering wrathfully at Anthony, but fell
back trembling... “simian,” he muttered.

“A possible difference of millions of years in human history,” Annot
added further.

“But can't they agree at all!” Anthony exclaimed; “don't they know
anything? That's an awful long time.”

“A hundred million years,” the elder interrupted with a contemptuous
gesture, “nothing, a moment. I place the final glacial two hundred
and seventy million after Jenner, and we have--, agreed to dismiss it;
trifling, adventitious. There are more fundamental discrepancies,” he
admitted. “Unless something definite is discovered, a firm base
established, a single ray of light let into a damnable dark,” he stopped
torn with febrile excitement, then, scarcely audible, continued, “our
lives, our work... will be of less account than the blood of Oadacer,
spilt on barbaric battle-fields.”

The rain ceased as suddenly as it had begun. Anthony followed Annot to
the porch. In the black spaces between the swiftly shifting clouds
stars shone brilliantly; there was a faint drip from the trees. “He gets
dreadfully depressed,” she interpreted her parent to him. “They wrangle
all the time, exactly like a lot of schoolgirls. You have no idea of
the bitterness, the jealousy, the contemptuous personalities in the
Quarterlies. Really, they are as fanatical, as narrow, as the churches
they ignore; they are quite like Presbyterian biologists and Catholic.”
 She sighed lightly. “They leave little for a youngish person to dream
on. You are so superior--to ignore these centessimo affairs. Will you
lean from the edge of your cloud and smile on a daughter of the earth in
last year's dinner gown?”

It was, he told himself, nonsense; yet he was moved to make no
easy reply, something in her voice, illusive and wistful, made that
impossible. “It's very good-looking,” he said impotently.

“I'm glad you like it,” she told him simply. “M'sieur Paret fitted it
himself while an anteroom full of women hated me. Oh, Anthony!” she
exclaimed, “I'd love to wander with you down that brilliant street and
through the Place Vendôme to the Seine. Better still--there's a
little shop on the Via Cavour in Florence where they sell nothing but
chocolate, chocolate, chocolate, the most heavenly cakes with black
hearts and the most heavenly smell. And you'd like Spain, so fierce
and hot against its dusty hills; and Cortina, green beneath its red
mountains. We could get a porter and rucksacks, and walk--” she broke
off, her hands pressed to her cheeks, a dawning dismay in her eyes. Then
she was gone with a flutter of the skirt so carefully draped by M'sieur
Paret.




XLVI

THE pictures of far places had stirred him but slightly: but to travel
with Annot, to see anything with Annot, would offer continual amusement
and surprise; her vigorous candor, her freedom from sham and petty
considerations, enveloped the most commonplace perspectives in an
atmosphere of high novelty. The trace of the vagabond, the detachment
of the born dweller in tents, woven so picturesquely through his being,
responded to her careless indifference to the tyranny of an established
and timid scheme of existence.

The following day her old, bright hardness had returned: she railed at
him in French, in German, in Italian; she called him the solemn shover,
Sir Anthony Absolute. And, holding Thomas Huxley's head directed toward
him, recommended that resigned quadruped to emulate Anthony's austere
and inflexible virtues.




XLVII

BUT there was no trace of gayety in the excited and subdued tones in
which, later, she called him into the hothouse. He found her bending
tense with emotion over the row of plants upon whose flowering such
incalculable things depended. “Look!” she cried, taking his hand and
drawing him down over the green shoots, where his cheek brushed her
hair, where he felt the warm stir of her breathing. “Look! they are in
full bud, to-morrow they will burst open.” She straightened up, his hand
still held in hers, and a shadow fell upon her vivid countenance. “If
his reasoning is wrong, this experiment... like all the others, it will
kill him. They _must_ be white, it would be too cruel, too senseless
not. I am afraid,” she said simply; “nature is so terrible, a
Juggernaut, crushing everything to dust beneath its wheeling centuries.
I am glad that you are here, Anthony.” She drew closer to him; her
breast swelled in a sharp, tempestuous breath.

“I have been lonelier than I--I realized. I am dreadfully worried about
father. They have lied to me; things are worse, I can see that. You
have to dress him like a child; I know how considerate you are; you are
bright, new gold with the clearest ring in the world.

“We must get a real chauffeur; you have never been that... in my
thoughts. You know,” she laughed happily, “I said in the beginning that
you were a miserable affair in details of that kind.”

A feeling of guilt rose swiftly within him, which, unwilling to
acknowledge, he strove to beat down from his thoughts. But, above his
endeavor, grew the clear conviction that he should immediately tell
Annot his purpose in driving Rufus Hardinge's car. He must not victimize
her generosity, nor take profit from the friendship she offered him so
unreservedly. He was dimly conscious that the revelation of his design
would end the pleasant intimacy growing up between them; the mere
mention of Eliza must destroy their happy relations; girls, even Annot,
were like that.

He wondered, suddenly cold, if this spelled disloyalty to Eliza! but he
angrily refuted that whispered insinuation. His love for Eliza was
as un-assailably above all other considerations as she herself shone
starlike over a petty, stumbling humanity. White and withdrawn and fine
she inhabited the skies of his aspirations. He endeavored now to capture
her in his imagination, his memory; and she smiled at him palely, as
from a very great distance. He realized that in the past few days he had
not had that subtle sense of her nearness, he had not been conscious of
that drifting odor of lilacs; and suddenly he felt impoverished, alone.

Annot smiled, warm and near.

“You are awfully kind,” he temporized; “but hadn't we better let the
thing stand as it is? You see--I want money.”

“But you may have that now; whatever you want.”

“No. You are so good, it's hard to explain--I want money that I earn;
real money; I couldn't think of taking any other from you.”

“Anthony, my good bourgeois! I had thought you quite without that
sort of tin pride. Besides, I am not giving it to you; after all it's
father's to use as he likes.”

“But I must give him something for it--”

“Do you suppose you are giving us nothing?” she interrupted him warmly;
“you have brought us your clear, beautiful spirits, absolutely without
price. Why, you can make father laugh; have you any idea how rarely he
did that? When you imitate Margaret absolutely I can see her fat, white
stockings. And your marvellous unworldliness--” she shook her head
mournfully. “I fear that this is mere calculation; surely you must know
the value of your innocent charms.” Anthony stood with a lowered head,
floundering mentally among his warring inclinations; when, almost with
relief, he saw that she had noiselessly vanished.




XLVIII

HE slept uneasily, and woke abruptly to a room flooded with sunlight,
and an unaccountable sense of something gone wrong. He dressed
hurriedly, and had opened his door, when he heard his name called from
below. It was Annot, he knew, but her voice was strange, terrified--a
helpless cry new to her accustomed poise. “Anthony! Anthony!” she called
from the conservatory.

Rufus Hardinge, who, it was evident from his clothes had not been in
bed, was standing rigidly before the row of plants upon whose flowering
they had so intently waited. And, in a rapid glance, Anthony saw
that they had blossomed in delicate, parti-colored petals--some pale
lavender, others deep purple, still others reddish white. Annoys yellow
wrap was thrown carelessly about her nightgown, her feet were bare, and
her hair hung in a tangle about her blanched face.

When Anthony entered she clung to his arm, and he saw that she was
trembling violently. For a tense moment they were silent: the sun
streamed over the mathematical plant ranks and lit the white or blue
tickets tied to their stems; a bubbling chorus of birds filled the world
of leaves without. “It's all wrong,” she sobbed.

“So!” the biologist finally said with a wry smile; “you see that I have
not solved the riddle of the universe; inheritance in pure line is not
explicated.... A life of labor as void as any prostitute's; not a single
fact, not a supposition warranted, not a foot advanced.”

With a sudden and violent movement for which they were entirely
unprepared he swept the row of plants crashing upon the floor; where,
in a scattered heap of brown loam, broken pottery, smeared bloom, their
tenuous, pallid roots quivered in air. “Games with plants and animals
and bones for elderly children; riddles without answer... blind ways.”
 His expression grew furtive, cunning. “I have been trifled with,” he
declared, “I have been deliberately misled; but I desire to say that
I see through--through Him: I comprehend His little joke. It's in bad
taste... to leave a soul in the dark, blundering about in the cellar
with the table spread above. But in the end I was not completely
bamboozled. He was not quick enough... the hem of His garment.

“Your mother saw Him clear. She was considered beautiful, but beauty's a
vague term. Perhaps if I saw her now it would be clearer to me. But I'll
tell you His little joke,” he lowered his voice confidentially--“it's
all true--that apocalyptical heaven; there's a big book, trumpets,
angels all complete singing Gregorian chants. What a sell!” He laughed,
a gritty, mirthless performance.

“Come up to your room, father,” Annot urged; “his arm, Anthony.” Anthony
placed his hand gently upon the biologist's shoulder, but the latter
wrenched himself free. Suddenly with a choked cry and arms swinging like
flails he launched himself upon the orderly plants. Before he could be
stopped row upon row splintered on the floor; he fought, struggled
with them as though they were animate opponents, cursed them in a high,
raving voice. Anthony quickly lifted him, pinning his arms to his sides.
Annot had turned away, her shoulders shaking with sobs.

Rufus Hardinge's struggling unexpectedly ceased, his countenance
regained completely its habitual quietude. “I shall begin once more,
at the beginning,” he whispered infinitely wistful. “The little ray of
light... germ of understanding. The scientific problem of the future,”
 his speech became labored, thick, “scientific... future. Other avenue of
progress:

“Gentlemen, the Royal Society, a paper on, on--Tears, gentlemen...
not only automatic,” his voice sank to a mere incomprehensible
babble. Anthony carried him to his bed, while Annot telephoned for the
neurologist.

After the specialist had gone Annot came in to where Anthony waited
in the study. Her feet were thrust in the Turkish slippers, her hair
twisted into a hasty knot, but otherwise she had not changed. She came
swiftly, with pale lips and eyes brilliantly shining from dark hollows,
to his side. “His wonderful brain is dead,” she told him. “Professor
Jamison thinks there will be only a few empty years to the end. But
actually it's all over.” In a manner utterly incomprehensible to him she
was crying softly in his arms.

He must lead her to a chair, he told himself, release her at once. Yet
she remained with her warm, young body pressed against him, the circle
of her arms about his neck, her tears wet upon his cheek. He stepped
back, but she would have fallen if he had not continued to support
her. His brain whirled under the assault, the surrender, of her dynamic
youth. Their mouths met; were bruised in kissing.




XLIX

HE stood with bowed shoulders, twisting lips; and, after a momentary
pause, she fled from the room. Cold waves of self-hatred flowed over
him--he had taken a despicable advantage of her grief. The pleasant
fabric of the past, unthinking days, the new materialism with its
comfortable freedom from restraint, crumbled from an old, old skeleton
whose moldering lines spelled the death of all--his heart knew--that was
high, desirable, immaculate. He wondered if, like Rufus Hardinge, his
understanding had come too late. But, in the re-surge of his adoration
for Eliza, infinitely more beautiful and serene from the pit out of
which he sped his vision, he was possessed by the conviction that
nothing created nor void should extinguish the bright flame of his
passion, hold them separate.

In the midst of his turmoil he recalled Eliza with relief, with delight,
with tumultuous longing. He soared on the wings of his ecstasy; but
descended abruptly to the practical necessities which confronted him. He
must leave the Hardinges immediately; with a swift touch of the humorous
spirit native to him, he realized that again he would be without money.
Then more seriously he considered his coming interview with Annot.

The house was charged with the vague unrest, the strange aspect of
familiar things, wrought by serious illness. Luncheon was disorganized,
Annot was late. She was pale, but, under an obvious concern, she
radiated a suppressed content. She laid a letter before Anthony.
“Registered,” she told him. “I signed.” It was, he saw, from his father,
and he slipped it into his pocket, intent upon the explanation which
lay before him. It would be more difficult even than he had anticipated:
Annot spoke of the near prospect of a Mediterranean trip, if Rufus
Hardinge rallied sufficiently. “He is as contented and gentle as a nice
old lady,” she reported; then, with a subtle expansion of manner, “it
will be such fun--I shall take you by the hand, 'This, my good infant,
is one of Virgil's final resting places....'”

“That would be splendid,” he acknowledged, “but I'm afraid that I
sha'n't be able to go. The fact is that--that I had better leave you. I
can't take your money for... for....”

She glanced at him swiftly, under the shadow of a frown, then shook her
head at him. “That tiresome money again! It's a strange thing for you
to insist on; material considerations are ordinarily as far as possible
from your thoughts. I forbid you absolutely to mention it again; every
time you do I shall punish you--I shall present you with a humiliating
gold piece in person.”

“I should be all kinds of a trimmer to take advantage of your goodness.
No, I must go--” The gay warmth evaporated from her countenance as
abruptly as though it had been congealed in a sudden icy breath; she
sat motionless, upright, enveloping him in the bright resentment of her
gaze.

“And I must ask you to forgive me for... for this morning,” he stumbled
hastily on.

The resentment burned into a clear flame of angry contempt. “'For this
morning!' because I kissed you?”

He made a vehement gesture of denial. “Oh, no!” But she would not allow
him to finish. “But I did,” she announced in a hard, determined voice.
“It isn't necessary for you to be polite; I don't care a damn for
that sickening sort of thing. I did, and you are properly and modestly
retreating. I believe that you think I am--'designing,' isn't that
the word? that you might have to marry me. A kiss, I am to realize, is
something sacred. Bah! you make me ill, like almost everything else in
life.

“If you think for a minute that it was anything more than the expression
of a passing impulse you are beyond words. And, if it had been more,
you--you violet, I wouldn't marry you; I wouldn't marry any man, ever!
ever! ever! I might have gone to Italy with you, but probably come home
with some one else--will that get into your pretty prejudices?”

“If you had gone to Italy with me,” he declared sullenly, “you would
never have come home with anybody else.”

“That sort of thing has been dismissed to the smaller rural towns and
the cheap melodramas; it's no longer considered elevated to talk like
that, but only pitiful. You will start next on 'God's noblest creation,'
and purity, and the females of your family. Don't you know, haven't you
been told, that the primitive religious rubbish about marriage has been
laughed out of existence? Did you dream that I wanted to _keep_ you?
or that I would allow you to keep me after the thing had got stale?
It makes me cold all over to be so frightfully misunderstood. Oh, its
unthinkable! Fi, to kiss you! wasn't it loose of me?”

Her contemptuous periods stung him in a thousand minute places. “I told
you,” he retorted hotly, “that I wanted to make money; I don't want it
given to me; it's for my wedding.”

“Of course, how stupid of me not to have guessed--the lips sacred to
her,” her own trembled ever so slightly, but her scornful attitude, her
direct, bright gaze, were maintained, “A knight errant adventuring for
a village queen with her handkerchief in his sleeve and tempted by the
inevitable Kundry.”

He settled himself to weathering this feminine storm; he owed her all
the relief to be found in words. “I wanted the money to go West,” he
particularized further. “There's a position waiting for me--”

“It's all very chaste,” she told him, “but terribly commonplace. I think
that I don't care to hear the details.” She addressed herself to what
remained of the luncheon. “Have some more sauce,” she advised coolly,
then rang. “The pudding, Jane,” she directed.

“You have been wonderfully kind--” he began. But she halted him
abruptly. “We'll drop all that,” she pronounced, and deliberately lit a
cigarette.

A genuine admiration for her possessed Anthony; he recognized that she
was extraordinarily good to look at; he had had no idea that so vigorous
a spirit could have burned behind a becoming dress by Paret. He realized
with a faint regret, eminently masculine, that other men, men of moment,
would find her irresistibly attractive. Already it seemed incredible
that she had ever been familiar, intimate, tender, with him.

“You will be wanting to leave,” she said, rising; “--whenever you
like. I have written for a--a chauffeur. I think you should have, it's
twenty-five dollars, isn't it?”

“Not twenty-five cents,” he returned.

“I shouldn't like to force your delicate sensibilities.” She left the
room. He caught a last glimpse of her firm, young profile; her shining,
coppery hair; her supple, upright carriage.




L

IN his room he assembled the battered clothing in which Rufus Hardinge
had discovered him, preparatory to changing from his present more
elaborate garb, but a sudden realization of the triviality of that
course, born of the memory of Annot's broad disposition, halted him
midway. Making a hasty bundle of his personal belongings he descended
from the tower room. Through an open door he could see the still, white
face of the biologist looming from a pillow, and the trim form of a
nurse.

Thomas Huxley lay somnolently on the porch, beside Annot's
coffee-colored wicker chair and a yellow paper book which bore a title
in French. He paused on the street, gazing back, and recalled his first
view of the four-square, ugly house in its coat of mustard-colored
paint, the grey, dripping cupids of the fountain, the unknown girl with
yellow silk stockings. Already he seemed to have crossed the gulf which
divided it all from the present: its significance faded, its solidity
dissolved, dropped behind, like a scene viewed from a car window. He
turned, obsessed by the old, familiar impatience to hurry forward, the
feeling that all time, all energy, all plans and thoughts, were vain
that did not lead directly to----

A sudden and unaccountable sensation of cold swept over him, a profound
emotion stirring in response to an obscure, a hidden cause. Then, with
a rush, returned the feeling of Eliza's nearness: he _heard_ her, the
little, indefinable noises of her moving; he felt the unmistakable
thrill which she alone brought. There was a vivid sense of her hand
hovering above his shoulder; her fingers _must_ descend, rest warmly....
God! how did she get here. He whirled about... nothing against the
low stone-wall that bounded a sleepy garden, nothing in the paved
perspective of the sunny street! He stood shaken, half terrified,
miserable. He had never felt her nearness so poignantly; her distant
potency had never before so mocked his hungering nerves.

Then, with the cold chilling him like a breath from an icy vault, he
heard her, beyond all question, beyond all doubt:

“Anthony!” she called. “Anthony!” From somewhere ahead of him her tones
sounded thin and clear; they seemed to reach him dropping from a window,
lingering, neither grave nor gay, but tenderly secure, upon his hearing.
He broke into a clattering run over the bricks of the unremarkable
street, but soon slowed awkwardly into a walk, jeering at his fancy,
his laboring heart, his mad credulity. And then, drifting across his
bewildered senses, came the illusive, the penetrating, the remembered
odor of lilacs, like a whisper, a promise, a magic caress.




LI

IT was with a puzzled frown that Anthony halted in the heart of the
city and considered his present resources, his future, possible plans.
He had three dollars and some small silver left from the Hardinges, and
he regarded with skepticism the profession of chauffeur; he would rather
adventure the heavier work of the garages. As the afternoon was far
advanced he decided to defer his search until the following morning; and
he was absorbed within the gaudy maw of a moving picture theater.

Later, he entered an elaborate maze of mirrors, where, apparently, a
sheaf of Susannas unconsciously exhibited their diminishing, anatomical
charms to a procession of elders advancing two by two through a
perspective of sycamores.--At the bar, his glass of beer supported
by two fried oysters, a sandwich and a saucer of salted almonds, he
reflected upon the slough of sterility that had fastened upon his feet:
something must be accomplished, decisive, immediate.

He was proceeding toward the entrance when the familiar aspect of a back
brought him to a halt. The back moved, turned, and resolved into the
features of Thomas Addington Meredith. The mutual, surprised recognition
was followed by a greeting of friendly slaps, queries, the necessity for
instant, additional beers, and they found a place at a small, polished
table.

He was surprised to discover Tom Meredith the same foxy-faced boy he
had left in Doctor Allhop's drugstore... it seemed to Anthony that
an incalculable time had passed since the breaking of the bottles of
perfume; he felt himself to be infinitely changed, older, and the other
his junior by decades of experience and a vast accumulation of worldly
knowledge, contact with men, women, and events. Tom's raiment did not
seem so princely as it had aforetime; the ruby reputed to be the gift of
a married woman, was obviously meretricious, the gold timepiece merely
commonplace. But Anthony was unaffectedly glad to see him, to discuss
homely, familiar topics, repeat affectionately the names of favorite
localities, persons.

“I'm in a bonding house here,” Tom explained upon Anthony's query.
“Nothing in Ellerton for _me_. What are you doing?”

“Nothing, until to-morrow, when I think I'll get something in one of the
garages.” He thrust his hands negligently into his pockets, and came
in contact with his father's forgotten letter. He opened it, gazing
curiously at the words: “My dear Son,” when Tom, with an exclamation,
bent and recovered a piece of yellow paper that had fallen from the
envelope. “Is this all you think of these?” he demanded, placing a fifty
dollar bill upon the table.

Anthony read the letter with growing incredulous wonder and joy. He
looked up with burning cheeks at his companion. “Remember old Mrs.
Bosbyshell?” he questioned in an eager voice. “I used to carry wood,
do odd jobs, for her: well, she's dead, and left me--what do you
think!--father says about forty-seven thousand dollars. It's there,
waiting for me, in Ellerton.”

Suddenly he forgot Thomas Meredith, the glittering saloon, the
diminishing perspective of Susannas--he saw Eliza smiling at him out of
the dusk, with her arms full of white lilacs. With an unsteady
pounding of his heart, a tightening of the throat, he realized that,
miraculously, the happiness which he had imagined so far removed in the
uncertain future had been brought to him now, to the immediate present.
He could take a train at once and go to her. The waiting was over. The
immeasurable joy that flooded him deepened to a great chord of happiness
that vibrated highly through him. He folded the letter gravely,
thoughtfully. It was but a few hours to Ellerton by train, he knew, but
he doubted the possibility of a night connection to that sequestered
town. He would go in the morning.

“Thomas,” he declared, “I am about to purchase you the best dinner that
champagne can shoot into your debased middle. Oh, no, not here, but in a
real place where you can catch your own fish and shoot a pheasant out of
a painted tree.”

Thus pleasantly apostrophized that individual led Anthony to the Della
Robbia room of an elaborate hostelry, where they studied the _carte de
jour_ amid pink tiling and porphyry. There was a rosy flush of shaded
lights over snowy linen in the long, high chamber, the subdued passage
of waiters like silhouettes, low laughter, and a throbbing strain
of violins falling from a balcony above their heads. They pondered
nonchalantly the strange names, elaborate sauces; but were finally
launched upon suave cocktails and clams. Anthony settled back into
a glow of well-being, of the tranquillity that precedes an expected,
secure joy. He saluted the champagne bucket by the table; when,
suddenly, the necessity to speak of Eliza overcame him, he wished to
hear her name pronounced by other lips... perhaps he would tell Tom all;
he was the best of fellows....

“Are the Dreens home?” he asked negligently. “Have you seen Eliza Dreen
about--you know with that soft, shiny hair?”

Thomas Meredith directed at him a glance of careless surprise. “Why,” he
answered, “I thought you knew; it seemed to me she died before you left.
Anyhow, it was about the same time, it must have been the next week.
Pneumonia. This soup's great, Anthony.”




LII

HE joy that had sung through Anthony shrunk into an intolerable pain
like an icicle thrust into his heart; he swallowed convulsively a
spoonful of soup, tasteless, scalding hot, and put the spoon down with
a clatter. He half rose from the chair, with his arms extended, as if by
that means he could ward off the terrible misfortune that had befallen
him. Thomas Meredith, unaware of Anthony's drawn face, his staring
gaze, continued to eat with gusto the unspeakable liquid, and the waiter
uncorked the champagne with a soft explosion. The wine flowed bubbling
into their glasses, and Tom held his aloft. “To your good luck,” he
proclaimed, but set it down untouched at Anthony's pallor.

“What's the matter--sick? It's the beer and cocktail, it always does
it.”

“It's not that,” Anthony said very distinctly.

His voice sounded to him like that of a third person. He was laboring to
adjust the tumult within him to the fact of Eliza's death; he repeated
half aloud the term “dead” and its whispered syllable seemed to fill the
entire world, the sky, to echo ceaselessly in space. From the
stringed instruments above came the refrain of a popular song; and,
subconsciously, mechanically, he repeated the words aloud; when he heard
his own voice he stopped as though a palm had been clapped upon his
mouth.

“What is it?” Tom persisted; “don't discompose this historical banquet.”
 The waiter replaced the soup with fish, over which he spread a thick,
yellow sauce. “Go on,” Anthony articulated, “go on--” he emptied his
champagne glass at a gulp, and then a second. “Certainly a fresh quart,”
 his companion directed the waiter.

Eliza was dead! pneumonia. That, he told himself, was why she had
not answered his letter, why, on the steps at Hydrangea House, Mrs.
Dreen--hell! how could he think of such things? Eliza... dead, cold who
warm had kissed him; Eliza, for whom all had been dreamed, planned,
undertaken, dead; Eliza gone from him, gone out of the sun into the
damned and horrible dirt. Tom, explaining him satisfactorily, devoted
himself to the succession of dishes that flowed through the waiter's
skillful hands, dishes that Anthony dimly recognized having
ordered--surely years before. “You're drunk,” Thomas declared.

He drank inordinately: gradually a haze enveloped him, separating him
from the world, from his companion, a shadowy shape performing strange
antics at a distance. Sounds, voices, penetrated to his isolation, rent
thinly the veil that held at its center the sharp pain dulled, expanded,
into a leaden, sickening ache. He placed the yellow bank note on a
silver platter that swayed before him, and in return received a crisp
pile, which, with numb fingers, he crowded into a pocket. He would have
fallen as he rose from his chair if Tom had not caught him, leading him
stumbling but safely to the street.

“Don't start an ugly drunk,” Thomas Meredith begged. Without a word,
Anthony turned and, with stiff legs, strode into the night. Eliza was
dead; he had had something to give her, a surprise, but it was too
late. A great piece of good fortune had overtaken him, he wanted to tell
Eliza, but... he collided with a pedestrian, and continued at a tangent
like a mechanical toy turned from its course. His companion swung him
from under the wheels of a truck. “Wait,” he panted, “I'm no Marathon
runner, it's hotter'n Egypt.”

The perspiration dripped from Anthony's countenance, wet the clenched
palms of his hands. He walked on and on, through streets brilliantly
lighted and streets dark; streets crowded with men in evening clothes,
loafing with cigarettes by illuminated playbills, streets empty, silent
save for the echo of his hurried, shambling footsteps. Eliza was lost,
out there somewhere in the night; he must find her, bring her back: but
he couldn't find her, nor bring her back--she was dead. He stopped to
reconsider dully that idea. A row of surprisingly white marble steps, of
closed doors, blank windows, confronted him. “This is where I retire,”
 Thomas Meredith declared. Anthony wondered what the fellow was buzzing
about? why should he wait for him, Anthony Ball, at “McCanns”?

He considered with a troubled brow a world empty of Eliza; it wasn't
possible, no such foolish world could exist for a moment. Who had
dared to rob him? In a methodical voice he cursed all the holy, all
the august, all the reverent names he could call to mind. Then again
he hurried on, leaving standing a ridiculous figure who shouted an
incomprehensible sentence.

He passed through an unsubstantial city of shadows, of sudden,
clangoring sounds, of the blur of lights swaying in strings above his
head, of unsteady luminous bubbles floating before him through ravines
of gloom; bells rang loud and threatening, throats of brass bellowed.
His head began to throb with a sudden pain, and the pain printed clearly
on the bright suffering of his mind a stooping, dusty figure; leaden
eyes, a grey face, peered into his own; slack lips mumbled the story
of a boy dead long ago--Eliza, Eliza was dead--and of a red necktie, a
Sunday suit; a fearful figure, a fearful story, from the low mutter of
which he precipitantly fled. Other faces crowded his brain--Ellie with
her cool, understanding look, his mother, his father frowning at him in
assumed severity; he saw Mrs. Dreen, palely sweet in a starlit gloom.
Then panic swept over him as he realized that he was unable, in a sudden
freak of memory, to summon into that intimate gallery the countenance of
Eliza. It was as though in disappearing from the corporeal world she had
also vanished from the realm of his thoughts, of his longing. He paused,
driving his nails into his palms, knotting his brow, in an agony of
effort to visualize her. In vain. “I can't remember her,” he told an
indistinct human form before him. “I can't remember her.”

A voice answered him, thin and surprisingly bitter. “When you are sober
you will stop trying.”

And then he saw her once more, so vivid, so near, that he gave a sobbing
exclamation of relief. “Don't,” he whispered, “not... lose again--” He
forgot for the moment that she was dead, and put out a hand to touch
her. Thin air. Then he recalled. He commenced his direct, aimless
course, but a staggering weariness overcame him, the toylike progress
grew slower, there were interruptions, convulsive starts.




LIII

AT the same time the haze lightened about him: he saw clearly his
surroundings, the black, glittering windows of stores, the gleaming
rails which bound the stone street. His hat was gone and he had long
before lost the bundle that contained his linen. But the loss was of
small moment now--he had money, a pocketful of it, and forty-seven
thousand dollars waiting in Ellerton: his father was a scrupulous,
truthful and exact man.

Eliza and he would have been immediately married, gone to a little green
village, under a red mountain; Eliza would have worn the most beautiful
dresses made by a parrot; but that, he recognized shrewdly, was an
idiotic fancy--birds didn't make dresses. And now she was dead.

He entered a place of multitudinous mirrors reflecting a woman's
flickering limbs, sly and bearded masculine faces, that somehow were
vaguely familiar.

“Champagne!” he cried, against the bar.

“Your champagne'll come across in a schooner.”

But, impatiently, he shoved a handful of money into the zinc gutter.
“Champagne!” he reiterated thickly. The barkeeper deduced four dollars
and returned the balance. “Sink it,” he advised, “or you'll get it
lifted on you.”

With the wine, the mist deepened once more about him; the ache--was it
in his head or his heart?--grew duller. He had poured out a third glass
when a hand was laid upon his shoulder, and whirling suspiciously, he
saw a uniform cap, a man's gaunt face and burning eyes.

“Brother,” the latter said, “brother, shall we leave this reeking sink,
and go out together into God's night?”

Blinking, Anthony recognized the livery, the accents, of the Salvation
Army. A sullen anger burned within him--this man was a sort of official
connection of God's, who had killed Eliza. He smoothed out his face
cunningly, moved obediently toward the other, and struck him viciously
across the face. Pandemonium rose instantly about him, an incredible
number of men appeared shouting, gesticulating, and formed in a ring of
blurred, grinning faces. The jaw of the Salvation Army man was bright
with blood, dark drops fell on his threadbare coat. His hand closed
again on Anthony's shoulder.

“Strive, brother,” he cried. “The Mansion door is open.”

Anthony regarded him with insolent disdain. “Ought to be exposed,” he
articulated, “whole thing... humbug. Isn't any such--such... Eliza's
dead, ain't she?”

A ripple of merriment ran about the circle of loose, stained lips; the
curious, ribald eyes glittered with cold mirth; the circle flattened
with the pressure of those without, impatient for a better view. Anthony
surveyed them with impotent fury, loathing, and they met his passionate
anger with faces as stony, as inhuman, as cruel, carved masks. He
heard _her_ name, the name of the gracious and beautiful vision of his
adoration, repeated in hoarse, in maculate, in gibing tones.

“She's dead,” he repeated sharply, as though that fact should impose
silence on them; “you filthy curs!” But their approbation of the
spectacle became only the more marked.

The Salvation Army man fastened his hectic gaze upon Anthony; he was,
it was evident, unaware of the blood drying upon his face, of the throng
about them. “There is no death,” he proclaimed. “There is no death!”

“But she _is_ dead,” Anthony insisted; “pneumonia... with green eyes
and foggy hands.” They began an insane argument: Eliza was gone, Anthony
reiterated, the other could not deny that she was lost to life, to the
sun. He recalled statements of Rufus Hardinge's, crisp iconoclasms of
Annot's, and fitted them into the patchwork of his labored speech.
Texts were flung aloft like flags by the other; ringing sentences in the
incomparable English of King James echoed about the walls, the bottles
of the saloon and beat upon the throng, the blank hearts, the beery
brains, of the spectators. “Blessed are the pure in heart,” he orated,
“for they... for they...”




LIV

THAT word--purity, rang like a gong in Anthony's thoughts: Eliza had
emphasized it, questioning him. The term became inexplicably merged
with Eliza into one shining whole--Eliza, purity; purity, Eliza. A swift
impression of massed, white flowers swept before him, leaving a delicate
and trailing fragrance. He had a vision of purity as something concrete,
something which, like a priceless and fragile vase, he guarded in
his hands. It had been a charge from her, a trust that he must keep
unspotted, inviolable, that she would require--but she was gone, she was
dead.

“... through the valley of the shadow,” the other cried.

She had left him; he stood alone, guarding a meaningless thing, useless
as the money in his pocket.

A man with bare, corded arms and an apron, broke roughly through the
circle; and with a hand on Anthony's back, a hand on the back of
his opponent, urged them toward the door. “You'll have to take this
outside,” he pronounced, “you're blocking the bar.”

An arm linked within Anthony's, and swung him aside. “Unavoidably
detained by merest 'quaintance,” Thomas Meredith explained with
ponderous exactitude. Unobserved, they found a place at the table they
had occupied earlier in the evening. The latter ordered a fresh bottle,
but was persuaded by Anthony to surrender the check which accompanied
it.

A sudden hatred for the money that had come too late possessed him: if
he had had the whole forty-seven thousand dollars there he would have
torn it up, trampled upon it, flung it to the noisome corners of the
saloon. It seemed to have become his for the express purpose of mocking
at his sorrow, his loss. His hatred spread to include that purity, that
virtue, which he had conceived of as something material, an actual
possession.... That, at any rate, he might trample under foot, destroy,
when and as it pleased him. Eliza was gone and all that was left was
valueless. It had been, all unconsciously, dedicated to her; and now he
desired to cast it into the mold that held her.

He fingered with a new care the sum in his pocket, an admirably
comprehensive plan had occurred to him--he would bury them both, the
money and purity, beneath the same indignity. Tom Meredith, he was
certain, could direct his purpose to its fulfillment. Nor was he
mistaken. The conversation almost immediately swung to the subject of
girls, girls gracious, prodigal of their charms. They would sally forth
presently and “see the town.” Tom loudly asseverated his knowledge of
all the inmates of all the complacent quarters under the gas light.
Before a cab was summoned Anthony stumbled mysteriously to the bar,
returning with a square, paper-wrapped parcel.

“Port wine,” he ejaculated, “must have it... for a good time.”




LV

A SEEMINGLY interminable ride followed, they rattled over rough stones,
rolled with a clacking tire over asphalt. A smell unnamable, fulsome,
corrupt, hung in Anthony's nostrils; the driver objurgated his horse in
a desperate whisper; Tom's head fell from side to side on his breast.
The mists surged about Anthony, veiling, obscuring all but the sullen
purpose compressing his heart, throbbing in his brain.

There was a halt, a rocking pavement and unctuous tones. Then a hall, a
room, and the tinny racket of a piano, feminine voices that, at the same
time, were hoarsely sexless, empty, like harsh echoes flung from a rocky
void. A form in red silk took possession of Anthony's hand, sat by his
side; a hot breath, a whisper, flattened against his ear. At times he
could distinguish Tom's accents; he seemed to be arguing masterfully,
but a shrill, voluble stream kept pace with him, silenced him in the
end.

Anthony strove against great, inimical forces to maintain his sanity of
action, ensure his purpose: he sat with a grim, haggard face as rigid
as wood, as tense as metal. The cloudy darkness swept over him,
impenetrable, appalling; through it he seemed to drop for miles, for
years, for centuries; it lightened, and he found himself clutching the
sides of his chair, shuddering over the space which, he had felt, gaped
beneath him.

In moments of respite he saw, gliding through the heated glare,
gaily-clad forms; they danced; yet for all the dancing, for all the
colors, they were more sinister than merry, they were incomparably more
grievous than gay. A tray of beer glasses was held before him, but he
waved it aside. “Champagne,” he muttered. The husky voices commended
him; a bare arm crept around his neck, soft, stifling; the red silk form
was like a blot of blood on the gloom; it spread over his arm like a
tide of blood welling from his torn heart.

He thought at intervals, when the piano was silent, that he could
distinguish the sound of low, continuous sobbing; and the futility of
grief afforded a contemptuous amusement. “It's fierce,” a shrill voice
pronounced. “They ought to have took her somewhere else; this is a
decent place.” A second hotly silenced this declaration. In the
jumble of talk which followed he heard the title “captain” pronounced
authoritatively, conclusively imposing an abrupt lull. Men entered. With
an effort which taxed his every resource of concentration he saw that
there were two; he distinguished two tones--one deliberate, coldly
arrogant, the other explosive, iterating noisy assertions. Peering
through the film before his eyes, Anthony saw that the first,
insignificant in stature, exactly and fashionably dressed, had a
countenance flat and dark, like a Chinaman's; the other was a fleshy
young man in an electric blue suit, his neck swelling in a crimson fold
above his collar, who gesticulated with a fat, white hand.

Anthony felt the attention of the room centered upon himself, he heard
disconnected periods; “... to the eyes. Good fellow... threw friend
out--one of them lawyer jags, too dam' smart.” A voice flowed, thick
and gummy like molasses, from the redness at his side, “He's my fellow;
ain't you, Raymond?”

A wave of deathly sickness swept up from the shuddering void and
enveloped him. He summoned his dissipated faculties, formed his cold
lips in readiness to pronounce fateful words, when he was diverted
by the sharp impact of a shutting door, he heard with preternatural
clearness a bolt slip in its channel. The young man in the blue suit had
disappeared. Again the sobbing, low and distinct, rose and fell upon his
hearing.

There was a general stir in the room; the form beside him rose; and he
was lunging to his feet when, in the act of moving, he became immovable;
he stood bent, with his hands extended, listening; he turned his head
slowly, he turned his dull, straining gaze from side to side. Then he
straightened up as though he had been opened by a spring.

“Who--who called?” he demanded. “Who called me--Anthony?”

In the short, startled silence which followed the room grew suddenly
clear before him, the mist dissolved before a garish flood of gaslight
that fell upon a grotesque circle of women in shapeless, bright apparel;
he saw haggard, youthful countenances on which streaks of paint burned
like flames; he saw eyes shining and dead like glass marbles; mouths
drawn and twisted as though by torture. He saw the fragile, fashionably
dressed youth with the flat face. No one of them could have called him
in the clear tone that had swept like a silver stream through the miasma
of his consciousness.

Again he heard it. “Anthony!” Its echo ran from his brain in thrills of
wonder, of response, to the tips of his fingers. “Anthony!” Oh, God!
he knew now, beyond all question, all doubt, that it was the voice
of Eliza. But Eliza was dead. It was an inexplicable, a cunning and
merciless jest, at the expense of his love, his longing.... “Anthony!”
 it came from above, from within.

A double, sliding door filled the middle of the wall, and, starting
forward, he fumbled with its small, brass handles. A sudden, subdued
commotion of curses, commands, arose behind him; hands dragged at
his shoulders; an arm as thin and hard as steel wire closed about his
throat. He broke its strangling hold, brushed the others aside. The door
was bolted. Yes, it came from beyond; and from within came the sobbing
that had hovered continuously at the back of his perception.

He shook the door viciously; then, disregarding the hands tearing at him
from the rear, burst it open with his shoulder. He staggered in, looking
wildly about.... It had, after all, been only a freak of his disordered
mind, an hallucination of his pain. The room was empty but for the young
man in electric blue, now with his coat over the back of a chair, and
a girl with a torn waist, where her thin, white shoulder showed dark,
regular prints, and a tangle of hair across her immature face.

The man in shirt sleeves rose from the couch, on which he had been
sitting, with a stream of sudden, surprised oaths. The girl who stood
gazing with distended eyes at Anthony turned and flashed through the
broken door. “Stop her!” was urgently cried; “the hall door--” Anthony
heard a chair fall in the room beyond, shrill cries that sank, muffled
in a further space.

The two men faced him in the silent room: the larger, with an empurpled
visage, bloodshot eyes, shook with enraged concern; the other was as
motionless as a piece of furniture, in his wooden countenance his
gaze glittered like a snake's, glittered as icily as the diamond that
sparkled in his crimson tie folded exactly beneath an immaculate collar.
Only, at intervals, his fingers twitched like jointed and animated
straws.

An excited voice cried from the distance: “She's gone! Alice's face
is tore open... out the door like a devil, and up the street in her
petticoat.”

The man with the flushed face wilted. “This is as bad as hell,” he
whimpered. “It will come out, sure. You--” he particularized Anthony
with a corroding epithet. “The captain is in it deep... this will do for
him, we'll all go up--”

“Why?” the other demanded. He indicated Anthony with his left hand,
while the other stole into his pocket. “He brought her here... you heard
the girl and broke into the room; there was a fight--a fight.” He drew
nearer to Anthony by a step.




LVI

ANTHONY gazed above their heads. There, again, clear and sweet, his
name shaped like a bell-note. The familiar scent of a springtide of
lilacs swept about him; the placid murmur of water slipping between
sodded banks, tumbling over a fall; the querulous hunting cry of owls
hovered in his hearing, singing in the undertone of that pronouncement
of his name out of the magic region of his joy.

“No good,” a voice buzzed, indistinct, immaterial. “Who'll shut this--?
who'll get the girl?”

“The girl can't reach us alone....”

An intolerable scarlet hurt stabbed at Anthony out of a pungent, whitish
cloud. There was a fretful report. A flat, dark face without expression,
without the blink of an eyelid, a twitch of the mouth, loomed before him
and then shot up into darkness. The hurt multiplied a thousand fold, it
poured through him like molten metal, lay in a flashing pool upon his
heart, filled his brain. He opened his lips for a protest, put out his
hands appealingly. But he uttered no sound, his arms sank, grew stiff...
the light faded from his eyes.... imponderable silence. Frigid night....

Far off he heard _her_ calling him, imperative, confident, glad. Her
crystal tones descended into the abyss whose black and eternal walls
towered above him. He must rise and bear to her that gift like a
precious and fragile vase which he held unbroken in his hands. An
ineffable fragrance deepened about him from the massed blooms rosy in
the glow where she waited, drawing him up to her out of the chaotic wash
beyond the worlds where the vapors of corrupted matter sank and sank in
slow coils, falling endlessly, forever.


THE END







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